Under the background of the Cultural Revolution
On the ground, tear drops; In the sky, meteors pass by. ...
My love, is that you?
Grandma was born in May 4th. Of course, the movement did not spread to this remote mountain city, and she happily spent her girlhood in the shadow of the landlord family. Grandma ranks seventh in the family, so everyone calls her Miss Seven. Teacher Qi is very clever. She was admitted to Nankai Girls' School and won the title of "School Flower". Indeed, she is beautiful. Teacher Qi is very lively and turbulent in domestic schools, which excites most young people of that generation. She once called on many enthusiastic young people like her to struggle. They shouted slogans, put up posters, marched and raised money. ...
At this time, she met the love robbery of her life, my first grandpa who had never been masked.
My first grandfather, surnamed Wang, was a first-class general of the Kuomintang. He studied in England and was an excellent national soldier with both civil and military skills.
For their first meeting, I think it must be wonderful. Because every time grandma recalls here, there will always be a girl's sweetness and shyness on her face. Only this paragraph will make her love life. ...
Mr. Wang and Miss Qi met when they organized a speech at Nankai Girls' School. Miss Qi's flowery appearance made Mr. Wang fall for her youth and passion, and Mr. Wang's gentle talk and honest and frank's tolerance also deeply attracted Miss Qi in Kind of Love. Their meeting, like April Sophora japonica, is brilliant for a while and lasts for a lifetime. Miss Qi is a woman with clear love and hate, and her tough personality also made her suffer a lot later. But at that time, she was like a moth, pouncing on their troubled relationship. Mr. Wang has a family.
Mr. Wang married two wives. The first one died of illness, leaving four children. The second is also sick in bed. The long-term family gloom has made Mr. Wang pale and has no energy to accept another new relationship. However, the subtle changes in his body did not escape his wife's eyes. She saw the longing in her husband's eyes and was extremely sad. These are not what she can give after years of illness.
At the same time, Mr. Qi's family is firmly opposed to them being together. After all, their family is a big family with a prominent position, doing small things for others. That's absolutely impossible. Miss qi began a hunger strike. She is madly in love, and once she falls in love, she won't let go. Finally, the family compromised. After all, she is the most precious daughter in the family, and her parents and brothers can't bear to watch her torture themselves.
Mr. Wang's sick wife finally couldn't delay her hand. He needs more time to take care of his sick wife, wipe her body and give her medicine ... these still can't defeat the sickle of death. His sick wife finally passed away with a longing for the world and physical liberation, leaving a bunch of children without mothers. The children don't think much of their father's love. They think that Mr. Qi killed his mother, so they don't give Mr. Qi a good look. These are all recognized by Mr. Qi. Since you chose him, you chose his life. His children ... They have been working hard.
Grandma really works hard. When she married the Wangs, the oldest child was three years older than her, and a group of children hated her. Before she was mature, she took on the task of taking care of five children, and she won the recognition of a group of children with her own efforts. She thinks the sweetest thing is the spiritual communication between Mr. Wang and her. They often talk in English. In front of the children, Miss Wang speaks to her in English, which often makes her blush, and the children don't know why.
But such sweet times are rare after all. Mr. Wang is a soldier, and a soldier must have a military mission. The turbulent national conditions made him go abroad all the year round. Miss Qi prayed for an amulet for him, and that little triangle symbol pinned all her hopes.
This relationship is more about waiting, waiting for the news of his survival, waiting for the news of his victory and waiting for the news of his return! Although they are separated, their feelings are growing.
In this way, they fought Japan and civil war.
The Kuomintang (KMT) was in full swing, losing ground, and was soon forced to retreat to the last land-Chongqing. Mr. Wang suggested going to Taiwan Province Province, but Miss Qi could not leave her parents and a big family. Later, the form became more and more tense, and they couldn't leave if they wanted to. (1948) I'm already very nervous about going to Taiwan Province Province, so I have to go by myself, but I can't bring my family. )
1948 autumn, the city is bustling, with newly opened restaurants and newly listed singers in the ballroom ... it knows nothing and is still bustling. And Mr. Wang and Miss Qi, they are like two yellow leaves on an old tree in late autumn. At the same time, they were blown away by the wind and twisted downward in the air. One of them hung on the top of the tree, and the other one fell to the ground alone. Although one understands and one doesn't, they can understand or not, and they can't interpret this unknown ending.
Miss Qi sat alone at home, waiting for her husband's return. All we can wait for is the bad news that her husband was robbed and killed.
What if there is no pillar and no big home?
My parents took Miss Qi back and asked her to remarry. How could she refuse? This is my husband's home, with her husband's dribs and drabs and children, how should the children live? She moved to the countryside, with all her children, and planned to spend the rest of her life there, but how could time pass her by?
Time soon arrived at the "Cultural Revolution". Great changes have taken place in grandma's family. My parents died during the land reform, and now my brothers are missing. Grandma dragged her five children alone and didn't know what to do, but waited for all kinds of suffering. This is an unspeakable injury to her. She cries every time she recalls it. That ghostly day left her with more than just the big sign of the bowl on her back. And the hole in my heart hurts when the wind blows!
Miss Qi is caught and scolded every day. She wears bricks before dawn, swims in the street during the day and goes home at night. A group of children want to eat, the oldest can earn their own work points, and the youngest is still crawling on the ground. Teacher Qi is weak, and once criticized, she is even weaker. She can't go out to work to earn work points, but the whole family has to eat, so she has to knit sweaters for others all night in exchange for meager rations. Not having enough to eat is still a trivial matter for her. She can scrimp and save herself and give it all to her children. But she can't pretend not to hear the overwhelming headlines. Some people call her "capitalist", some people call her "reactionary" and some people call her "Black Five" ... Children are "children" and "little spies". She was taken to the cowshed and squatted, and the children were afraid to go out. They cried with hunger. They boldly went out and stole a sweet potato vine against the wall. Several children bit after bit, but refused to let go.
She is bitter, and how much she has paid for a love that didn't last long. Flower-like youth didn't last long, but lead-like suffering accompanied her all her life. She didn't cry. What's the use of crying? You can leave this unfair world crying. Can you cry away this deformed sin?
She can stand it, she can stand it. When the red-hot soldering iron was branded on her back, she didn't say a word, but silently endured it until she fainted. But the children can't stand it. They will be thrown small stones as soon as they go out. It is common to eat without rations. My poor menstruation, who had never been masked, starved to death. The poor child stared at the hungry world and followed his short-lived father before he knew what childhood was.
Grandma cried, crying for the poor child, crying for her short-lived late husband and crying for her own fate. How unfair the sky is, if you steal a little sweetness, you will be severely punished.
Good-hearted people began to come to the door to set up. Although Miss Qi is married and has children, she has not shown much change physically, but no one can see her inner vicissitudes. Well-intentioned people say, marry. Do you have the heart to suffer for yourself? She wavered. For the sake of her children, for the first time, she shook her confidence in keeping her husband upright. Watching children eat "white grains" (actually a kind of clay, white, with delicate soil, also known as "Guanyin soil", can not eat more, it will lead to abdominal distension and can not be excreted. ) and a growing belly, she chose to get married.
Her second husband is my biological grandfather, surnamed Chen.
Man Chen is a standard "Red Five", and his family is poor, but it is glorious. Every day, he goes to work in the fields with a hoe on his back. He doesn't bow his head when he sees people, but he can spit on the heads of those "black five" and rush to give a punch when he is criticized. But he also needs women and likes beautiful women. He sent someone to fix up Miss Qi, saying that whether she was born or not, she would take care of their orphans and widows.
Well-intentioned people say marry, marry Wu Gong, and the organization will say that you have reformed well. Although I still don't have enough to eat, I don't have to squat in the cowshed, and the children won't be thrown pebbles again.
In the evening, Miss Qi came to Chen Man's house with a quilt in her arms. Chen Man is so poor that he doesn't even have a bed. She spread some straw on the floor, and then spread a quilt that she brought, which is a new house.
Grandpa has no knowledge, only works every day, stinks, and doesn't take a shower for a long time. Grandma can't stand it. After giving birth to my father and uncle, she has been separated for half a century.
The previous marriage left her children, and the latter marriage gave her life; The former marriage is short but sweet, while the latter marriage is long but only superficial; She yearns for the former marriage all day, but hardly mentions the latter.
After the "Cultural Revolution", she applied to be an English teacher in Toyo No.5 Middle School and left the black land where her blood and tears flowed.
Grandma is eighty-eight years old this year, and she is not old at all. Looking from the back, she can still vaguely see the posture of the school flower. She lay on a cane chair and rocked for a century.
The wheel of history is advancing rapidly, and some things are drifting away from the dust with the footsteps of history.
We can only read a love story many years ago, and watch the distant fireworks years through her whispers.
There is a meteor across the horizon, and a tear accidentally falls from the corner of my eye.
My love, is that you?