The first thing in the morning is to pick up the mobile phone by the pillow. When I opened it, I found that there were no missed calls. Are the most unread messages from 10086 or those various promotional advertisements?
I get up, get dressed, wash my face and brush my teeth, and look at myself in the bathroom mirror. I look the same as I remember, and I haven't changed. Although I know that with the change of time, my appearance will get rougher and rougher sooner or later, but at this time, I can only enjoy it myself.
Many times we pretend to be happy. Although there are fewer people around us and fewer people who care about themselves, our social circle has become narrower and narrower after graduation from college, but we still pretend to be happy. Being strong like this is not just for others, but sometimes for yourself. I created such a safe and comfortable environment for myself, thus deceiving my inner comfort and saying to myself: I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm not alone at all, and I have a group of friends who understand me.
However, is this really the case? Wake up alone every morning, then go to work or study alone, eat alone at noon, and go back to buy food and cook alone after work in the afternoon. This is a simple and boring cycle day after day. Although friends and relatives sometimes visit my house, it is rare. After a while, everyone dispersed, leaving me alone in a lonely room.
I never knew the significance of doing so. Since the internship, my college classmates and I have really come to the end of the road. Everyone has gone away from the loneliness in their hearts. We have known each other for many years, and everyone has embarked on the road of strangers. In the days to come, it seems that few people know that you have lived, and it seems that few people can appreciate your looks and talents as before.
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I wrote on my signature on WeChat and QQ: There is no such person. Maybe many people don't understand why I set such a personalized signature, but don't you think it seems appropriate to describe everyone's status with such a personalized signature?
Sometimes, every once in a while, I just want to disappear for a while, perhaps because I am dissatisfied with the boring life in front of me, or because I can't bear to leave this place alone to meet a group of people I don't know.
There will always be a time when we always want to disappear. Although we disappear quietly, we will also make ourselves more comfortable than ever. Just like the personality signature in my micro signal, there is no such person. Yes, there is no such person. Just pretend that I never existed, and all previous communication was just a cloud. Every time you go to a new place, you should clean up your old mind again and get to know and make friends with all the people who come into contact with you for the first time with the eyes of seeing the world for the first time. Only in this way can you feel satisfied and fresh, and I'm afraid only in this way can you lose your worldly mind and be truly carefree.
I always feel that we are trapped in life, working hard for meaningless things in the real world, getting married and having children, and generally living an ordinary life. It's because we watched our appearance change from immaturity to youth, from youth to middle age, from middle age to old age, and finally left this world with unfinished dreams and wishes. What a lovely and sad life this is!
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Yes, I often have the idea of disappearing. Many people will not find my figure for a period of time, although no one will deliberately look for my figure until I appear in front of them after a period of time. No one knows what I have experienced during this period and what new knowledge I have gained.
When I was in college, learning was an unforgettable experience, but I was not always limited to finding knowledge in textbooks. I have always thought that university is also a place to increase knowledge and knowledge. Many people will use the only free time in their lives to discover the world and broaden their horizons, and so will I.
When I was in college, I always disappeared for no reason. Even my roommate in the dormitory doesn't know where I went. Every time they hide in the dormitory to play games and mobile phones, I have already put my backpack on the train to a distant place.
During my disappearance, I went to many places, such as Suzhou because I yearned for the water city in the south, Chengdu because of a poem by Zhao Lei, and Yunnan and other places because of various legends in Da Bing's novels. My footprints were all along the way, and I met many like-minded friends along the way, including Chongqing girl, Fujian eldest brother and Xinjiang man, so I was not lost during my disappearance, on the contrary. I have gained a lot of new knowledge and refreshed my secular heart that I have been immersed in the city for a long time. I really found that I had lived so much, and my youth could have been so full of brilliance.
A long silence will always give birth to a heart that wants to disappear. Whenever you want to disappear for a period of time, don't be silent or waver, because there are stories waiting for you in the distance, because there are a group of less secular friends waiting for you to talk about the less secular future.
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I once loved a song, which was Xu Wei's life. This song Sang Song sings the hearts of many people, and also sings many words that people who are struggling in the real world dare not say. It is like a torrent, impacting their hearts that have been dull for a long time in the secular world until they are washed away and rejuvenated.
Everyone wants to live a meaningful life, and everyone wants to go to as many places and meet as many people as possible in his lifetime. Your side may be full of disappointments, and you may be surrounded by artificial people. In fact, your world is not that small, and the people you can know are not limited to your social circle.
If you can, disappear for a while, turn off the mobile phone that few people contact, take up your backpack, and embark on a distant road with that already heavy heart. There will always be new horizons in new places, new people will always have new cognition, people with stories, fate and everything you want.