Yes, how long has it been since I last saw you? From the summer of senior high school entrance examination to the winter of college graduation, from 16 to 22, or longer. I never saw you again anyway.
This city is so small that I overheard your news. For example, marriage, the wedding is very grand. The beautiful river, yacht, flowers, balloons and beautiful bride have all the blessings except me.
This city is too big, so big for so many years, but I have never seen you again. At the intersection where we met for the first time, we visited the supermarket, the gift shop and even the door of the downstairs community together.
I lost you and my youth in the past six years. How cruel you are, you will call me when you are lovelorn, and you will give me your blessing when you receive the college admission notice, but it never appears again.
You know all my news, even which class I missed, but in the end, you became someone else's groom. And I can only bless you silently.
/kloc-I met you at the age of 0/5, Yubei. At that time, you were just 19 years old and a singer in Beijing. Which girl is not good at Chun Qing? I stumbled across your space and was fascinated by your photos. It was a group of photos of Bazaar men, with beautiful lips and domineering faces, which satisfied all my fantasies about Prince Charming. At that time, I was particularly inferior and embarrassed to say a word to you. You seem to read my mind, take the initiative to add me and leave me a message. Looking at the horrible photos of two non-mainstream girls in the space, you have been encouraging me to dress up well. I look at all kinds of girls around you, one is more beautiful than the other, just like a small fan, silently watching you. ?
Later, you should be defeated by my simplicity. Like a big brother, you often tell me some life truths. Talk about what you saw and heard in Beijing, talk about the girls around you, and feel that you are not happy. It turns out that making you a singer has always been your mother's wish. I have always encouraged you. I always believe that sooner or later you will be as popular as Jay Chou. You just laughed. Later, when you are free, talk to me and let you sing to me after I finish my homework. I remember the first song you sang was Breakpoint, which made me afraid to listen to that song again. It's beautiful, even better than the original. I was just about to take the mid-term exam, and we encouraged each other.
This is also a special time for my family. My parents are getting divorced, so I am as helpless as an orphan. You are all my spiritual support. At that time, all I could think about was you. Sometimes I look at your photos in a daze. I really hope to see you in real life. However, I am too self-abased to dare at all. I think you may not like a girl like an ugly duckling.
Finally, the senior high school entrance examination ended in all kinds of suffering. I have a holiday.
You also came back from Beijing. You said, Nan Lin, I want to see you.
I haven't replied to you for a long time. Girls of that age are really sensitive and love to think too much.
Finally, at a friend's birthday party, I answered you. I said, Yubei, come here and I'll wait for you.
You will soon appear in the private room of ktv. The noise is so loud that I can't remember what your first sentence said. I only remember you wearing a white T-shirt and a pair of white shoes, so you appeared in my life, like a prince.
You sat next to me, and all my friends looked at me with envy. You sing better than on the phone. I sit quietly beside you, like a shy little girl.
Love at first sight is silence.
In the meantime, a girl came over and asked if it was my boyfriend. I quickly explained that it was not, just a friend. The girl blushed and kept talking to you, and you responded politely to her.
There was a cake fight for no reason. I remember it very deeply. You always protect me, so only I am not attacked.
I forget how the day ended, except that you sent me home. Your family called to ask if you were with your girlfriend. You just smile and don't talk.
That summer, I like to wear a white cotton skirt. Do you fall in love with my skirt or me first?
When you got home, you sent me a message saying, Nan Lin, you are as pure as a blank sheet of paper, and I really want to protect you.
Your signature has also become, I want to protect that girl from any harm
I'm glad I didn't come to pick you up on purpose, but I dare not accept you.
My parents really divorced, and my mother left home crying. I lay on the balcony and watched her walk away without looking back. Then I began to cry and cried desperately. I knew it was time for me to grow up.
From then on, I began to ignore you slowly. I don't have the courage and qualifications. You are so good, you should have better girls by your side.
You'll still be nice to me. You didn't go back to Beijing in those days. I know that your family is in good condition and pampered, and those dreams of throwing money are just your pastime. I dare not approach you. I'm scared for no reason. How hard I tried to protect my worthless self-esteem.
Dad didn't come home for a long time at first. He has to work, so he has no time to take care of me.
I only remember that it rained all the time that summer, and I hated it.
/kloc-before the age of 0/6, I started to work part-time in the summer vacation, but I was too young to be used. I want to support myself too much. I also want to buy beautiful clothes, and I also want to stand beside you with beautiful self-confidence.
Finally, I got a job as a waiter in a restaurant. You found me when I refused to see you for a long time.
After work early that day, you stood in front of a white car and waited for me. I saw you trying to hide, and then you dragged me into the car. I swear, I've never been in such a good car in my life. I pretended to be indifferent.
You ask me, Nan Lin, are you crazy? Tell me if you are short of money.
I broke your hand. What are you doing, Yubei? Not everyone is as happy as you.
I got off and walked away. You get off the bus and shout to me, Nan Lin, I support you. You needn't work so hard.
Young man, we are really poor and have only a little poor self-esteem. I finally walked away without looking back.
When I went to work the next day, my colleague pulled me and said, I can't see it. My boyfriend is so rich that he comes here to experience life.
I'm too lazy to explain.
From that day on, everyone knows that I have a boyfriend who drives a Mercedes, but I don't reject it.
I see you again. You are sitting at the dining table.
I can only avoid you, and you are not annoyed. All the services on your desk are also entrusted to your colleagues. You wait until I get off work and wait for me at the door. I asked if you were finished. You said that if you go on like this, I will always come to dinner and start bringing my parents to dinner tomorrow.
You said it so seriously that I laughed.
As you wish, I lost my first job because I didn't concentrate on my work. Of course, I worked for nothing for a week and didn't get a penny.
From then on, you began to cheat every day.
I also introduce you to my junior friend, as a friend, of course.
I almost hung out with you that summer, and you can't wait to call me ten times a day.
I also like being with you, but we are not together.
You are Cancer, a cool warm man, and you will give me medicine when I have a stomachache at two in the morning.
Then, send me a message when you go back, Nannan. You know, I really want to hug you like that.
I also laugh at your stupidity and thank you for your respect for me.
There's no one at home, and you've been petting me to cook for you. I really really went. We went to the supermarket together. By the way, I have never been to that supermarket again.
You buy me a lot of delicious food and watch me eat it all. I cooked several dishes, and you have been helping me in the kitchen. Although you didn't eat much, you said that you would keep your mother to eat and test your future daughter-in-law's cooking skills. I hit you with a smile.
All your communication methods are grouped by myself. Angle. You said, I am your angel. The last angel.
After dinner, you play the guitar and sing to me. It's Jacky Cheung's My Heart Really Hurts. You look at me affectionately, and I listen to you quietly. The quietest time. You hold me in circles. That was the first time you hugged me and pushed me down. I was very thin at that time, you looked at me in love, you said. Nannan, you really look like my girlfriend now. I want to fatten you up.
I said, I don't want it. You threw me down on purpose.
Suddenly, your parents came back. I greeted them awkwardly. But you're calm. I saw your mother smiling at your father. Then we said goodbye. Your parents came to see me off when I went out. Your father has been smiling at me, which is very touching. Your mother must think that her silly son has woken up and found a girlfriend. I also expressed my helplessness.
We have done a lot of things together, so you are so pampered that you accompany me to take the bus and eat roadside stalls. You may not do these things in your life, and you will never do them again.
I hope you meet your Snow White.
Later, the results came out. I didn't get into No.1 Middle School, so I had to go to No.4 Middle School. Your mother and you are both in a hurry and have been asking me to go to No.1 Middle School. In fact, I don't want to cause trouble to my family, so I have to let nature take its course. I had a big fight with you and asked you what qualifications you had to interfere in my life. You're not angry. You've been fooling me.
And I was so ignorant that I avoided you for a long time. Didn't go out, didn't answer the phone
Your mother suddenly called me, and your mother said, Nannan, I know you are a good girl, and my aunt really likes you. You should persuade Xiaobei not to eat at home for a few days.
I promised.
Calling you, you are particularly haggard, which makes me feel a little distressed. I said, Yubei, you should have a good meal. If you lose weight, you are not handsome.
You say, what's the use of handsome. Some people may not like it.
I have been laughing at you, and you are not to be outdone.
Finally, you said to me, Nan Lin, come to the wedding with me on Sunday.
I said yes.
Then, I went to the night market that day and bought a skirt that I thought was particularly beautiful. I've been working hard, hoping to be worthy of you.
You made a gesture, you said, made a phone call and ate three pancakes.
Look, I don't know why. You used to love me so much.
While I was trying on a skirt at home, my father came back. He drank a lot of wine. You started cursing me as soon as you got home, Nan Lin, you son of a bitch. If you don't study hard, I will sell you. You are as cheap as your mother.
He cut my skirt.
Cut the girl's heart.
The day before the wedding, you called happily and said when you would pick me up. Finally, I said weakly, Nannan, can you promise me one thing? Can you pretend to be my girlfriend and let me hold hands?
What a humble request.
My heart is dying: Yubei, we can't, I'm sorry, don't come to me again.
I hung up the phone and turned it off.
Woke up again, countless phone calls and text messages.
You said, Nan Lin, you let me down.
You said, Nan Lin, I'm sorry, I won't push you.
You say, Nan Lin, I'm downstairs.
You said, Nan Lin, give me a chance to take care of you.
……
I didn't come back to you, I just kept crying and crying.
Until, you never called again.
I became a high school student. Start a new life.
There will be many good boys in school, but none of them are you.
I remember, I told you that you can't fall in love before college. You say, I'll wait for you.
And when I told those boring boys, they got angry and walked away.
It is all around the school. Nan Lin is gay.
However, I don't care.
When I got your call again, I was a sophomore and you were drunk. You said, Nan Lin, I am lovelorn. I can't love anyone else.
I said, I have class tomorrow. Goodbye.
After graduating from senior three, you called and said, Congratulations, Nan Lin, you have been admitted to an ideal school.
I said, thank you, thanks to you.
You said I wanted to see you.
I said, I'm busy. Goodbye.
At that time, I worked in the coffee shop until two in the morning every day.
Later, you found all my people.
You said, well, searching your name is all absenteeism records.
At this time, I am a sophomore, and I often skip classes to do part-time jobs. I want to live.
I said, I'd love to.
You said, I'm getting married.
I said, congratulations.
You say, go ahead, let me sing, and see if my singing skills have improved.
I said, ok, send wedding candy.
You said, no problem, no matter who is missing, you are indispensable.
You are no longer that boy, but more like a man.
This is our last conversation. Of course, I didn't wait for your wedding candy.
I've seen photos of everyone in your family, all of which are photos of you and your girlfriend wandering around the country. I remember telling you that my dream is to travel around the world.
Now you're with someone else.
Girls are your parents' type, beautiful and generous.
Go and sing, listen to your song, "May one heart win". Singing is even higher than the original score.
I cried while listening.
Finally, when I tried so hard to feel worthy of you, you married someone else.
Later, no one was as kind to me as you.
I still want to stand in front of you By the way, long time no see.
Ladies and gentlemen, last update.
Last year, I uploaded a photo of your son. Yu Sina. Hello.
I hacked all your contact information and said goodbye to the past one by one.
Goodbye, Yubei.
Goodbye, those words you said forever.
May your happiness last forever and my loneliness come again another day.
"Nan Lin, be my girlfriend. When you graduate from high school, we will get engaged. When you graduate from college, we will get married. I will support you all my life. "
"No, I didn't fall in love before college."
"Then I will wait for you and get married directly after graduating from college."
"What if I can't wait?"
Then I will wait until you are moved by me.
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