“Once the strange morning light rises, it will melt the cloud waves above your head; the land and heaven will disappear, leaving you only the eternal universe.”

In December 2019, I happened to be a senior in college. I was an intern in a firm and followed a very good sister on a business trip in a state-owned company.

I once imagined that after graduation, I would become an auditor, hold a computer, wear a white shirt and a black suit, travel everywhere, and look like a professional elite. Indeed, during that internship, I had a great time getting along with my colleagues and learned a lot at the same time. But the pressure also came with it. I worked until past 12 o'clock every night, facing hundreds of companies' account books and dense data, while revising my graduation thesis. So during that time, from 1 to 4 in the morning, I was constantly revising the paper, breaking down and wiping away tears. At the same time, as a cheap graduate who is about to graduate, I don’t know what is suitable for me. Should I try everything, or follow the public and choose what I should choose. Everything feels unknown and confused.

In January 2020, I was still intern. Suddenly, news on mobile phones appeared that many people were hospitalized with pneumonia. At that time, I just thought it was a minor flu, but as I watched the people around me become more and more panicked and the news broadcast became more and more frequent, I suddenly realized that maybe this was a relatively large disaster.

Indeed, at the beginning of 2020, the new coronavirus broke out in the country. People across the country have entered a period of nationwide anti-epidemic.

During that time, the company asked us to end our internship and go home quickly. At this time, my younger brother called and said that he had purchased a photography shop and planned to officially open it on New Year's Eve. He was still happily describing a bright future, but the arrival of the COVID-19 epidemic put our family in trouble.

In February 2020, the epidemic became increasingly serious and Wuhan was placed on lockdown. Everyone undergoes a first-level alert transition. Schools are closed, businesses are shut down, and the clock of the world seems to have stood still.

My brother’s shop can’t open, but the monthly rent of tens of thousands of yuan still has to be paid, and the employees’ wages still have to be paid. But he had just started his own business and had no money. I am a senior who is about to graduate, I have no job, and I can't help much. My sister is in the hospital, wearing thick protective clothing and a mask every day, and receiving countless patients every day.

She said that during that time in the hospital, she watched life and death happen every day and was powerless.

I continued my internship in June of that year, returned to school, got my diploma, and looked at the empty dormitory. After all, I ended my college without even meeting my roommate who had lived with me for four years.

Once upon a time, we said that when we graduate and find a suitable job, we will stay drunk on the last night of school, hoping that we can all become the people we want to be.

But who could have imagined that an unexpected arrival would bring many challenges to the fresh graduates in 2020. Many people finally recognize the truth of society after experiencing severe beatings from society. As for 629, we have never met each other. I miss them so much, and I miss us who were fearless back then.

In the year 2020, some people got sick, some collapsed, some were in a hurry, some left, some were desperate, but some still looked up at the stars. Romain Rolland said that there is only one true heroism in the world, which is to still love life after recognizing the essence of life. I hope we can all do the same.