Yesterday was the anniversary appointed by Grandpa Mao to learn from Comrade Lei Feng. Like me, the post-80s generation probably had the experience of learning from Uncle Lei Feng in primary school. However, I have a bad impression of Comrade Lei Feng since I was a child, because I am a selfish and vulgar guy. I think Lei Feng, like the classmates who tattle all day to please the teacher, pretends to be noble for his own benefit. Of course, later experience told me that my level was too low, and I was just a gentleman's belly with a mean heart ... Well, then I recalled it, and I was deeply impressed that our primary school invited a guy who claimed to be a comrade-in-arms of Lei Feng to give us a report on March 5 of a certain year. At that time, everyone moved a small bench to the playground to listen to memories for two hours. I can't remember clearly what I said at first because of my bad memory. I only remember "the story that Lei Feng and I are going to tell" and so on. The homework that day was to write a composition about this report ... Of course, all primary school students would write a "good composition" to help the old man and the old lady cross the road at that time, and I also wrote it, although I am a vulgar guy, I almost never take the initiative to help others. However, I don't think this is a sign of my personality problem. The only purpose of writing that kind of thing is to cheat the teacher. As for the teachers, I am very grateful to them for teaching me knowledge. They told me to be a man. Sorry, you are not qualified. Who are you to judge my personality?
The following comments are based on official reports. In fact, Lei Feng is also very pitiful. His childhood just witnessed that "Chairman Mao is our savior", so the party said that if you want to be noble, he will be really noble.
"A person's role, for the revolutionary cause, is like a screw on the machine. Because there are many screws connected and fixed, the machine has become a solid whole, which can run freely and play its great working function. Although the screw is small, its function is immeasurable. I am willing to be a screw forever. Screws should be maintained and cleaned frequently to avoid rusting. The same is true of the human mind. We should check them often so that they won't make mistakes. I will continue to strengthen my study, improve my ideological awareness, resolutely listen to the words of the party and Chairman Mao, often carry out criticism and self-criticism, clear my ideological problems at any time, and be a screw that will never rust in the great revolutionary cause. " —— Excerpted from Lei Feng's April Diary 1962.
Very characteristic of that year, right? In fact, Lei Feng has a crystal pure and shining heart from propaganda. His experience reminds me of it. I remember when I was in primary school, the monitor took the lead in saying that I should do good deeds and consciously clean the school health! Students shouted, do good, do good! None of us acted. It happened that a guy with poor IQ swept the fallen leaves on campus with a broom before six o'clock the next morning. Of course, this association is really vicious. Let me analyze the dark side of my heart and show it to everyone. Comrade Lei Feng firmly believes that "everyone is really good", which I would like to call "collective values". He did weaken his own life value and infinitely promoted the collective value. Of course, it is difficult for a person who has lived in a collective environment without relatives since childhood (that is, has never experienced what love is) to know his own value. In fact, this is also a common problem of the previous generation. "It is a sin to approve private practice in private, and to approve selfishness in an instant". But people are born selfish, especially normal people who live under the care of their parents. Being cared for and loved will make people feel that they are unique and irreplaceable, and naturally think for themselves. However, socialist morality must do the opposite. It holds that people, as far as the whole society is concerned, are parts, broken gears and screws that can be replaced immediately, and people must make contributions to the whole society, which is unconditional. This requires people to have "noble morality".