From now on, don't indulge in fantasy, don't rock the boat, work hard, live a good life and be a person close to happiness.
You should force yourself to be excellent, and then live proudly. The rest of your life is still long, so why panic? You will thank you for your efforts in the future. Don't choose comfort at the best age.
You should always go all out for your dream. No matter what the gossip is, be yourself. You win, you win beautifully.
Your present efforts, hardships, pressures, and everything you bear are all aimed at saving enough ability and capital, doing what you like better, and fighting for the right to choose for yourself.
You give yourself a height, and the world will always give you a measure. Whatever life is like, don't forget to smile. May you be your own sun, independent of anyone's light.