216-5-22 Xu Ling Children's Literature

I would like to give you all my

This is not a promise

but a waiting for love

Chapter IV Let me love you well

I didn't give in this time.

I told my parents and grandpa loudly that Yuchen made a very hateful phone call, which made me not go to a welfare home, and even more worried me.

I told them loudly that many of my good things were robbed by Yuchen, such as some accessories I like, such as clothes. But I tried my best not to shake out the down jacket.

I told them loudly that I was depressed and helpless in this family, and I was not relaxed and had no fun, and even the minimum dignity was not obtained.

They stopped moving their hands, rolling their eyes, and even stopped breathing.

the whole world stands still in front of me. I heard my heart beating rapidly, and I heard my throat making a whirring sound. It's really not my style to talk to my elders with such an attitude and tone. I saw myself taking off those coats called self-cultivation and stepping on them all. And then rushed into the bedroom without looking back.

Close the door, and tears will fall.

I don't want this, I don't want this.

I should feel relaxed when I say it from my heart, but I can't feel relaxed at this moment, and regret is like the tide flooding my mind. Su Yexing, why can't you bear it? You've been holding back for months. Why can't you hold back this time?

So he leaned over his desk with his head in his arms, complaining about his impulsiveness and lack of manners.

nothing happened at the door. Strange, isn't mom coming in to comfort me? Even a few words of scolding will do. And grandpa, I knew I was busy cooking for Yuchen Taomi.

no one cares about me.

In this way, the tide of regret gradually recedes and is replaced by a huge wave of disappointment. There can only be one princess in a castle. With Yuchen, I am nothing. Let them dote on her, dote on her and accompany and tolerate her forever. I am doomed to be ignored.

Wipe your tears and take out the birthday card from your father. My pianist dad, I'm sorry I didn't protect the gift you sent me. My teddy bear and down jacket were robbed by Yuchen. I'm an idiot, aren't I? Are you laughing at me? Or will it hurt? I will also miss the home of the three of us when I was a child. It seems like a distant thing when I think of it, but I feel as if I saw you yesterday. Will you miss our home?

don't say anything. Grandpa said he wouldn't forgive you. Me too? No.

I carefully hid the greeting card, rubbed my eyes and turned winter vacation homework out to do it, but I heard a panic outside the door. Something seems to have happened.

whatever.

Find a well-hidden MP4, put on headphones, play an old Xu Liang song, and change your relaxed posture to allow yourself to enjoy it. This is the only treasure that has not been discovered by Yuchen so far. It was a birthday gift from my father last year.

I won't sneak around this time. If Yuchen breaks in and grabs my MP4, then I will bravely reason with her. I will tell her that mine is not yours, please don't take it, and yours is not mine. I have no interest in coveting it.

I feel I have never been so brave.

songs are really a good medicine for healing. The melody devours the injured cells a little, and the mood gradually stabilizes.

I don't know how long it took, but the door was pushed open.

Grandpa appeared in front of me with a bowl of steaming millet porridge and smiled reluctantly.

I pretended not to see it and continued to enjoy the music.

He put the porridge bowl in the corner of the desk, with tempting mushroom sauce sprinkled on the porridge, and a smooth little spoon stuck in the bowl like a funny ear.

as soon as I took off my headphones, an old, slightly hoarse voice came: "Star, grandpa knows your pain."

a word made my eyes hot again.

unable to hold back, he turned and hugged his waist and buried his face in his thin but strong chest.

"My old boys, since she understands me, should take good care of me, and don't transfer all her love for me to Yuchen. I will be sad. " I murmured.

"Without the transfer, there is not even a little point. Grandpa conjured up another love, specially for Yu Chen. Your share has not decreased. " He patted me on the back and told me very hard.

"Where did Grandpa get so much love?"

"Grandpa is a superman."

"how come?"

"Anyone who becomes a grandfather will become a superman. Especially being the grandfather of two princesses, that super power is even more remarkable! "

He laughed and coughed.

I picked up the porridge bowl and drank it. Suddenly I realized that there was no movement outside the room.

"There's rice in the pot and soup on the stove. You can have some rice and soup later." He stood by and watched me drink porridge.

"I'm not as delicate as Chenchen." I shook my head. "Your white rice and soup are for her. I have enough millet porridge."

"Your sister is very delicate." Grandpa sighed, "it's not, your parents took her to the hospital. I don't know what the situation is like. How can this child be so troubled? "

"what?" I paused.

grandpa looked down for a cigarette.

I hurried to the living room, and no one was there.

"what's the matter?"

when I turned around, I ran into my grandfather coming with his back bent, his brow tangled.

"I didn't want to tell you? It's good to let you know now. "

He took my arm and took me to the sofa.

it seems something serious.

"What's the matter?" I feel uneasy. Growing up, I was most afraid of my grandfather's worried expression. What can make the old urchin frown must be no small matter.

I remember one summer vacation many years ago, in the hot hometown of Xi 'an, my grandfather looked at me with such an expression and frowned. Then he told me word by word that your father was going to move out and live with your mother in the future.

at that time, I glared at him desperately and asked him to swallow back what he had said. He held me in his arms and said something comforting. I looked up in tears and saw tears for you in the corner of his eye.

at the moment, he frowned at me again, with a serious face.

"Star, you are a sound child, but not all children in this world are sound. In welfare homes, there are many children abandoned because of various disabilities or diseases. For anyone, a healthy body is a prerequisite for happiness? " He carefully selected the words and expressed them in a low tone.

I seem to be vaguely aware of something, and my heart beats faster: "Yes? Is it Chen Chen? "

Grandpa unhurriedly opened a cigarette case, pulled out one, put it in his mouth, took it off again, coughed twice, and looked at me with a sigh: "Your sister Chenchen is not a healthy child. As you already know, on the day she was born, her mother left in childbirth. In fact, her mother was sick when she was pregnant, and she paid the price of her life in order to give birth to her. Chen Chen was not spared and brought something wrong from the womb. "

"what's wrong?" I'm a little ignorant.

"congenital heart disease." He said painfully.

I feel incredible: "Impossible. Although Yu Chen is rude and selfish, he looks in good health. How can he suffer from such a serious disease? "

"Do you think, is she particularly thin and weak?" Paused, grandpa said.

"this? That's true. " I panicked.

"this disease is very tormenting. When she was very young, the doctor said that her condition was special and she was not suitable for surgery. When she was older, the doctor said that she missed the best operation period? "

"how did that happen? That, that? Can't she get well? " I screamed and bounced from the sofa, as if I saw a flower suddenly dying. "No, grandpa, who told you these words?" I don't believe it! "

"Your mother told me herself before your two families got together. Your mother loves your new father and Chenchen. She hopes that I can understand and support her decision and that I can love Chenchen as much as I love you. " Speaking of which, tears flowed in grandpa's eyes. "Star, your new father is a good father. It's really not easy to take care of Chenchen, open a bookstore to earn money, and keep the house in order." You should cherish it. "

I sat down and felt my brain was deprived of oxygen.

No wonder my father is obedient to Yuchen. No wonder my mother wants me to be patient and tolerant?

So just now, it was my volcanic eruption that frightened Yuchen and caused her to have a heart attack?

I regret my guts out.

I wrapped my coat and drove myself into the cold street. I'm going to the hospital to find her.

the wind is cold, wet and cold. The snow is frozen and slippery.

yuchen, my sister, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't know you had been dragging your sick body around, let alone that you were so sick. In fact, I have been observing you with critical eyes all these days, and I am full of your shortcomings and never care about your advantages. Mom told me to love you, love you and put up with you. I did it most of the time, but I didn't want to do it. Is my sister very bad and incompetent?

yuchen, you must not have anything, or I will never be happy again. Maybe God is a cheapskate and is only willing to give you a very limited life. But please believe that in the future, I will definitely love you and never hurt you again. Even if you are not my sister, but a strange girl, I can't bear to hurt your heart even a little.

I'm running on the slippery ground, and I may fall at any moment, but I'm not afraid. Yuchen, please don't be afraid, I'm coming to see you! I take back those damn words. Don't you just want rice instead of porridge? Why should I be furious with you about such a small matter? Didn't you just give me a joke call? Why should I be upset about such a small matter?

where have my manners gone?

My heart beat more uncontrollably when I ran into the hospital and appeared at the door of the ward.

leaning against the door frame is ashamed to go in.

At this moment, any apology is pale and unnecessary. If anything happens to Yu Chen, my crimes are countless.

I grabbed the door frame probe and looked in. I saw her little body covered with a snow-white quilt, revealing a head. The ward was unusually quiet, and I could hear her voice complaining and scolding me in her heart.

Mom and Dad are silently guarding each other, and their eyes are full of hope.

I can't break in without authorization. Touch the ups and downs of the chest, command yourself to calm down slowly.

this night is doomed to be difficult.

Curled up in bed, staring at the empty little bed beside me, my heart felt like something had bitten it off, painful and uneasy.

yuchen, what should I tell you when you come back? I'm sure you won't forgive me, and I'll get you excited again. That's the last thing I want to see.

if you can't say it, write it.

get up and sit at the desk, find out a pack of colored stationery, draw the most beautiful pink from it, and write a letter to Yuchen.

Chenchen: I didn't mean to make you angry. When people are impulsive, your sister is not a sage.

inappropriate. Isn't this an excuse for yourself?

rewrite.

Chenchen: Forgive me for making you angry. I'm 1, sorry. You can handle it when you come back.

inappropriate. Too superficial.

rewrite.

Chenchen, my sister: It is meaningful that God arranged for me to be your sister. Look, my name is Xing, and your name is Chen. Together are the stars, and inseparable stars shine together. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to be a sister. Being a sister for the first time in my life is inevitable. Forgive my impulsiveness and narrowness. Mom said, what is mine is yours, yes, what is mine is yours. Let me love you well and I will give you everything I have. Hug you.

after writing, fold the stationery into a beautiful piano and put it on my sister's empty pillow.

Then I hid under the covers and imagined my sister's high-spirited expression when she saw this letter. It must be very cute.