It's 2:20. I used to go to bed early, but in order to accompany you on the night shift, I just adjusted my biological clock to after three in the morning. I wait aimlessly at home every day for you to talk to me. That kind of emotion, expectation, and all kinds of loneliness and disappointment come and go. Every time, no matter how much I miss you, worry about you, or care about you, As long as you say a word, all my grievances will disappear. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I usually don’t care about anyone, but I care for you in every possible way. I updated the song library today and accidentally opened a previous conversation with you. One sentence after another, I couldn’t tolerate pressing pause, but it kept playing.

Baby, I miss you, baby, let you Suffer, baby, what are you doing? Why don't you bring your house key? Why don't I accompany you? The last sentence is actually me. How could I not wait for you?

You broke your promise again. You did not wait for me and walked away without looking back, so cleanly and without any fuss. You said, I will take you to Japan. Let me take you to some interesting places in China during the holidays. Think carefully about where you want to go. You said, when you come, I will take you to eat delicious food and play fun games with you. You said, I am happy to be with you. You said you love me more. In fact, I want to say that I love you the most and still do.

I'm sorry, I still love you as much as I did when I first started loving you

You said, just treat me as dead. I think it would be great if you never appeared in my life. Then there won't be so much pain, so much disappointment, so much self-love, so much I love you

I'm still a failure so far. They have said it to me thousands of times. Forget you, but I can't. Do you know? I still don't give up. I don't think it's wrong. It's right to love someone, and it's right that you can't love me. However, God has given me too many punishments, mentally and physically. He wants me to just stop, but I can't.

I'm sorry, I won't look back like you said, I will always move towards you.

Actually you are very sad, my paranoia. Sentences that actually mind me a lot

Sentences that actually mind me a lot

(1) I always feel that my reaction is slower than others, well, I am a little tired, and I can’t say what I want to say, I actually mind it when it’s not time to do what I want to do, but is it wrong that I can’t express my mixed emotions?

(2) I want to lose weight, but my sparring partner seems to be losing weight faster than me. . . I am very concerned about the fact that my little brother jumped 20 in one go!

(3) I no longer want to tell the world what I think is best and try to achieve it. This caution makes me tired. I miss that prickly person, because he didn't mind changing himself while trying in vain to change others, naively thinking about making the world - the world he came into contact with - a better place. I don't. That's why I feel bored more and more

(4) If I say it many times that I don't mind it, it will make me very unhappy, but you still have to continue to do it, then in the end I can only Let you disappear together with these bad things

(5) At that time, we thought that friendship would last forever and would not change no matter how time went by. But, nothing lasts forever. In fact, I really hate the friendship between the three of us. You were chatting passionately, but I was watching from the sidelines. This feeling is really unpleasant. I am not the kind of person who is very possessive, but can you take me with you when you are chatting and playing around? I really mind it. It feels like my best friend of many years has been snatched away by someone else. It's so uncomfortable and heartbreaking. < /p>

(7) I have seen many photographers like to add some literary descriptions to their works. It feels a bit abstract and irrelevant to the picture itself, but it makes people feel unclear. Li. I also liked this very much for a while, but I always felt that the words did not convey the meaning and it felt like I was moaning for no reason, so I won’t add it today. After all, I am very good and my level is not very high, so people won’t mind if I am so casual.

(8) In fact, I do mind. I mind that I didn’t do well enough in the past, that my memories weren’t beautiful enough, that I didn’t recognize you when you passed by me.

(9) Sometimes I try to convince myself that it doesn’t matter, just cherish the present, but I am very concerned about the past, and I am confused and puzzled about what love will be when the time comes

(10) Even though you sneered when I suffered, and even though I told you that I cared about some things, you still wanted to touch other people’s wounds. I still don’t regret treating you with my heart before, but I also remember that I don’t care whether you are together or not, but I care about you and your character.

Then we are not friends from now on

(11) I understand. If you don’t know what to do, don’t think too much and let nature take its course. But I mind very much

(12) I am very I hate it when people say that I am a straightforward person. Don’t mind if I wonder if you speak straightforwardly. You have nothing to do with me. If you speak straightforwardly, you tell yourself that it’s your fault that you make others unhappy. Why should I deserve what you have? This kind of thing is called mentally retarded at best and uneducated at worst. Don’t take your meanness as straightforward. Others will think that you have no one to teach you in life

(13) In fact, I am very concerned about the relationship between siblings. Yes, I have always only wanted to marry a man older than me. I hope he will be mature, stable, sensible, loving and pamper me

(14) I spent a day wandering today and will wear another outfit to go wandering tomorrow. , don’t mind if you are ugly, I will come back with pictures tomorrow. Haha, do you think I'm annoying?

(15) I don’t mind, I just like to smile and say it’s okay; no need to say comforting words, I will go home after drinking this bottle of wine; from now on, all your good and bad will have nothing to do with me.

(16) I mind it very much. Even though I know it’s nothing, I still mind it. I have almost never suffered anything from this in the past 22 years, so I mind it

(10 7) I don’t understand why Durant fans care so much about Adu during the Thunder era, so much so that no one wants Adu’s autographed photos of the Thunder!

(18) I have to do something I care about a third time, sorry, goodbye

(19) I have known you for almost five years, and I am very lucky. Some things are small but I mind, and some things others think are pretentious, but you will understand my feelings. Today I am very happy. We don’t have any friends we haven’t seen for a long time. When we meet, we only talk and we don’t feel separated. It’s uncomfortable, no matter how long it’s been since we met, we’re still very familiar.

(Twenty) I am very happy today when I am eighteen years old. With me and you, the scenery is just right

(21) Sometimes I wonder why people die, with Regarding doubts and fears about death, I pretended to be relaxed and asked the people around me: Are you afraid of death? Are you afraid of the loss of having nothing to do with you after death? One girl told me calmly: I don’t think I would mind even if I died now. The word "mind" was used, and I was very disappointed and couldn't find a sense of identity

(Twenty-two) I really mind what others promised me but failed to do. Since I couldn't do it, I shouldn't have promised it in the first place. So why don't you just swear so much, what does it mean if you can't do it?

(23) Japanese wives who were sent to China most talked about having aunts in China to take care of the children, cook, and clean. They also look down on these workers, but they show that I am very generous and don't mind if you don't know Japanese and don't know how to clean Japanese food. In Japan she was a housewife, but in China she became a master, very majestic. Like every master, there must be a servant, and these aunties are proud to be Japanese aunties.

(Twenty-four) I want to sing to you but I am tone-deaf. I want to write a poem to you but I can’t write. You burst into my heart so suddenly. I am very confused. Don’t mind me, but I feel , I may have to give up, and then I will be a little grateful to you, so there is no need for you to deliberately accommodate me, and there is no need to wrong yourself

(Twenty-five) Check WeChat every once in a while Sometimes I want to go back to the time when I was in college. We were inseparable and talked about everything every day. I hate every moment that we spent together. Now, although it seems calm on the surface, I haven't forgotten a second in my heart. What I really mind about those words that are as sharp as a knife that pierce the heart is that I am that kind of person in your heart. You are infinitely good to me, but in your eyes, as we get along day by day, more and more flaws are revealed, so I Understand that I may not be your like-minded person, nor am I a good mentor or friend. You have never done anything sorry to me. It’s just that I don’t want you to be upset again in the future, so you will no longer be my dog.

(26) I still mind what you once said: I miss her very much at the moment. Whether you do it unintentionally or intentionally, you still let me torture myself to this day

(Twenty-seven) I tell you this and I mind it, but if you do it once or twice, I will let you do it the third time. You disappeared together with this matter

(Twenty-eight) I wanted to sing to you, but unfortunately I am tone-deaf; I wanted to write a poem for you, but I couldn’t write; you crashed into me so suddenly In my heart, don’t mind if I’m panicked.

(Twenty-nine) If I say something twice that I don’t mind, it will make me very unhappy. If you continue for the third time, then I can only let you disappear with these things

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(Thirty) Life is full of too many unpredictability. A lot of things have happened recently, from work to life. But I still have hope for the future. I sprinkled some toilet water in the room at night. Although there were no mosquitoes, I was not happy when I heard the sound of rain. This made me panic. Maybe sometimes I care too much about the results and have too many goals. When I was a child, I was the kind of person who would never get tired of looking at ants for a long time, although in the adult world, you may need to have clear goals. Anyway, let me commemorate the Xia Yu in recent days with a sentence that is very easy to read recently: There is nothing else to do with white tea and pleasure, I am waiting for the wind and waiting for you.

(Thirty-one) In fact, I don’t mind a lot of things. I just like to say it’s okay with a smile

(Thirty-two) My wife has gained a few pounds recently because of me. I don’t mind, but what should I do if she is very dissatisfied with me now

(Thirty-three) If I say twice that I don’t mind this matter, it will make me very unhappy, and you still have to If you continue to do that for the third time, I can only make you disappear with these bad things

(Thirty-four) Recently, I was ambushed by my best friend and the cycle continued endlessly, because we are all waiting for the other half in the future. I just hope you'd better run over here, because I really mind that your movements are too slow.

(Thirty-five) I said, let’s go and refit a shuttle bus and drive it to the beach with beer. I haven't had it, but I wouldn't mind if it was just us, I'd love to. Wear loose shorts and walk barefoot on the beach. You can be silent for a long time, or you can keep talking. When it comes to the wind and singing at dawn, I actually mind saying it

In fact, I mind saying it< /p>

(1) Nothing that can be calculated is forever. In fact, I don’t mind it. I am just used to smiling and saying it doesn’t matter.

(2) In fact, I am very grateful to anyone who has accompanied me over the years. It's because of your presence that I'm not as lonely as I thought. We've all had our estrangements and dissatisfactions, but I never mind why we quarreled, because quarreling is also a very happy thing, isn't it?

(3) It’s good to be alone, right? You don’t have to worry about this or that. When buying something, you don’t have to think about buying an extra copy and keep it for yourself. It’s better for you. In fact, I really want to know who you are. Who am I in my heart?

(4) Actually I am very angry! ! Actually I am very sad! ! In fact, I still mind it! ! But it’s much better than last year! !

(5) I am a very selfish person and I don’t want to get nothing after giving in my feelings. In fact, I really mind that your boyfriend got you. I can’t forget it. I really wish we could have known each other since our freshman year. But you don’t have so much. If you make up your mind, I will position you as my best friend, just like Shi Mujun. In the deepest part of my heart, I will lift it to the place where you can’t reach it, just like in your dream. I won’t give it to you anymore, just sleep like this

(6) In fact, I am very simple. As long as you are by my side, treat me sincerely, and love me sincerely, I really don’t mind sitting On a bicycle or in a car, I will be grateful and contented to accompany you and love you until the last moment of my life; unfortunately, I can’t even find such a person now...

(7) In fact, I am very afraid that if I wait until you come back, will the person I am waiting for be the same person I used to know? I am very afraid, will I mind if I broke up with you because of the freshness of college? Until now, I have never been with another girl. Why do you feel so uncomfortable so quickly? Oh, am I a little too stupid? I hope no one can see these words. I can just vent them myself

(8) Today is Mother’s Day, so I knew there would be no flowers, so I prepared a gift for myself. Actually, I don’t mind very much whether there are flowers. First, I am very pragmatic and like practical things, and I bought them today. Flowers will be more expensive than usual

(9) I want to cry, and I know the reason. In fact, I have always known what the problem is. You may not mind it on the surface, but you must mind it in your heart. I have always known it. Why do I get hurt over and over again? Why? Is it wrong for me to be like this? Can you blame me? Do I have a choice? I'm desperate, I don't know what I should do? I don't know if I should love someone anymore? Because I've been hurt enough?

(10) I actually mind it. I mind that I didn’t do well enough in the past, that my memories weren’t beautiful enough, that I didn’t recognize you when you passed by me.

(11) I am a very failed woman. I have no house, no car, no savings, no talent, no appearance and no virtue. I am dizzy when I work the night shift every day, but I am very content. The dreams I once had no longer exist. Maybe in your eyes I am nothing and know nothing. Whether you look down on me or always make fun of me, I don’t mind. Do you really care? Doesn't matter? In fact, I am already tired of this kind of life, so tired. But I believe that as long as people are not lazy, there is still hope for everything.

(12) In fact, I don’t mind delaying my graduation at all. After all, life is long, and it’s not a big deal to study for an extra year and a half. But I am very concerned about my hairline! ! It can't become Mediterranean at such a blooming age. Oh my god! !

(Thirteen) Only if I dare to lend you money, I will if I am a friend I trust very much. When borrowing money, I should ask what the difficulty is and what I am afraid of. This feeling will be a bit embarrassing. In fact, I don't mind borrowing money from friends, and I really want to know.

(14) There is always someone who will chat with me when I am bored and panic, but who doesn’t mind being left out by me. Thank you, junior brother. In fact, I am very selfish!

(15) How lucky you are! But why can't I be happy? I care about the people you like! Especially interested! But how can I say it out loud? Knowing this is like seeing your original self! In fact, the city I most want to visit is Jinan! Although it wasn't because of you at first, it was because of you that I fell into it in the end!

(16) When the headphones are broken, I especially cherish the time spent outside the dormitory/My appetite gradually grows/I start to be lazy, start to be impetuous, and start to indulge in daydreaming/I have to go through this period on my own/encounter emotional intelligence I have to talk to low-level classmates with the energy of sucking/Sorry, my friend, I can’t do anything, I can’t seem to be of any help/Actually, I mind/Good night

(17) Standing at the crossroads of life I have also been confused and flinched. Those words of encouragement to others are always so easy to say but I have never convinced myself. In fact, I really care about the distance of this city. How far is it?

(10 8) In fact, I feel more or less repulsive towards some people and things. I don’t know how to solve them. The only thing I can do is to avoid and face them. I always feel that my reaction is slower than others. Well, I'm a little tired. I can't say what I want to say, and it's not time to do what I want to do. In fact, I really mind, but I can't express my mixed emotions. Is it wrong?

(Nineteen) A boy asked me if I would mind walking together. I really wanted to tell her that I actually had an umbrella. Fortunately, I said I was ready. No thanks.

(Two) 10) When a person's efforts are not directly proportional or inversely proportional to his gains, then the first thing that person thinks of is escape, followed by "I don't mind these, as long as you are happy," and then "Goodbye, I'm tired, actually I do mind."

(Twenty-one) Actually, I mind it very much, but how should I talk about it.

(Twenty-two) I don’t feel quite right these days, and I don’t have much contact with that colleague. Except for work needs, there is no contact in private. A few days ago, he was hit while drinking and racing, and the car fell apart. Fortunately, he is fine. In fact, I admire him very much. As we were chatting that night, he told me that he still lived with his ex-girlfriend and slept together, and asked me if I minded? What a joke. I didn't even want to answer a word. Our development was originally a mistake and we shouldn't have drank that night. Now I'm embarrassed.

(Twenty-three) In fact, I am very stingy and I mind everything but I will never say it.

(Twenty-four) In fact, I really mind your opposite-sex relationship. I just like to laugh. Say it doesn’t matter.

(Twenty-five) Borrowing money will feel a bit embarrassing. Everyone’s choice is different. In fact, I don’t mind borrowing money from friends. It’s very rare anyway. Borrow money, but unfortunately I don’t even have the money to spend it myself. If I had a friend I trusted, I would.

(Twenty-six) Well, I think it’s OK. It’s okay. I don’t mind. Actually, I’m not OK at all. In fact, I do mind. But what would you know?

(Twenty-seven) Actually, I mind if you use the title "little fairy" to call others, but what is my position? What you did yesterday was really heartbreaking. I was directly sad when I saw it. , it’s like using a knife to cut directly into my heart. It’s always so easy to be sad. You always hurt me easily, and it’s easy for me to forgive you. I’ll probably be proud once and ignore you again< /p>

(Twenty-eight) I am so tired, so tired, so tired; what should I do; where should I put my heart? There is no sand in my feelings and my eyes; in fact, I really mind! ?

(Twenty-nine) Good morning, today is not a good day, why? I don’t know, what am I thinking? I don’t know, I really just want it to be simple. Sorry, I actually care about my past.

(Thirty) There are many, many, many things that actually matter to me. I just smiled and said it’s okay

(Thirty-one) I’m off work, I’m lazy and have cancer, I don’t want to move anymore, I miss you a little. . Even if I think about it, it's my business alone. Express your feelings quietly and complain quietly. No onlookers needed. In fact, I am very concerned about it, very concerned about it, and very stingy. But since you don’t mind me, I have no choice but to not mind you.

(Thirty-two) Your eyes are red from crying, but you only think that it is really what I said about being blown away by the wind. Eye. I said I had eaten, but you didn’t know that I only ate this meal all day long. When I say I don't care, do I really mean I don't care? In fact, I care about it very much. A whale that has learned its lesson will never try to move forward even if there is no glass barrier in front of it. This is a whale

(Thirty-three) I am still me, but you may not still be you. In fact, I mind very much. In fact, I am not generous. In fact, I am very small-minded. I don’t want to make you sad and feel pressured by my reaction. But how do I put my emotions at ease?

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(Thirty-five) I think I love you, so I let you live the life you want and like the people you like. This pain can only be endured by oneself.

In fact, how much I want to be with you, how jealous you are of liking others, and how much I mind you saying more to others. I'm sad that you don't like me. I tell you that I am very happy, but I just don’t want you to know that I am actually very sad.

1. When I was a child, I was afraid of betrayal, and later I was afraid of not being able to survive and being abandoned. Now, I am afraid that I will change. ---"Secret and Great"

2. Will there be some days when we feel that time flies like an arrow, and that the days are like years?

3. I once read a sentence: What others think of me depends on my own strength, but the real strength I understand is: low-key and humble, peaceful and pragmatic, sincere and friendly, and can tolerate the ridicule and ridicule of others. It is an outstanding character to be able to deal with discrimination calmly, and rely on one's own abilities to achieve a career without being ostentatious. Because, after all, your efforts are not for others, and others' evaluation may not be your true self.

4. If a love has come to an end, don’t force it to continue. And when a relationship begins, don't force it to stop. You never know what kind of relationship will have a good outcome. When you break up, you don't try to stay. When you get together, you don't hold back. The last thing you keep is the best.

5. The smoke-like face gradually blurred the vision. It used to be so sweet, but now it is like an old record with a low tone. It can't be interpreted as sad, and it can't sing out the beauty. The rhythm of the song cannot convey the smoke-like longing, nor can it convey the dream-like prayer.

6. Be a simple person, see clearly the complexity of the world but leave no trace in your heart, keep a normal mind, be simple, and be happy.

7. I heard that people who are used to being invisible have a scar.

8. When you are online, I don’t know what to say to you. When you are offline, I regret not saying anything to you.

9. After experiencing it, people become gentle and can let go of everything that happens. No matter what they experience is huge pain, being hurt by others or causing harm to others, they will always be gentle. Nothing is wrong, everything is needed. As long as we become strong within, there is no such thing as separation, hurt or pain, and we can live in the world without worries and become free.

10. One day I will walk away from you silently without making any sound.

11. One of the most tacit things we do is that I don’t contact you and you don’t contact me. In the end, we are really strangers.

12. If you love her, don’t give her a chance to have random thoughts. Because you will never know how much the person who thinks about you loves you.

13. Some friends used to have nothing to say, but now they have nothing to say.

14. Flowers will not stop blooming in the coming year because of your alienation; but people will turn into strangers because of your miss.

15. Everyone who seems to be calm during the day may have secretly cried in bed late at night.

16. No matter how beautiful the vows are, they are still false, and no matter how miserable the ending is, they are still true.

17. Do you always keep revising your bottom line for someone? Keep making excuses for someone, keep trying to forgive... But, in fact, they don't like you that much.

18. I have been foolish in love, did not listen to advice, and tried to fight my way out with a bloody head. Now I know how to politely refuse to hold hands that I shouldn’t hold, and I will be brave and responsible even if I continue to be alone.

19. Some words are suitable for rotting in the heart; some pains are suitable for being forgotten silently!

Twenty. From now on, when you walk by my grave, remember to say youloveme, even if it is a lie.

21. All you can do for me is happiness, and all I can do for you is blessing.

22. Don’t wrong yourself for others and change yourself. You are the only you, the precious you, the proud you, the beautiful you. You must love yourself well.

23. I am getting closer to my dream step by step. Even if it is broken into pieces, I will try my best to save it and use everything in exchange for it.

24. No matter how indulgent the environment is, you must have requirements for yourself and maintain a self-disciplined temperament. Maybe it can't change your current situation for the time being, but over time, what it gives you back will definitely surprise you. People who have high requirements for themselves will never have a bad life. People who follow the crowd and complain about the bad environment are the most boring people.

Twenty-five, the passing of time and the past are always reminding us of the few days left.

26. It can only take a turn to leave, but it will take a lifetime to forget. If you cannot forget, you must learn to let go.

27. Even if someone breaks your heart, there will always be someone willing to repair it.

28. Since you beat all other sperms many years ago with one against 100 million, then you must be born to be awesome. When you come to this world, you always have to leave some traces. ---Han Han

29. Mountains and water can be forgotten, and the sun and the moon can have nothing to do with each other. At that time, there was only one person's joy in the floating world, and one person's long flowing water.

---Bai Luomei "If you are well, it will be sunny"

Thirty. The best state of a person is that his face looks three to five years younger than his actual age, and his mentality is three years more mature than his actual age. Five years old. The more simple a person looks, the richer he is on the inside. Only when you feel blank inside can you pretend to be worldly. Simple to the extreme, it is also a kind of competitiveness.

31. If we had gotten two more questions right or wrong that year, would we now be in different places, meeting completely different people, and doing completely different things... ...Sure enough, the fascinating thing about the college entrance examination is not that you get what you want, but that things go wrong.

32. No matter how bad something happens today, you should not feel sad. Life is short. Before going to bed every night, forgive everyone and everything.

Thirty-three, the movement of raising the corners of the mouth no longer belongs to me.

34. If one day we meet again on the road, and I tell you: I am very happy now. I must be pretending. If I can only meet you again instead of living together, how can I be happy? I tell you that I am happy, but I just don’t want you to know that I am actually very sad.

Thirty-five, we have to wait until a long time has passed, and we have to wait until there is no retreat, and then we realize that the things we have given up with our own hands will never be encountered again in the days to come.

Thirty-six. Only when you are sick for a long time will you know who loves you; when you are deeply drunk, you will know who you love.

37. In fact, many times, you don’t need to do anything, just be sincere.

38. Don’t think that others are fools. It’s not that the other person doesn’t know or care about many things, they just don’t want to care about you or expose you. So please be careful while lying to the other party. That person chose to be kind, not because he was weak. But he understands that kindness is his nature, and he cannot be evil, as evil will be punished.

39. Never count on others. Only those who work hard can stand firm.

Forty. I teach the person I like how to love, but unfortunately... the person he loves is not me. ---Tian Laizhi Yuan "Qiong Shang"

41. We must live life like a madman in order to forget the bumps that life has given us.

42. Please cherish the people around you who love you silently. Maybe, one day when he really leaves. You will find that it is you who cannot live without each other, not him.

43. A simple life is happiness, enjoy the beauty that nature brings to you, take a breath of fresh morning air, and forget the hustle and bustle. Get together with good friends, make a phone call to a good friend, and exchange pleasantries. Relax, go online, play cards, sing karaoke, play chess, and go fishing. Simplicity is happiness.

44. The best thing in life is to find someone who knows all your mistakes and shortcomings, but still thinks you are great.

45. My dear girl, stop making excuses for him to escape. He is not busy, he is not tired, it is just because he does not love you.

46. People who have no intersection in life, even if they once regarded each other as best friends, even if they shared countless secrets together, even if the other person was by their side when they were sad and happy, even if you thought If this goes on for the rest of your life, this relationship will end in vain. You have to admit it even if you don't want to admit it, that's the fact.

47. Those who can disappear from your life casually are not worth remembering at all. Those who really care about you will never leave. If he wants to leave, let him go. If he still loves you today, he will never let you go easily. Therefore, it is useless to pray for love. Dry your tears and leave the last bit of dignity to yourself.

48. Life is always a dilemma. No matter how persistent or unwilling you are, you will eventually have to learn to accept it. From crying and complaining to being treated with a smile, in the end, it was just a happy-go-lucky affair.

49. That person does not necessarily have to be tall and thin, but he must be clean; that person does not necessarily have to be sweet-talking, but he must have a good temper; that person does not necessarily have to be tall and thin; You must be handsome and rich, but you must be motivated; that person will definitely say to me from the moment we hold hands: From today on, we will share the blessings, and I will take the responsibility for the difficulties; that person must be more domineering. , he would say to me: I recognize you, you are mine alone.

Fifty. Youth is a short-lived dream. When you wake up, it has already disappeared without a trace. ---Shakespeare

51. Young children are innocent and ignorant angels, so kind that they are pitiable. They will learn to raise their heads very high, just to prevent tears from falling in their eyes. Come on, even though he is hurt, he will turn around pretending to be strong, smile, and then tell you: I am fine, really fine.