From 6 to 20 years old, 14 years of despair and persistence, what it means for a girl who can't walk, I'm afraid no one can say clearly. For 20-year-old Lu Li in Liulin, Shanxi, this seems to be an inescapable fate.
"Since you can't get rid of your fate, go to hell." This girl, who suffered from paraplegia of both lower limbs due to accidents since childhood, began to read by herself at the age of 14 with extraordinary efforts and persistence, and finished reading a dictionary a month later. /kloc-at the age of 0/6, Lu Li published a romance novel of more than160,000 words on "Tea Fragrance Network". 18 years old, was invited as the text director of the electronic magazine "Color of the Fallen City" and published many prose works and novels on the Internet. 20 12 February, became the text editor of "China Sky Network".
6 years old was accidentally intercepted.
Lu Li's home is in Liulin County.
This is a place called "Shayuan Grand". It takes about 20 minutes to get there through the old blue brick house and along the steep slopes and narrow alleys. Standing outside the courtyard wall where Lu left home, Liulin County has a panoramic view.
Lu Li is in a wheelchair, with long Qi Mei hair and bangs, and a slightly thin face with a smile.
Lu Li's life was completely changed on the third day of the fourth lunar month at the age of six. Hou Baoxiang, my mother, still remembers that Lu Xiao was playing alone in front of her house and accidentally slipped from the roadside to a slope more than one person high. It is common for children in mountainous areas to fall, and Hou Baoxiang didn't care. After crying for a while, Lu Xiao walked home.
After returning home, Lu Xiao changed his dirty pants, washed his face and went straight to the kang. After more than an hour, Lu Xiao woke up crying from her sleep and told her mother, "My leg fell." Hou Baoxiang thought that the child had dislocated his leg and rushed to the hospital with her. Who knows that after a few days of infusion in lishi district Hospital, Lu Xiao kept crying and crying. Below the navel, I feel nothing, and I have incontinence. In desperation, Lu Xiao's parents took her to Taiyuan.
Hou Baoxiang and his wife were shocked by the examination results of the provincial capital hospital: spinal nerve injury and paraplegia. Since then, treating children has become the most important thing in Hou Baoxiang's life. Lu Xiao's spinal cord is injured, so he can't sit, let alone move. His father found a board, hung it around his neck with two ropes, put Lu Xiaoping on the board, and kept running around Lishi, Taiyuan and Beijing, starting a difficult and painful road of seeking medical treatment.
In recent years, I have been seeking medical treatment everywhere, but Lu Xiao's condition has not improved. Many old experts in big hospitals told them that Lu Xiao's spinal nerves had been damaged and it was difficult to cure them. I suggest that they go home and let Lu Xiao resume his exercise.
In August of that year, a family with no hope of treatment in Beijing took a group photo in Tiananmen Square. Hou Baoxiang asked Lu Xiao to hold the iron railing with his hands and hold up his straight legs, and took the first and last sad "standing" photo. Lu Li will always remember the surprised and pitying eyes of onlookers at that time. Lu Xiao posted this photo on her computer desk. When she is free, she always stares at the photos.
"Standing" yourself in a daze. "There are too many unspeakable major events, and your little thoughts seem insignificant, even though it seems to be the end of the world for you." QQ space, wrote Lu Li.
From "Entertainment" to Love of Writing
In recent years, in order to treat Lu Xiao, this poor family borrowed money everywhere, spent more than 200,000 yuan, and even sold a homestead in a prime location in the county at a low price.
And when I woke up, I fell into a world without legs, and my body and mind were seriously traumatized. Xiao Lu lost consciousness in his lower limbs due to the damage of motor and sensory nerves in his legs. For a long time, Xiao Lu could barely sit on the kang with a dozen pillows. A year later, when she could sit, she climbed into bed by herself. After a long journey to see a doctor, Lu Xiao is very weak, and she catches a cold every half month on average.
In order to move freely, Xiao Lu practiced like a toddler. It took her about two years to learn to squat and "walk": squat, grab both feet with both hands, and walk on the back of her hand. After learning to "walk", she often rolls and plays on the lawn on the slope outside the door. She likes the feeling of grass stinging her hands and the smell of loess around her. As time goes on, Xiao Lu's knuckles are worn and scarred, and thick calluses grow.
Lu Xiao squatted and walked for a long time, and her body pressed her fragile legs, causing muscle atrophy. Father gritted his teeth and bought his daughter the first wheelchair. Lu Xiao bid farewell to the days of squatting. Some children of the same age thought that playing with Lu Xiao would lead to the same disease, which made Lu Xiao very sad for a while. "Everyone has his own life, so later he doesn't care what others say." Due to the inconvenience of travel, Lu Xiao's activities are even smaller.
Lu Xiao can't go to school with a schoolbag on his back like a child of the same age. Hou Baoxiang and his wife are too busy paying debts and taking care of the old man and two other children to teach Lu Xiao to study.
In 2006, 14-year-old Xiao Lu was fascinated by computers, and she longed to own her own computer. In order to read as soon as possible, she found an old dictionary of her sister and began to learn pinyin. For a month, except for eating, she looked through the dictionary every day. A month later, when his father moved the computer home, Lu Xiao had already turned over the dictionary. Since then, Xiao Liuli has never given up studying. In order to enrich her vocabulary, she will watch some documentaries on the internet and TV, find out the words she doesn't understand one by one, then record them and learn them one by one.
It didn't take long for Lu Li to skillfully use the Internet to type and chat. As soon as she learned to read, she wrote film reviews for the TV dramas she had watched. She even thinks that the plots of most TV dramas are too old-fashioned and have similar endings. She decided to write a work for herself and show it to herself. The "works" at that time, in her words, were all lines with dialogue and action.
This kind of writing, for Lu Li, is more about self-entertainment. But gradually, she fell in love with writing and saw another window opened by God. "There is no luck or misfortune in the world ... self-pity or self-pity, and I feel that this world is not suitable for me. The riverbed of life is still passing away at a speed that cannot be underestimated. Why waste it? " The beautiful girl whose pen name is "Little Deer" wrote in an online article.
One can't live without dreams.
Since having the first computer with Internet access, Lulu seems to have found the source of happiness. She began to read, study, write and publish one work after another online.
In 2008, 16-year-old Lu Li published a romance novel "Magic D of Glass Shoes" with160,000 words on "Tea Fragrance Network". Although today's Lu Li thinks his works are naive, some netizens praised him: "I haven't seen this beautiful and romantic little one for a long time.
Yes, it is very well written. At your age of 16, it is already very powerful to have such writing and ideas. "
Lu Li believes that people can live without anything, but they can't live without their dreams. 20 10 On the recommendation of a Shandong netizen, Lu Li came into contact with the electronic magazine "Color of the Allure" sponsored by several college students. Like the alienation of aestheticism, it took only four years to become the text director of this electronic magazine. She devoted herself to this electronic magazine for free and created many excellent works. On the occasion of the first anniversary of the publication of Color of the Allure, Lu Li volunteered to take the lead in creating the first anniversary documentary of Color of the Allure, which was praised by netizens as professional by self-taught film editing techniques.
In several of her works, we can see the shadow of Lu Li herself. In the article "The Little Forest Museum", she wrote: "Xiao Mu is the strangest and most cheerful girl I have ever seen in my life. She suffers from congenital muscular dystrophy. She has never left home since she was a child, and she only walks with a pair of worn-out crutches every day. Xiao Mu's only interest is writing stories. "
Most of Lu Li's works are love stories. This beautiful girl is also eager to have her own love. There was once a handsome guy I met online. He thinks Lu Li is special and wants to try to associate with her. Lu Li knows her future and thinks such a relationship is unrealistic. However, half a year later, the boy still refused to give up. Lu Li promised to show him his life before deciding whether to go out.
They dated for half a year, met six times and finally chose to break up. "He really felt how hard my life was." Lu Li's QQ signature reads: "Set you free, this is my last gentleness."
Lu Li usually likes to clean herself and her nest. She gets up at 9 o'clock every day, dresses herself, folds the quilt, tidies up after breakfast, starts a day of online life, watches movies, reads books and listens to music, then communicates with literary friends and writes jokes at will. She will also help her mother cook and stir fry.
On February 20 12, Lu Li was hired as an editor by a website called "Huaxia Sky". During the two-week examination, Lu Li signed four works. Although she only got 50 yuan's salary after a month's absence, she was very happy. She insisted on using this 50 yuan money to buy a lipstick for her mother who has been taking care of herself, and gave it to her on Women's Day.
Lu Li said that her biggest dream is to publish her own novels, and then she can join the Shaanxi Writers Association and become a professional writer. She wishes she could support herself. Mother Hou Baoxiang said that several times, when Lu Li was in a bad mood, she beat her legs and said that she had two legs but could not use them, so she might as well die. But then, she will turn to comfort her mother and say, "I'm kidding."
Hou Baoxiang and Lu Li stayed for nearly 24 hours. She is worried that when she is old, no one will take care of Lu Xiao. "There must be a clown in every story, and I have been playing this role. It has never been the main line of the story. I always stay in the corner, watching others' love and hate, joys and sorrows, and then silently blessing them and myself. Whether it is a clown or a protagonist, we are all indispensable characters in the story. " Lu Li wrote in his own works.
Text/Figure Zhang Haiyang reporter