Through the seam of the quilt, I saw that the screen of my roommate’s mobile phone had finally turned off. After a while, I sneakily poked my head out and confirmed again and again that they were all asleep. Then he quickly took out his headphones, put them on, turned on the video, and started tonight's Happy Hour.

Recently, late every night, I am like a sneaky thief, squatting and quietly turning on the computer. But actually, I just want to watch a newly updated episode of "The Summer Solstice Is Not Here".

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In fact, in front of my friends, I am a person who loves to watch "A Brief History of Humankind" and "The Three-Body Problem", and I will at least watch Yang Jiang and Mo Yan. I don’t know who Guo Jingming is.

A few days ago, I made an appointment with a friend for afternoon tea. Everyone was swiping on the screen skillfully, and suddenly a girl rolled her eyes and said in an annoyed tone, ""The Summer Solstice Is Not Here" has been a hot search all day. Are you annoyed?"

Everyone looked up at the girl, and they began to echo, "Yes, these things are only seen by idiot fans."

"The hot searches are all bought, how can anyone still read them?" Guo Jingming. ”

To be honest, I discovered that the adult world is very orderly. When they gather in a circle to say something bad, everyone must take turns to speak politely. To criticize its shortcomings, there is no such thing as queue jumping.

When it was my turn to scold, I hesitated with some guilt.

As a result, the girl immediately looked at me suspiciously, like a prophet in Werewolf, alert to something. I swallowed my saliva and said loudly, "I've never seen Guo Jingming's stuff, it's so boring."

The atmosphere suddenly relaxed.

I looked around at the friends who despised Guo Jingming, and their confident tone was terrifyingly consistent.

I began to think seriously to make sure that I had not lost my memory: every book "Little Times" and "Sadness Against the River" that I had in class were lent to me by them.

It’s just that when we were young, we hid from our parents and secretly read Guo Jingming’s books; now that we have grown up, I will continue to hide from my friends and watch Guo Jingming’s dramas.

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When "The Smallest Story" was released, it had just passed the craze of popular tops and yo-yos. A trend at that time was that many people around me used it as a way to show off by buying a copy of the latest serials "The Minimum Novel" and "The Most Comic".

When I was in junior high school, before the bell rang, I had already packed my schoolbag and was ready to rush to the bicycle shed. Several friends looked at each other in tacit understanding and received the signal, knowing that we would rush to buy the latest issue later.

The newsstand at that time was green, with the brand-new China Post printed on it. The rectangular iron booth was set up with freshly released copies of "Yi Zhou" and "Youth Digest" ", and in the corner there is "Ghost Blows Out the Lantern" which only bold children dare to buy. At school, my friends who were the first to buy the novel would hide it mysteriously behind their backs.

When others curiously asked him what he hid, he pretended to be a little pushy, then took out the magazine with a nice cover and comfortable layout from behind him, and said, "It's the latest one." "It's just the smallest thing in the period."

When he said "just", his tone was deliberately prolonged to emphasize that he got it easily and didn't care much.

In fact, unlike what is said in youth movies, there are not so many secret love plots with love letters hidden in drawers. What we quietly put on our desks are just youth novels.

Every time I pass by a rusty and dilapidated green leather house now, it is no longer the same as it used to be. There were a few old men wearing floppy white vests, wearing reading glasses, picking out newspapers, and then took out two yuan to buy today's evening paper. My aunt’s magazines began to gather dust one after another.

Many newsstand doors have never been opened again after the iron gates were pulled down.

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Actually, I also know that Guo Jingming’s movie is not good, the plot of the book is unrealistic, and it is no longer suitable to watch after eleven years. But even if I complain and criticize him at the same time, I am also the kind of person who wears a mask and has to watch the premiere of his movies.

But I don’t remember when it started, I didn’t dare to admit that I liked him.

When "Jueji" was first released, there was a lot of curses. Guo Jingming said at the press conference: "You won't be cursing Jueji if I die." It can be seen that the abuse is There are so many voices.

Today, I chatted with a reader who also liked Guo Jingming. She said, "Our youth was not so bloody and not so exaggerated.

After experiencing real life, maybe I won’t be interested in novels like that anymore.”

I was thinking that maybe the reason why I was so unwilling to admit that I liked him was because I didn’t want to look back at myself during that time.

We reject all painful youth literature and all non-mainstream literature. However, rejection is not clear enough to draw a clear line, so I chose to despise this type of thing, and Guo Jingming is one of the best targets.

Just like posting a hypocritical post on Moments late at night, I can’t wait to delete it the next day.

Guo Jingming's "Sadness Turns into a River Against the Current" was probably the Martian text we posted with QQ signatures in that era, so we could only delete it from our minds in a hurry.

Then pretend that we have been a very mature person since we were babies.

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However, I secretly watched "The Summer Solstice Has Not Arrive", and it has never been able to keep its popularity.

Because I forgot to delete my browsing history, videos like "Fu Xiaosi cheated!" "Qiqi turned black!" "Leave Li Xia to marry someone else?" appeared all the time in my relevant recommendations, and my boyfriend also Finally found out I've been watching this show.

So, every day he would sarcastically say to me, "By the way, did you watch that today? The end of summer has not yet come?"

"No, I haven't watched it." He replied submissively.

He even posted on WeChat to tell the world about it. Looking at the "hahaha" and "non-mainstream" comments in the comments, it forced me to lower my head and live a small and careful life.

This has been tormenting me for a whole month from the time "Summer Solstice Has Not Come" was aired until now.

Actually, I am not asking or advocating that people must like non-mainstream people and must like Guo Jingming. But I hope to retain, at least everyone has the right to like an idol who looks stupid and say so.

That’s all.