? As a piano jazz player who was well-known in Poland and even the whole western world at that time, Miete's heart was full of insecurity, largely because he was blind. We won't forget him sitting alone in a bar after he became famous, asking for another glass of wine before closing, trying not to expose his begging in his tone. I won't forget that he was left on the street by his girlfriend after falling out. How talented and accomplished he is, he will be embarrassed to ask for help at this moment. Peel off the skin of his piano prodigy, music man. Inside, there is a child, helpless and black and blue.
? The film begins with an adult Miete, and then goes back to his childhood, so we begin to forgive him for his strange and incomparable way of life. After all, few people can still look "normal" after going through that. In particular, the great harm from his father was revealed in the second half of the film, compared with his arbitrariness, which seemed so harmless to people and animals.
? Only sincere friendship, love and understanding, more self-deprecating jokes and drunkenness, and more dangerous windowsill walking and deviant are not enough to fight against the inner waves. Only music can. When he discovered the beauty of improvisational jazz, when he met the enlightenment teacher, he was ecstatic and asked for an autograph, when he was absorbed in scrutinizing every note, when his fingers danced and knocked on the keyboard with ecstasy.
? All the words related to compromise have long been torn out of his music dictionary. The high demand for accompaniment is almost abnormal, the person who is close to him is abusive, the person who stops him from playing is beaten over, he gets up and leaves when he is in poor condition, and he gives up his eyes that are finally saved for hearing. All these are instinctive without hesitation, because if one point is less, it will not be perfect and ecstasy, and he will not experience that kind of scarce happiness.
? We can finally understand his hysterical fanaticism when playing. The happiness produced by the explosion of the senses is swinging away, although it is short but strong enough, and a high wall has been built on the edge of his lonely island of mind to block out the darkness of the past and the future. Only those who have really despaired can be completely immersed in such fleeting happiness, and no matter how bad the past is, no matter how uncertain the future is, it can't erode the carefree dripping of that moment. Without such happiness, he often washes his soul, and his life is unsustainable.
? The farewell paragraph between father and son originally had a kind of sadness of secondary injury, but the father's rambling before his death conveyed another flavor: you are the eldest son, and you should have inherited the farm if you hadn't been blind. Suddenly, in Miete's mind, those distant nightmares and injuries turned into a more complicated fate, so that he could stand in the spotlight and shine, instead of becoming a mediocre person who chews plums in the sun and spits out the nucleus into the sky. There is nothing wrong with mediocrity, but there will be a bright arc in the palace of art.
? The plot substitution of this film is unforgettable for a long time. Childhood blindness, father's injury, life in a welfare home … everything a person has can be included in music. At the end, I thought it would ease and calm down the protagonist's life. After all, he went to the realm of his own expectation: "He went to travel in the clouds", and the sound montage of the film runs through. The impact of sound accounts for the vast majority of this story, every time fate abandons or people leave the door. There are also notes yearning for free colors. Maybe the world of genius is lonely, crazy and yearning.