Is this it? Huang Haiyan's Reading, Lonely Fulfillment: I love the feeling of reading in the morning light: at the first light, I stood by the window, leaving the yellow leaves outside the window like flowers and my sadness hanging, but my heart stuck to the agreement with the book. Many times, I said to myself, get up early and study. However, when I come, I always give myself a reason to run away. So, secretly angry with yourself.

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