In this OH card, I saw the gorgeous rainbow blooming with colorful light. I think this is the ultimate yearning state of my life, living as a beam of light and empowering myself and others with warmth and love. Under the rainbow in the distance, there is a long river extending in the direction of the rainbow. This reminds me of Poirot mentioned by Xu Jingdong's tutor when explaining the Heart Sutra.
This long river in OH Cary leads to the ultimate direction of life. In this process, we need to constantly learn and perceive, and awaken our wisdom, so as to cross him and swim across an emotional river. Combing the study and growth in 2020, I can feel the vibration connected with myself, and see the joy of my growth, and I will be more determined about the rainbow and direction I yearn for.
There is also a bridge near the river in this card. My interpretation of it is that there are many temptations and shortcuts in life. It seems that you can cross the river without having to endure the hardships of swimming across the bridge. In fact, these are all short-term interest traps. When we live unconsciously, such as brushing Tik Tok unconsciously and eating a lot of food unconsciously, we seem to get some temporary satisfaction, but it is fleeting, and then it brings regret and loss. Because you don't have to swim to walk this bridge, but it runs counter to the rainbow you really want. The so-called shortcut is just getting farther and farther away from the truth. I think this is also a kind of consciousness and reminder brought by this OH card.
When I opened this OH card, I asked myself a question: There are so many people in it, where am I? At that moment, I suddenly understood the significance of this card in the 2020 retrospective movie. In this card, what I see is a scene similar to the National Day soldiers. There are three people leading in front, followed by many soldiers, and then there are many people watching by the roadside. Before 2020, when faced with some things, I may be more of a roadside crowd, because I will feel that these things seem to have little to do with myself. On some occasions, I am reluctant to speak and express, but with the opening of self-awareness, I seem willing to participate in more activities. At this time, I have become one of many soldiers, an executor, or a follower. Later, especially after I finished my grandpa Sagulu's homework, I understood the meaning of response and began to be a flag bearer in front.
After listening to the course of internal engineering, I began to react to what happened in my work and life. When there is a need, when I have a voice that I want to try, I will choose to respond. Stand in front of the leader. Be the protagonist of your life and try many new things, such as participating in the company's live broadcast activities, debating competitions, expressing your views at meetings and so on. This feeling of being answered makes me feel a kind of strength and courage to connect with myself and truly present and bloom my potential.
In this picture, I saw a diver swimming in the deep sea and saw many fish and a hook with bait. The enlightenment of this scene to my 2020 movie is that in the process of coaching or self-cognition, everyone actually has his own inner hook, and the bait on the hook may be wealth, power, intimacy and so on. When we are unconsciously attracted by the bait on these hooks and enter a compulsive life cycle, we may be hurt. If you don't realize it in this process and don't heal, you will still get hurt next time you encounter a similar hook.
The role of the coach may be this diver, who can see the emotional needs and hooks of the customers in the dark sea. Everyone has his own life topic, and the process is insurmountable. So the diver can't get rid of these hooks, but what he can do is to give these fish a beam of light, just like a coach helps customers to generate consciousness in the process of dialogue, so that customers can see their inner patterns and look at themselves with consciousness. Seeing is the beginning of change, and then thinking and behavior will begin to change. When you learn to love and accept yourself, the hook in your heart will be healed and melted by love, and these fish can really swim freely in the deep sea and fully enjoy the freedom and happiness of life.
In this OH card, I saw a shovel on the wall. It is conceivable that there are still many wasteland around to be reclaimed. The soil in the wasteland is barren and hard, which requires continuous hard farming. In 2020, I began to pay more attention to the practice of landing, not only staying at the level of imagination and thinking, but continuing to improve towards the desired goal.
2020 is the first year from QC to Compliance Department. My duties are regulation evaluation and tracking, suspicious sample management and quality culture. These are all new fields for me, which I have never done before, just like pieces of wasteland to be reclaimed. I have no knowledge and experience here. I have to learn everything from scratch. However, with the coping mentality and the thinking of management by objectives, I feel that I can quickly adapt to the new work content, and at the same time, I can optimize the original process from some new perspectives, constantly cut and adjust the monthly and Zhou Du plans in the general direction of the annual goals, and implement follow-up feedback.
There will be difficult stones (challenges), and occasionally there will be fear or frustration. At this time, the process of self-coaching or being coached will make you see the value and significance behind the challenge. When you jump out of the problem and move in the direction you want, the problem is no longer a problem.
Coping with the change of mentality will also make you more actively consult your colleagues and explore better solutions, just like constantly optimizing your shovel to make it more efficient. Take your time, stick to it, and challenge the necessary difficulties. The wasteland will gradually turn into fertile land and reap fruitful results.
This is the last OH card drawn and the last scene of the play. When I opened the card, I saw a coquettish girl with a cigarette in her mouth and a disdainful expression. This is one of my five least favorite cards after reading it. I have an unconscious aversion to vulgarity. With this feeling, I asked myself, if this is the last revelation of the review in 2020, what does this card mean? I stared at her, and the answer appeared in my heart: "parting heart."
Yes, in 2020, I actually made many like-minded friends, especially Mr. Shi and Qi, history and humanities, coaching philosophy and multidimensional parallel space. It seems that there will always be endless topics, and this kind of high-energy collision of thinking excites me. I feel very grateful. In my life, I will meet some partners who can walk together and forge ahead towards the same vision of life.
At the same time, there are some people in my life that I don't like. I will stay away, judge and be biased. I hold my own filter, choose to stay away and turn a blind eye, and these choices, thoughts and behaviors are often unconscious. There seems to be nothing wrong with this, or it is a relatively safe choice. But such separation will make you lost in your likes and dislikes, and you can't really observe them. I may not see each other's value and fall into my own obsession. To some extent, separation is my inner hook. When I insist, it runs counter to the freedom I really want.
In September 2020, I began to practice meditation with grandpa Sagulu's audio, until now. I seem to be able to slowly experience a sense of joy that calms my heart. I seem to have tried meditation before, but I haven't been able to keep practicing like this year, and it has gradually become a habit and a sense of ritual. It is a long process that requires constant meditation and awareness, and it should also be a gift that 202 1 this OH card movie wants to leave for itself.
I am grateful for everything that happened in my life in 2020. I am very clear and sure that the future can be expected!