How time flies. From July 2 1 in the hot summer to February 265438 in the cold wind. I stayed in Putuo Mountain for nearly four months, 103 days. What I thought and thought during this period really gained a lot. Wang Yangming was frustrated in his career and eventually became a generation of sages. Mount Putuo is mine.

First of all, I became attached to Mount Putuo.

In fact, as early as April of 20 1 1, I went to Mount Putuo with my colleagues. At that time, I was on a business trip in other places, and I took time to set out from shenjiamen. One day, time was pressing, so I took a quick look at Putuo Mountain and simply burned a incense and worshipped a bodhisattva. In those days, it may also be based on tourism. After all, I just graduated from work not long ago, so curious about everything and full of confidence in the future. Second, I still cry when I think about it. I miss that youthful time. I wish I could go back to my twenties. That's just thinking. Youth is gone.

Second, Putuo's retreat is a coincidence.

In February this year, I just returned from a two-year mission rotation in a small African country 20,000 kilometers away from the Red Sea. How time flies! At that time, the young lush, under the constant destruction of fate and reality, had already been disheartened by Zuzhi. They have devoted their passion and blood with hope, worked overtime to dedicate their passion and talent, and pretended to be full of dreams and hopes. As a result, they were deeply disappointed. Lack of enterprising spirit pervades everywhere, and bullying is common. The hidden rules are rampant and the ability to cope with the show is superb. The main business is in a mess, and the phenomenon that bad money drives out good money is prominent. It's the same everywhere. If you watch too much, you won't be numb or agree. Since it is not suitable, you choose to leave and pursue poverty, and you are immune. Since you have no chance to achieve it, go and help the world. Actually, that's good. I am loyal to the sun and the moon, and I am innocent. I have struggled and contributed, but I have also been confused, bitter and disappointed. Isn't life a series of experiences? I've been here, I've seen it, I've left, and everything is fine. Think about the time when I struggled to support and lead a team by a small pond. During that time, even if I tried my best, there was no hope of promotion. Sometimes people just have to accept their fate and not come with me. what can I do? The time when I suppressed my pain was also the beginning of a great transformation and baptism in my life. I saw and understood many things. In the most painful time, I thought about becoming a monk or even committing suicide to get rid of it. In the final analysis, there is still a strong utilitarian heart. I am obsessed with those illusory things, and my heart is extremely empty and lacking, so I lost my direction in life and even my courage in life. I have worked for more than ten years and have a clear conscience. I have matured and grown up. I am no longer that ignorant young man. I already have the experience of a mature man, and I also have the calmness to laugh at the flowers in front of the court and the clouds in the sky. The blow and tempering of life have made me who I am today. Thanks to God's tempering, I have accumulated a lot of money over the years, and I am confident that I have the ability to change myself, follow my heart and live my own life. After returning to China in February this year, I saw the reality clearly and decided to leave. Unfortunately, I didn't expect Zuzhi to be really smart. There are so many people who want to catch the last bus of this year's reform, and God will not let me go so cheaply. Sure enough, in May, I was euphemistically regarded as an excellent cadre and was exchanged to other places, killing two birds with one stone, which not only solved the quota I wanted to occupy, but also successfully transferred me to other places. There is no other choice for at least a year. It doesn't matter. I'm not who I used to be. I am fearless. When I arrived at my new unit, I began to work on the boat. I'm extremely uncomfortable. Who cares about your feelings? Then you have to rely on yourself, don't you just try your best to fight for it? Who to look for, who to look for, and who to reflect on, so many years have not been in vain. I didn't move from the ship to the shore through my own efforts. Why should I set limits on my life? I'm not who I used to be. It was because I landed that I had the opportunity to close Mount Putuo for so many days in July. Perhaps the Bodhisattva is also testing and guiding me, and my Putuo Mountain retreat has begun.

Third, the Dojo is in my heart, and I am already proud of my life.

During my work in Putuo Mountain, I saw and heard too many incredible anecdotes, and thoroughly saw the incorrigibility of the group, which strengthened my determination to leave. Why should I be with it? I don't care about the so-called safety and future job. It is not self-confidence in one's own ability, and it is a humble begging for organizational care and charity. Why? If I had known there would be today, why not plan ahead, try to exercise my ability and quality, and keep the confidence and confidence to leave the system at any time? Fortunately, I didn't expect much from Zuzhi. The only thing I dare not forget every day is to sharpen my ability silently and practice the sword in my hand, so that I will not be afraid of ghosts on the road of life in the future, and I will be able to slay demons and exorcise them. I have been accumulating and trying to improve myself. I never gave up. The Dojo is in my heart and my life is under my control. What difficulties can't be overcome and what enemies can't be conquered. As long as I always have a indomitable heart and a hard-working attitude, God will naturally take care of me and will not let me go. So, I don't care if there is the last bus now. I even think that stopping the last bus early depends on ability, living or not, and struggling or not. Breathe the fresh air of Mount Putuo every morning and sweep away the resentment that has been pent up for many years. Seeing that those flies and dogs are mean, I am relieved. I'm not a fellow traveler. I believe that right and wrong will eventually pay off, and Guanyin Bodhisattva is watching. During my stay in Putuo Mountain, I got up early every day, ran and walked against the sea breeze, listened to the learning content, and arranged my daily life in an orderly way. Very substantial, very rewarding, the ability and quality are further improved, and self-confidence is further enhanced. This is my greatest achievement. Thanks to the help and guidance of Bodhisattva, I really realized that the Dojo is really in my heart, and I am fearless. I remembered Feng Zikai's famous saying and kept it in mind. Deep thoughts, deep friendship, deep understanding of details, deep understanding of righteousness, and always quiet and comfortable; Kind and generous, kind and kind, kind and generous, professional is the best; Don't hurt time, don't be sentimental, don't worry about beauty, don't be vain, and forge ahead from now on. Yes, from now on, this is what I have to do every day and need to stick to it; Watching the sunset, worshiping temples, climbing pagodas, climbing peaks, taking ropeways, shopping, eating snacks, eating popsicles, drinking beer, walking, cycling and running around the island many times, leaving my footprints everywhere, full of memories ... feeling the wonderful time of seclusion, appreciating the devout belief of Buddhism, writing poems and lyrics, walking by bike, exercising, strengthening my body and mind, and gaining a lot. Under the influence of the incense of Mount Putuo for half a year, and under the guidance and blessing of the Bodhisattva, I was once again nirvana and my soul was converted. It depends on my chances of being born and joining the WTO. What I have to do now is to actively join the WTO and live the life I want as soon as possible through my own efforts. Since the Dojo is in my heart and I am fearless of the future, I will bravely persist in fighting and save my strength.

I will get up early in the morning to burn incense and say goodbye to the bodhisattva. I will definitely come back when I have the chance, and I will definitely come to pay homage when my wish comes true! I hope the Bodhisattva will bless me and my family with peace, health and happiness all my life. Go to bed early today, write so much for the time being, the conditions are simple, and write the letter by hand as a draft.