Recently I was listening to the album "Poetry Radio Under the Smoke" by Chen Hongyu, and I felt it was particularly suitable for lonely people. Every lyric could be written into a QQ signature. In fact, loneliness is good. , Loneliness makes people sober, and makes people start to examine their own problems, face their own hearts, and think about their own needs. When someone is with you, the brain is always in a weak state. This is why many great people are used to being alone.
Haha, you ask me what loneliness is? When I asked my good friend Nannan this question, she looked at me with wide eyes, and then told a story from the past that she had never mentioned.
She said: Because my mother passed away, I took a year off from school. When I went to school again, I had to take classes with classmates who were one year younger than me. I don’t know anyone. I’m learning Japanese, but I’m not good at it and it’s very difficult. My juniors and juniors all have very good basics. I keep chatting with the teacher in Japanese. The teacher is afraid that I won’t blend in and asks me my thoughts from time to time. In fact, what they say about me is that I don’t know anyone. I basically didn’t understand it. I could only stand in embarrassment until the teacher asked me to sit down. At that time, the classmates living around me were already seniors and had gone out for internships and no longer lived in school. I live in a building by myself. It's as quiet as a tomb when I go out. When I go back to study at night, there are no sounds or lights like taking a shower in other buildings. Sometimes I don't go into the dormitory and just sit in the corridor. Smoking on the stairs, the light flickering on and off, actually feels quite free. Occasionally there is the sound of a band practicing in the distance, so I sing along softly.
At that time, I felt mentally stronger, and I was no longer afraid of being separated from anyone. Later, when I was about to graduate, an old Japanese lady took a class called Japanese Spoken Language. I was definitely not going to pass, and if I couldn’t pass, I wouldn’t be able to graduate. I was so scared that I couldn’t sleep due to anxiety, but I had no choice but to take the exam. I sent her an email asking her about the exam location and time. When I received the email, I was alone in the dormitory at night. She said I can see your hard work, but there is a gap between you and other students. It would be unfair to ask you to take the exam and then let you pass, so I approved your exemption. I don’t know why I burst into tears at that moment. The sound echoed in the corridor. I think this is some warmth that has been rare in the past two years, coming from a Japanese.
In order to graduate smoothly, in that city that is recognized as a snobbery in the country, I saved up money to give gifts to teachers based on my living expenses. Now at the door of the office, I feel that this is the most shameful thing I have done, and my face is red. It’s better to go in and say something that you think is disgusting. When you wake up crying when you miss my mother, no one will ask you what's wrong. You can cry as loudly as you want. You can say whatever you want. No one will hear you anyway. Playing a single in the dormitory on Christmas Day alone. "Christmas Knot" sung by Eason Chan. All these feelings, no one to share, alone, this feeling of loneliness is that you have no chance of recovering from the disease, no one even listens to you saying that you are lonely, I am the lonely ghost in the school, I will forget it for the rest of my life. The feeling of nothingness, two years. From now on I no longer fear anyone or anything. Loneliness is like a spiritual practice for me, and I survived it. It's another realm.
The modern mobile phone users are in the busy city, but they watch other people’s wonderful things in the circle of friends, silently like them, and are actively talked to, but they are so embarrassed that they don’t remember how to interact with others. Get along; *** After posting the thread, I couldn’t help but check my phone every minute or two, but I couldn’t wait for a comment or like. I had thousands of friends in my address book, but I couldn’t find anyone to talk to; I wanted to I sent a message to my ex, words that had been brewing for a long time, but the moment before I sent them, I sighed and deleted them all because I neither wanted to accommodate myself nor to cater to others. Our generation is among the crowd, but is gradually surrounded by a sense of loneliness. There is no need to integrate into the group and show our own value. Because one understands one's own heart better, one must also work hard to shine!
When have you felt loneliest?
When you find that you have nowhere to complain, when you find that you have picked up your phone countless times to edit text and think of no one who can respond, when you cry and laugh constantly and no one can find it, when you decide When a person suffers in silence.
Or when you go home and the room is dark, when you find that you can no longer find the person you were before, when you decide to go to the beach to enjoy the breeze alone, when you walk on the street but When there is no purpose, when we recall the happy times in the past; as soon as the memories begin, our feelings waver, and we are all fighting against our past, present and future selves, as if only struggling in the quagmire is joyful.
When I was studying, there was a word called "empathy". The original meaning was "I am very grateful, as if I had experienced it personally." Later, many people used it incorrectly, so they added "even though I have not personally experienced it". , but it’s like experiencing it personally.” I always think that this word should only be reserved for willingness. Everyone is an independent individual. People are born lonely. I am just me. How can I feel other people’s feelings? So you say you are lonely, Although it sounds a bit familiar at first glance, when I think about it carefully, I'm sorry, I can't tell what loneliness is specifically.
I came to this world alone to see the fireworks of the world and finally returned to the darkness alone. The whole process was inherently lonely, so why bother with it?
I once struggled with hesitation, I once sang to wine, I once shed tears -------Growing up tells me that life is so colorful, don’t forget to hold on to a true and kind heart. Love life.
The spring fields are a green landscape. The little green creatures are jumping to the rhythm of life. They are singing a beautiful carol, and everything is full of vitality and facing the sun.