Round and round, I finally came back here.
It seems to be a spell. I tried desperately to get out of here, but I finally came back. Can't I live without you? I'm beginning to be unwilling. Because I don't understand how important you are to me. Facing you, I learned to be silent, impatient and even pretend. Rebellion is like a vast river, which separates your heart from mine and makes us the most familiar strangers. I've told myself countless times to leave you. But my heart still seems to be reluctant to part with you.
I never thought you were so important to me.
It was late that day, and the sky was slightly dark blue. After school, I was left behind by my teacher to help me with my homework. The students rushed to the school gate happily, only me, burying my head in writing. I don't feel hard, but I feel a sense of freedom. I finally don't have to see you again. I listened to the teacher's analysis and criticism while writing, and watched the sky outside the window gradually be replaced by black. I suddenly thought of you and suddenly found that I miss you very much. When I think of having dinner with you last night, I always tell you how I felt this day, whether it was tired or moved. You always listen carefully and give me a warm smile. I remember that when I was studying late at night, there was always a cup of hot milk quietly placed on my desk. You always give me a comfortable temperature when I am most tired. The more I remember, the more I want to come back to you. I have never felt that kind of urgency, and I have never thought of it.
After being criticized by the teacher, I finished my homework very late. I trudged back here. I thought you wouldn't wait for me and looked up, but I was surprised to find that you were still waiting for me, warm all over. Only then did I find that the wall in my heart has collapsed, and the fog in my heart seems to be gradually dispersing, revealing the true and clear you, the one I neglected since childhood.
When I was frustrated and knocked down by difficulties, you told me with gentle eyes not to give up; When I was very tired and tortured by troubles, you opened your heart and let me rest without reservation; When I felt confused and lost my direction, you comforted my restless heart with a peaceful feeling. You have always been behind me, and you have never changed.
You fascinate me, although I once naively thought I could live without you; You fascinate me, you tell me what is the most sincere feeling and what is never leaving; You fascinate me, you let me learn to grow and let me grow happily; You fascinate me, let me finally return to your arms, and let me live without you.
Back to my harbor, I lived in my home for fifteen years.