How is that possible? Isn't Xu Boqin still very kind to Xie Yuxin? Although the four of them are a little different when they are together, they still play and laugh as always!
Besides, how can you know nothing about yourself who is so close to them?
The deskmate looked at Luo Xiaoqing with a surprised face and said crossly, you know it's far away. I turned to look at him, only to see the sun stretching his thin figure. He put his hands in his trouser pockets, lowered his head and scratched on the ground with his toes. I don't know what he is thinking, and of course he doesn't know what I am thinking. More than us! What are you pretending? When she said us, she meant the other students in the class. Later, Luo Xiaoqing was particularly sad when she remembered this word.
Oh, no, I forgot to preview the text last night. Luo Xiaoqing hurriedly lowered her head, grabbed the Chinese textbook and pretended to read it. If possible, she really hopes that her surprised expression is fake.
Actually Luo Xiaoqing has found that the atmosphere is not quite right when the four of them walk together. It seems that everyone has their own worries except her. Every brief silence will embarrass four people. Her intuition told her that things were different.
She looked up from her textbook and quickly glanced at the three friends sitting next to her. She must look like a child who did something wrong, doesn't she? This is her evaluation of herself when she later recalled her high school life.
At this time, it was winter, and everyone put on thick cotton-padded clothes, which not only kept out the cold, but also wrapped their hearts.
2
Yan Ge, did they break up? Looked at Yan Ge Luo Xiaoqing little affectations to avoid her eyes, the in the mind a heavy, Yan Ge guilty always like this. However, Zhang Bingzhong had no strength to cry. Not only did he have to face a lifeless wife and a taciturn 13-year-old daughter, but he also suffered from a foreign land of more than 65,438+in June. Li Jiaoran opened a package: two packages of instant noodles. It was the cheapest a few years ago. Her eyes turned red at once. Yuan's foreign debt is his wife's huge medical expenses. Jiang Xuelian didn't get any traffic accident compensation because the car accident perpetrator escaped and the motorcycle used fake license plates. After more than a year, the open secrets between each other.
He didn't answer and asked in a low voice, did Xu Boqin tell you? He is really.
Luo Xiaoqing didn't notice the last sentence, and then said, is it true?
Yan Ge gently nodded and said, don't worry about them, it's all right.
Oh, she opened her mouth and finally stopped, pretending that she suddenly remembered something, leaving a sentence that I forgot to collect my homework and turned away. This is just to prevent careful Yan Ge from seeing her eyes full of loss.
There are many questions in my heart, such as: when did you know? Who told you that? Why didn't you tell me? When did this happen? But in the end, she turned and ran away without saying anything. Is it really what she thinks? Many things have undergone subtle changes unconsciously. At that time, she did not know and did not participate.
This should be a story related to youth. In every children's circle, there will be a fairy tale related to love more or less. Their experiences and endings are different, but almost all have one thing in common: every member of the small circle is eligible to participate.
However, Luo Xiaoqing did not participate in this youth story that happened in their small circle.
three
If the acquaintance of a group of people is unconscious, then is the distance between a group of people generated in this way? In math class, Luo Xiaoqing wrote on the draft paper.
The rudiments of the quartet are Luo Xiaoqing and Xu Boqin. To put it bluntly, it is a primary school classmate and a classmate neighbor. So in this little-known school, they can become friends as quickly as shenzhou spaceship. How did it change from two to four? Luo Xiaoqing can't remember.
Perhaps it's because several people are sitting around, and the process of upgrading from classmates to friends is so natural that when she finds that there are more Ge Yan and Xie Yuxin around her, the first semester of senior one is already over half.
At that time, Yan Ge would buy breakfast for three people in the morning, and then four people would eat it together. Xie Yuxin, who has a good voice, will hold her small concert for them. Xu Boqin will patiently answer the math and physics questions raised by three people; Luo Xiaoqing will risk being scolded and secretly show them the delicious pickles pickled by her mother. Besides, it is common for several people to go out to sing, ride bikes to the seaside and do their homework together. These are all in line with all the qualities that a good friend in Luo Xiaoqing's heart should have.
Whenever I think of the time we spent together, her mouth can't help drawing a beautiful arc. No matter how many dark clouds are floating in the sky at this time, Luo Xiaoqing's heart will be full of bright sunshine.
When Luo Xiaoqing found that everyone's eyes were hiding secrets, it was half a month since she learned from her deskmate that Xu Boqin and Xie Yuxin had broken up. Although everyone still laughs crazy together, what's wrong with it? Yan Ge still buys breakfast for everyone, Xie Yuxin will still sing for everyone, Xu Boqin's patience is still undiminished, and the kimchi she brings is still delicious.
In a trance, the math teacher's chalk headdress played the role of UFO and landed on Luo Xiaoqing's desk impartially. Her body suddenly trembled and she listened carefully. Don't forget to tell yourself: I think too much and maybe nothing has changed, whether it's self-deception or self-comfort.
four
What happened to them? Luo Xiaoqing finally asked Yan Ge. She chose a time when she and Yan Ge were alone. The sky that day was as dark as any other sky in winter.
No, it's nothing. He said: this is not good.
You know everything, right?
A lot has happened between them, and I only know a little. Xiaoqing, we are all for your own good. Really.
But I don't know. Luo Xiaoqing's eyes rested on the gray sky overhead, thinking blankly. She couldn't tell whether she was sad or wronged.
In fact, everything is not difficult to understand. Of these four people, Yan Ge is the gentlest, without temper, and considerate. Such people are the most suitable for talking. Especially with careless and uninhibited Luo Xiao, until one day we talked about his ex-girlfriend. After the contrast between sunshine and sunshine, Yan Ge's personality characteristics become more and more obvious.
five
Xu Boqin smiled and announced that he would transfer to a science class.
Thank rain heart that nice voice just fell, Luo Xiaoqing froze. Luo Xiaoqing doesn't know what kind of mood she used to say this sentence. "Seeing your brother and Matilda is more difficult and poor than she thought. Every day, even every meal. All they have is to hit a wall and hit a wall later. Sometimes when he looks at her, his guilt will grow slowly, and those who clap their chests and promise her happiness and love will become empty words. After that, I became very crying. " Apricot said. She is the one who misses Matilda at the same time as me at the moment. Apricot had a crush on her brother for many years and finally caught up with America. . What Luo Xiaoqing doesn't know more is how to keep a relaxed expression on her face. As a girl, she can feel that Xie Yuxin likes Xu Boqin better than Xu Boqin likes her.
When Xu Boqin chose liberal arts, no matter how many and a half months after the class teacher and parents did it, the editor-in-chief suddenly called and said, "Director Zhao questioned your script, I'm afraid-"My heart sank to the bottom, and more than a month's hard work was in vain. In desperation, I grabbed S's phone, and when I heard S's voice, my tears came out. "Don't worry about this spring. I really fell in love for the first time. This is called sincerity. I am delighted to tell Master that love can really avoid the barrier of space and reach the highest level, and I have always believed in "sincerity". . "Knowing what was going on, he comforted me and said," I am at the airport now. I have read the revised script and there is not much problem. " "Thank you ... thank you ..." I was sobbing. "No wonder Cao Xueqin said that women are made of water, so there are so many tears." He smiled humorously. "Be careful, don't cry. You can't find a boyfriend. " His words made me stop crying. He went on to say, "Xiao Fei, don't worry. When I come back from Beijing, your script must have been finished. " Then he changed the subject, "Be in a better mood, arrange your life and dress up beautifully, and you will feel that life is actually beautiful-"He refused to change his mind about ideological work. Because only in this way can four people continue to be in the same class. She still remembers that when she saw the list of classes posted at the school gate, Xu Boqin looked embarrassed and teased: The night before, my husband and I called my parents. My phone number is simple: "Dad, Zhu Lei and I will register tomorrow." "Very good." Dad, calling is as short as sending a telegram. Put the phone down, I sat for a long time. I know dad may have a lot to say in his heart, but he won't say it in front of me. Me too. My sacrifice was not in vain. You see, there is a handsome boy like me missing from the science class. What she didn't forget was that she was chasing herself and Xie Yuxin on the school playground, and Yan Ge stood by and smiled helplessly.
Yeah, we can be together again. Very good! That night, Luo Xiaoqing wrote on the QQ signature.
Later, she thought that another reason why Xu Boqin chose prose should be to thank Yu Xin. After they got together, she asked him this question half jokingly. He is honest: a little, hehe. She scolded the smelly boy and stopped talking. Her two friends are together and somehow feel happy, because they both have their own happiness.
After learning that they were separated, Luo Xiaoqing carefully observed their expressions. After all, they are all their good friends, and she doesn't want anything to happen to them. However, apart from a little chat and occasional deadpan, they seem to have nothing unusual. If four people walk together, the expression on their faces is the same as before, every Sunday.
Go back when the water is clear.
When listening to the wind blowing jujube trees
That rustling sound. She always leans her head back.
Water clearly remembers a sentence I read in a book.
If I accidentally drop a tear,
That's because I don't want to forget who you are. Sample, so that Luo Xiaoqing trance doubt they are lovers.
In that case, that would be great.
six
The friendship between two people gives people a simple and happy feeling. The friendship of four people is a little carnival, but three people are a little embarrassed. Especially after a long time, this sense of embarrassment is becoming more and more obvious.
They still go out to sing together, go to the seaside by bike and do their homework together as when they were four people, but they are always silent. This silent silence is naturally taken for granted.
Luo Xiaoqing remembers that she read such a sentence in a book: true good friends will not feel embarrassed even if they stay together silently. She thought, we are still really good friends, at least when we are together, we won't feel embarrassed.
As the days passed, it ran away soon after spring came. The friendship between Luo Xiaoqing and Yan Ge rose with the temperature this summer. At the same time, her relationship with thank rain heart gradually fell into a layer of snow, thin enough to produce something called distance.
In addition, what Luo Xiaoqing, who has always been careless, didn't notice was that besides himself and Ge Yan getting better, Xie Yuxin and Yan Ge often walked together. If Yan Ge is not here, the two girls will feel a little uncomfortable. Invisible, Yan Ge has become a bridge connecting this friendship.
When Luo Xiaoqing chats with Yan Ge, it is often Luo Xiaoqing who simply tells him the interesting news or stories she has seen. He listened to her quietly and smiled when appropriate, giving Luo Xiaoqing a warm sense of existence and intimacy. But unlike Xie Yuxin, she never told him her troubles. No matter how uncomfortable she is, she is still alone. For Luo Xiaoqing, who is strong and somewhat arrogant, it seems that it is not suitable for her to talk. She is not a person suitable for others to show their feelings to her, so she doesn't know much about Yan Ge.
In the meantime, she will see Xie Yuxin with Yan Ge and talk to him quietly. When she comes, their conversation will come to an abrupt end and then change quickly. Several times, thank rain heart looked at her and opened her mouth, as if she had something to say, but in the end she didn't speak.
Sometimes Luo Xiaoqing feels very tired. How should such friendship be cared for? This small circle that doesn't seem to matter without himself occasionally makes Luo Xiaoqing feel tired and bored. But she still protects it carefully. Even though there are many things she can't know, there is still a place in her heart that belongs to them.
At the same time, some things still have the taste of the past. For example, Xie Yuxin will help her with her homework, go to Dongcheng by bike to buy her her favorite black forest cake, and secretly help her when she can't answer the teacher's questions. All these will make Luo Xiaoqing's fatigue swept away and add a few flowers stained with the smell of sunshine.
seven
The days passed day by day, followed by the war-torn senior three. As the head teacher said at the beginning of the semester, the days of senior three passed quickly.
Luo Xiaoqing, who is in senior three, soon realized this. In such a dark year, three people are busy studying, and less than three sentences are related to learning. Luo Xiaoqing, who was careless, didn't care much about the friendship between the three. She has no time to think about it.
No matter how many things thank rain heart and Yan Ge hide from themselves, it will all be over.
eight
Before graduation, the whirlwind of alumni records will always sweep all classes. Luo Xiaoqing also bought a book to commemorate his youth. Many of the alumni records she sent out have returned to her, but Xie Yuxin's has been missing for a long time. Every time I ask her for it, she either forgets to bring it or brings it to you tomorrow. After asking and asking, Luo Xiaoqing felt boring, so he soon dropped it.
However, in the end, this classmate record came back. The day after leaving the college entrance examination room.
Thank rain heart wrote in the message bar:
Sorry, I didn't ask Xu Boqin and Yan Ge to tell you what happened. Xiaoqing, please believe that I wanted to tell you everything, okay? But it didn't work out in the end. Chen Jiarui decided to go to Tianjin again. Dong also strongly supports Chen Jiarui's actions. He asked to go to the old man's house with Chen Jiarui. Chen Jiarui and Dong Xian arrived at Zhang Sheng's house. That night, several of them sat in the living room, thinking about how to "break through" this difficulty. When he was idle, suddenly, Zhang Ping patted his thigh and said, "Since dad's eyesight is failing, I think as long as the voice is similar, nothing else matters!" The words reminded everyone that everyone decided to ask Dong out again. Although Dong He's appearance and height are not very consistent, it is important that the old man has recognized his voice. Other problems will not be too big in the eyes of the nearly blind old man. The reason is I don't want you to worry about us. I know we are all your good friends, and you don't want any of us to get hurt. Similarly, you are our good friend, so we choose to protect you in a silent way.
One of the four people should be Wan Li, and among us, you are that person.
Luo Xiaoqing looked at this day. When Xie Yurong ran home, a shoe fell off, his clothes were torn, his schoolbag disappeared and his car was thrown away. Xie Yurong won't say anything. No matter how he asked, he just kept crying. She stopped her family when they said they would call the police. Say that finish, I sighed gently and put the classmate record back in the book. Then she wrote a personal diary in QQ space:
The way you protected me made me hurt more. If I can, I hope to exchange the clear sky for the sad time with you.
Later, Luo Xiaoqing glanced at the blue sky like youth in June outside the window and said softly, After all, everything is accompanied by youth. At the end of 2009, Chen Ji embarked on the road of viewing houses. But there is no 10,000-yuan house within the inner ring of Shanghai. Even in residential areas with inconvenient transportation, house prices are "noble". Property consultants are polite, but Chen Ji feels that their faces are as cold as the water handed over. The curtain has fallen.
Those little things hidden in youth also ended together. For example, Xu Boqin told him to break up with that girl because his family knew he was in love. For example, Xie Yuxin spent three years liking Xu Boqin. For example, Yan Ge is the one who wants to study science most among the four people. For example, Luo Xiaoqing wants to make Xie Yu happy.
The campus is sad for you.