In the boundless darkness, the donkey pulled the old man Deshun and Gao Jialin into a slightly wide and flat Sichuan road. It is foggy on both sides of Sichuan Road, and only the grass on the roadside can be heard rustling by the night wind. In the dark distance of Shan Ye, occasionally one or two sharp birds are singing.
At this time, Gao Jialin, who was sitting on the shelf car, felt very strange, and it was difficult to express his feelings in words. He took out two cigarettes and lit them at the same time. He took a drag and handed one of them to the old man Deshun. Deshun took a drag on Gao Jialin's lit cigarette and raised his right hand in the air. With a cry of "Tip 2", the donkey obviously accelerated its pace, its hooves thumped on the dirt road, and the rhythmic bronze bells were particularly crisp in this silent night.
Gao Jialin, who was silent for a long time, finished his cigarette in one breath and threw it in front of the road. Liu Qiaozhen's handsome face reappeared in front of his eyes.
. "Brother, little sister is hard to stay. Take my brother's hand and I'll take you to the gate ... "The old man in Deshun looked at Gao Jialin without saying a word. He can understand Gao Jialin's mood at this time and wants to talk to Gao Jialin, but he can't find a suitable topic at the moment. Deshun old man smoked and thought slowly. After a cigarette, he didn't think of a good idea. He threw his cigarette butts on the dirt road and sang a day trip with his mouth wide open. Although his voice is not high and his singing skills are not beautiful, his hoarse voice and sad tone can't help but make Gao Jialin burst into tears.
The last time I went to the city to pull feces with Liu Qiaozhen in a rack car, it seemed to be yesterday. Singing and singing, I don't know if Deshun's old man forgot the lyrics or lost his strength. His singing stopped suddenly. He raised his right arm and called two animals. He whispered to Gao Jialin, "Galin, are you crying?" Gao Jialin quickly said, "No, I didn't cry." Gao Jialin say that finish, hurriedly wipe away the tears on her face, try to stay calm, although his voice like laughing, but actually crying.
"Baby, don't tease me. My dad is a worm in your stomach. I know what you think. I know you are thinking about Qiaozhen. " Deshun's words hit Gao Jialin's heart, and Gao Jialin's heart ached like a needle.
Gao Jialin wiped the tears from the corner of his eyes and choked and said, "Master Deshun ..." Gao Jialin just called Master Deshun, and he was speechless.
"Garin, don't say you and Qiao Zhen just broke such a short time, and Qiao Zhen is such a good woman. It's just that Lingzhuan and I have been broken for decades, and her comely appearance is still dangling in front of my eyes. Her beautiful voice, like a silver bell touching a silver bell, still echoes in my ears. How many times have I cried on the pillow in my dream? Alas! The thought of her kindness to me makes me feel as bad as being gouged out by a knife. At first, Lingzhuan wanted to come with me several times, but I was afraid of wolves and tigers, which not only failed such a good woman as Lingzhuan, but also ruined my life. Alas! A lifetime, people have a lifetime in this life, and I really regret it ... "At some point, Deshun's old man broke down in tears, and the pain in his heart was beyond others' understanding.
Gao Jialin sobbed and said, "Master Deshun, I regret it too ..." Gao Jialin didn't finish, and tears blurred his eyes again. "Garin, remember my old man's words: in this life, people should never do anything against their conscience! If you do something unconscionable, you will be restless and unable to sleep all your life. Things that people regret can't be done, because everything in the world is for sale, that is, there is no regret medicine. " Although these words are not famous sayings, they were summed up by the illiterate Deshun old man with his bitter experience in his life. Unfortunately, let him understand that the cost of this lesson is too high.
After listening to the old man Deshun, Gao Jialin seems to realize something. He choked and said, "Master Deshun, I wrote it all down. It's a pity that you told me these things a little late. I made such a hopeless mistake. " "Garin, it's not too late to tell you now. Remember, you can trip over a stone once, but you must never trip over the same stone twice. " The old man Deshun added an important sentence.
"Don't worry, Master Deshun, I won't make these mistakes again, because I already know that there is no regret medicine in the world." Gao Jialin wiped the tears from her face, took out two cigarettes, lit them one by one, handed them to Deshun, and smoked one himself.
The night wind is a little stronger than before. The hay and branches on both sides of Sichuan Road were shaken by the wind, making a rustling and frightening sound. The boxcar travels at a constant speed on the dirt road leading to the county seat. The sound of ringing copper bells and donkey hooves knocking on the road sometimes scares wild birds on both sides of Sichuan Road, and donkeys are sometimes scared by wild birds.
Deshun and Gao Jialin were silent for a long time, but Deshun spoke first: "Jialin, let's stop crying and say something happy." "Master Deshun, you always say that Brother Man Dun is a cheapskate. Why is he stingy? " Gao Jialin has nothing to say to change the subject.
"I said he was stingy, but I didn't wronged him. He can smoke a pack of cigarettes for three months. No one in Gaojia Village has smoked a cigarette except Gao Minglou and Gao Wenjun. He often gives me cigarettes with a book written by a student baby. " Deshun's old man speaks very loudly, as if he were angry.
Gao Jialin smoked a cigarette and said with a smile, "That's why you call him stingy. No big deal. " "How can this shine? Last spring, your father and I helped his family dig a kiln. The soju he gave us was mixed with almost half of cold water, and the meat slices were thinner than vermicelli. Every time I visit my relatives during the Chinese New Year, his wine is 82 1 bottle with 30% cold water, and his snacks are also 82 1 bag, and the snacks given to me are only 72 1 bag. Last summer, his mother-in-law gave me half a basket of eggplant. When she found out, she chased me to my house and asked for half. The excuse is that I can't eat so many eggplants by myself. I'm telling the truth. Do not believe you go home and ask your dad. " The old man Deshun pretends to be serious and lists so many examples of Liang Mantun.
In fact, he said this to make Garin happy. Liang Mantun is usually a little stingy, but not as good as Deshun said.
"ouch! Manton, how could you? Master Deshun, you say Brother Man Dun is so stingy, why is his donkey still willing to lend it to us? " Gao Jialin also knew that Deshun was trying to amuse himself, but he didn't expose Deshun, but continued to follow Deshun's excuse.
Deshun raised his hand and shouted at the cow. He said loudly, "He dare not borrow it. If I hadn't run errands and matchmaking, his father would have been single all his life. " "Master Deshun, I heard that you also told Brother Man's daughter-in-law?" Gao Jialin threw the cigarette butts on the dirt road and asked the old man Deshun with a smile.
The old man Deshun turned to Gao Jialin and said solemnly, "Galin, tell the truth, do you also want me to tell you a daughter-in-law?" The old man Deshun asked very seriously, not joking.
"Master Deshun, I don't want a daughter-in-law. I want to be a bachelor all my life like you. " Gao Jialin spoke in a low voice, as if to himself.
Speaking of being a bachelor, Deshun is deeply touched. He patted Jialin on the back and said angrily, "Nonsense, who will cook for you without a wife?" Who washes your clothes? Who gave birth to your doll? Jia Lin, the life of a bachelor is hard. ""Master Deshun, aren't you also quite good? If a person is full and the whole family is not hungry, there is nothing to worry about every day. "Gao Jialin is quite envious of Deshun's single life, but he just says so, and Gao Jialin doesn't want to be single all his life.
The old man Deshun patted Gao Jialin on the back again and said grumpily, "What ball! It is said that bachelors in the world have no worries, and only those who are full know that those who are hungry are hungry! A bachelor has no sorrow, and there is no sorrow in the world. " Deshun said with a sigh.
When Deshun's old man finished, Gao Jialin was silent for a while and didn't say anything about being a bachelor. He is afraid of evoking Deshun's sad past again. He said to the old man Deshun half jokingly and half seriously, "Uncle Deshun, I am a farmer now, and my family is in a mess. I just want a wife. Who is the woman who can follow me? " "Nonsense again. When Qiao Zhen was with you, you were also a farmer, and your family was worse than this. " Deshun angrily refuted Gao Jialin's verdict.
When Liu Qiaozhen was mentioned, Gao Jialin suddenly felt uncomfortable. He whispered, "Qiaozhen is Qiaozhen. In addition to Qiao Zhen, there are such women. " Deshun thought for a moment, smiled and said to Gao Jialin, "Garin, I pulled an acquaintance to inquire two days ago. The three girls of Zhang Erhuai's family in Zhangdian Village behind our mountain are just 22 years old this year. They are all quite tall and good-looking. Zhang Erhuai said that she wanted to find a good family for her daughter. As long as the younger generation has a good cultural character and looks good, it is easy to say that the bride price is not a bride price. They also said that when a woman goes out, she has to marry a pony in addition to the dowry. " Hearing the name Zhang Erhuai, Gao Jialin felt a little familiar, but he suddenly couldn't remember who it was. He asked, "Uncle Deshun, do you still know Zhang Erhuai? I seem to have heard of this name. "
The old man Deshun quickly smiled and said, "He used to be a breeder in Zhangdian Village, and the old cows in our village were bought by me and the Minglou in their village. At that time, he was a little reluctant to leave, dragging me and Ming Lou hard, and got a meal as a result. When the commune held a basic farmland meeting a few years ago, he and I both had dinner at the battle site and were familiar with each other. " Speaking of the war between the old ox and the basic farmland, the old man Deshun seems to have suddenly returned to the past.
"Have you seen those three women in his family?" Gao Jialin remembers that when he was in junior high school, he had a sister who went to primary school. Her family is from Zhangdian Village behind the mountain, and her father's name seems to be Zhang Erhuai.
Deshun smiled and said, "It was that time that I bought cattle upstairs with his family. Although that woman is not as good-looking as Qiaozhen, she is also handsome. She just graduated from junior high school and doesn't want a bride price. " Besides, that was three or four years ago. It is said that this woman has changed since 18 birthday. That woman may be more handsome than Qiaozhen now. Maybe your son has this good luck. "Deshun old man more say more happy, put all the troubles behind.
"Master Deshun, I only have Qiaozhen in my heart now ..." Although Gao Jialin said so, Huang Yaping's shadow sometimes shakes before his eyes. Liu Qiaozhen really loves Jialin, and his Gao Jialin's love for Liu Qiaozhen is sincere. For Huang Yaping, he can't tell whether he loves or hates now.
After listening to Galin's words, the old man Deshun sighed lightly and said, "I have never put other women in my heart, because I have always had a spiritual turning point. I am still single. At that time, I was too young and indecisive to let the spirit turn to follow me. I failed others' sincerity and true feelings. What I have committed is an unforgivable sin and an irreparable mistake. I suffered a lot, and she was miserable. But my whole life has been tied up. Who can know the pain in my heart? Now that Qiaozhen has married Ma Shuan, you can't have Qiaozhen in your heart. At this time, you still have Qiao Zhen in your heart, which is not only deceiving yourself, but also unfair to others. You can't be bad to yourself, but you can't hurt others. If you are single all your life like me, it will hurt not only you, but also Qiao Zhen and Ma Shuan. How can Qiao Zhen, such a kind and kind woman, have the heart to hurt others again? " The old man Deshun is reviewing his past mistakes, and he is also using his own mistakes to enlighten and educate Gao Jialin.
"Master Deshun, you can rest assured that I have hurt Qiaozhen once and will never hurt her again. I'm serious. " Although it is difficult for Gao Jialin to let Qiao Zhen go, he made this guarantee in front of the old man Deshun.
"Good garin, that's right. People have to go through many things in this life. Some things have to be put down, and when the road comes to an end, you must learn to turn. Don't hit the wall hard. You can't be as stubborn as I used to be, and you don't know how to turn back when you hit the wall. This can't be done. I want to understand now, as long as people think about it, no matter how big the hurdle is, there is no flaming mountain in the world. " As he spoke, Deshun raised his right arm in the air and shouted "Hey, Hey" for two animals.
After listening to these words of the old man Deshun, Gao Jialin was deeply touched. As an illiterate plowman, he knows so much about being a man and speaks it clearly, which is really admirable. The illiterate Deshun old man not only knows these principles of being a man, but also knows how to love. He can interpret life and love so profoundly and thoroughly, which is the accumulation of his life insights and life experiences for most of his life. Although Gao Jialin is an excellent high school graduate and has studied international issues, he has also written articles and newsletters. However, compared with the old man who can't read, Deshun really made him blush in Gao Jialin, humiliated in Gao Jialin and left behind in Gao Jialin.
The night wind blew tightly for a while and then slowed down. The clear night sky is deeper and the night is not as dark as it was just now. You can vaguely distinguish the dirt road extending ahead, and the trees and dirt cliffs near Sichuan Road can also roughly distinguish the outline. The cart moved slowly, and the bronze bell on the donkey's neck made a rhythmic sound.
Gao Jialin pondered for a while and said to the old man Deshun half jokingly and half seriously, "Uncle Deshun, you are not only a good way to farm and drive cattle, but also a teacher to guide future generations."
The old man Deshun smiled and said, "I dare to point it out. What am I afraid of, you little dolls? " "Master Deshun, his brilliant architecture made me the director of this village. I'm a little confused now. Please give me some advice. " Gao Jialin's words sound like a joke, but in fact, Gao Jialin is really confused.
The old man Deshun is really like a bug in Gao Jialin's heart. Knowing Gao Jialin's thoughts, he said to Gao Jialin with a wry smile, "Galin, to tell you the truth, I was very happy in the first few days when you became the village director. With a young man like you, all the men and women in our village will have a good life in the future. " But I thought about it. Your boy has a big heart and will fly away sooner or later. Our village can hardly count on you. "
Gao Jialin gave a wry smile and said, "Master Deshun, this village director is really difficult. It is difficult for us to develop in this poor ditch. It is said that man struggles upwards and water flows downwards. How can you bear to watch me dig on this loess all my life? " Hearing the old man Deshun say that he will fly away sooner or later, Gao Jialin's heart is full of melancholy and loss, and his mood is also very low.
"I don't want to hear you say this. Good village director, everyone is good. It's hard to say that it's difficult to develop in this poor ditch. It's up to you to decide whether it's good or not. You are not a good young man who only wants to go high and doesn't want to benefit everyone. " Deshun old man said, angrily turned and left.
Seeing that Deshun's old man was angry, Gao Jialin quickly accompanied the smiling face and said, "Uncle Deshun, don't be angry, I'm telling the truth." The old man Deshun asked Gao Jialin angrily: "Then tell me that this village cadre is so difficult." "DE shun ye, it's not obvious lice on bald head. Uncle Ming Lou has been the secretary of the brigade for so many years, and he has not worried about everyone. Several people in the village say he is good. When I become the director of this village, I will hang a false name and run errands for Uncle Ming Lou. I have no real power at all, and I have to be scolded by everyone. "
Deshun said angrily: "As village cadres, Minglou and Wen Jun only want to seek benefits for themselves, and no one can scold them." "Master Deshun, who doesn't want to catch a good fish? This time, farm tools were distributed in the village. Didn't Gao Wenjun also let you profit? How cheap the plow and hoe you bought are, it's just like picking them up for nothing. "
After listening to Gao Jialin, the old man Deshun said angrily, "You see, your boy is a smart man, but he turned out to be a fool. Those farm tools are free and no one in our village wants them. Although I spent money on these farm tools, the villagers in our village still use them. I don't need it at ordinary times, so I have to keep it in my kiln. If it's worn out, I'll have to repair it by myself, and I'll make a fortune for nothing. Is this also called taking advantage? Your boy still plays with me as a pole. " Deshun old man say that finish, according to Gao Jialin's back is a slap.
"ouch! Master Deshun, I am such a fool. If you don't tell me, I'll think you got a big bargain. " After being reminded by the old man Deshun, Gao Jialin suddenly realized that Gao Wen Jun was really smart, and he really dared to play with Deshun.
The old man Deshun said with a wry smile, "Jialin, I don't care about taking some losses. I really don't feel at ease if all these farm tools are put in other people's hands. I am willing to be the second pole. " It's just that Ming Lou and Wen Jun are too sophisticated. In private, anyone dares to smash it, even his father. He told me with a straight face that he asked Wen Jun to help me. His in-laws wanted this farm tool, but he didn't agree. "Deshun old man said, gently with a sigh.
Seeing Deshun's old man angry, Gao Jialin didn't say anything about farm tools. He quickly changed the subject and said with a smile, "Uncle Deshun, how do you think I can be a good village director?" "This thing is very simple. If you want to be a good village director, you should first think about benefiting everyone, not just yourself. Second, don't be selfish. You can't take advantage of everyone. That's not enough. I want to take the lead, suffer hardships, and be willing to be a bipolar like me. Worry more about everyone, and everyone will not scold you. " Deshun's old man moved and told Garin about these two things.
"Master Deshun, according to what you say, this village cadre is still living a hard life." In fact, it is unnecessary for the old man Deshun to say that Gao Jialin also understands these truths, but he just has no confidence to be a good village director.
Deshun went on to say, "If you want to be like Ming Lou and Wen Jun, you can't be a good village director. If you don't want to be scolded by everyone, you have to suffer more, worry more and suffer more. " ? "Master Deshun, I am not afraid of suffering, but it is difficult to develop in this poor ditch." Gao Jialin said gloomily.
"How difficult is it for me to cultivate? The population of Gaojia Village is half less than that of Madian, but we have more land in Sichuan than others, so we have an advantage over others in grain alone. Old Niu Shan in the west belongs to Gaojia Village in the east and Tamadian Village in the west. This half of us has been abandoned, and people's faces are full of jujube trees and crops. To the east of the millstone, there is also Little Chef Hill of Hippo, which belongs to our village and has been abandoned. It's a pity. " When it comes to abandoned old Niu Shan and Langzi Mountain, Deshun's old man is distressed.
Gao Jialin quickly took the old man Deshun's words and said, "Uncle Deshun, I told Uncle Minglou about these two barren hills before I divided the land. He said that there are many barren hills and wasteland in Gaojia village, and people near the village are unwilling to plant them. No one wants to plant such a distant barren hill and wasteland. " "Garin, reading and literacy alone is not enough, but also use your head more. There is not much food on that barren hillside. Who wants to go for nothing? A few years ago, I planted several jujube trees on the hillside of Zizi Mountain, which grew really well. This year, two jujube trees have borne fruit, which are as big as the eyeball of a cow, crisp and sweet. " When it comes to his jujube tree, the old man Deshun is unhappy.
After listening to Deshun's old man talking about planting jujube trees, Gao Jialin suddenly realized, patted his forehead and quickly said, "Oh dear! I am a real elm pimple. It's been in the newspaper for a long time, and some places plant fruit trees in barren hills. I can't think of the obvious things in front of me. Master Deshun, you can really do it. If Uncle Ming's brigade secretary were you, Gaojiacun would have lived a good life long ago. " I didn't expect Deshun's old man to have such a vision. Gao Jialin had a deeper understanding of the old man Deshun and respected him more from the heart.
"This matter I would have told MingJian, but he didn't listen to my proposal, saying it was difficult. I showed him the red dates picked on the mountain, but he still wouldn't listen to me. Ming Lou is a stubborn plank, and no one listens. This time, animals were divided in our village, but I wouldn't let him play tricks on everyone, but he still wouldn't listen. Everyone has a big opinion this time. Jia Lin, listen to my dad. When you are a village cadre, you should do more good things for everyone, but you can't let everyone scold us. " Deshun said that Gaominglou had gone to Gao Jialin.
"DE shun ye, I listen to you. But I ... "Gao Jialin trembling. Deshun pointed his finger at Gao Jialin's nose and said grumpily, "Your boy is going to fly away. I knew people in our village couldn't count on you. " Deshun said, turning his face to one side angrily.
"Deshun Ye, I ..." Gao Jialin really didn't know how to answer Deshun's old man. He looked up at the sky. The midnight sky is deeper and higher, and the twinkling stars are more brilliant, but Gao Jialin's heart is full of melancholy, just like the endless night sky, with longing and gloom. He wants his future to be as bright as the stars in the sky, but the vast night sky is more like his life track, and he has not found the direction yet. In the vast darkness, the donkey's hooves beat on the dirt road rhythmically, making a "rushing" sound. There is a slope ahead, and the speed of the cart gradually slows down. Gao Jialin jumped down from the car and helped the donkey pull the cart. Soon, the shelf car turned a hill, and the road ahead was flat and wide. Not far away, the outline of the county seat is discernible.
The end of the fifth chapter-