1. The most precious thing for people is life. Life belongs to people only once. A person's life should be spent like this: when he looks back on the past, he will not regret for being inactive and wasting his years, nor will he feel guilty for being despicable and living a mediocre life. In this way, when he is dying, he can say: 'I have dedicated my entire life and all my energy to the most magnificent cause in the world - the struggle for the liberation of mankind. 2. Steel is made by burning in fire and being highly cooled, so it is very strong. Our generation has also been tempered by struggle and hard trials, and has learned never to lose heart in life. 3. Any fool can kill himself at any time! This is the weakest and easiest way out. 4. Put the gun away and don’t tell anyone. Even if life is unbearable, you have to persevere. Only then can such a life become valuable. 5. The death of the leader did not cause the party's ranks to disintegrate. Just like a big tree, its roots are deeply rooted into the soil. Even if the top of the tree is cut off, it will never wither.

6. He has lost the most precious thing - the ability to fight. What is the use of living? Today, in the bleak tomorrow, what will he use to prove that his life is valuable? What can you do to enrich your life? Just eat, drink, and breathe? Are you a powerless bystander, watching your comrades rush forward to kill?

Meditate on life with the imagination of death

He wanders between mourning and longing

Using a monologue to promise a life without regrets

That was the once famous name of a Russian youth

That was the once immortal world famous book of a simple era

The forgotten motto

Copied in On the title page of the abandoned plastic diary

The idols of the past

are drowned in today’s dazzling celebrity rankings

And the spring of 1974

Paul Korchagin is almost your only reading

Those warm truant afternoons

In the low woods outside the broken wall

You are addicted to the initial adoration

Also afraid of the initial infatuation

Over and over again

You miss me persistently and secretly

Missing Tonya

Missing the beautiful girl singing under the hawthorn tree

In a moment

The lingering dew was swallowed up in the torrent of revolution

Heartbroken Tonya

Looking at Paul's sad face

Last night's love and tomorrow's struggle

The confrontation in this farewell Dawn

And between beauty and holiness

A hero can only have one kind of betrayal

Hardly

You trek in the traditional Chinese In the jungle

The perfect compromise between fantasy revolution and love

Looking forward to the sacredness and beauty shaking hands and having fun

And the ending finally comes

In a Station in winter

You witnessed their last meeting

The final farewell

Paul in the snow

Holding hands The Bolshevik with the Iron Pickaxe

Called his first lover as "citizen"

The Speechless Tonya

The Sad Tonya

< p>Suffering ruthless class contempt in tears

Paul stepped firmly into the wind and snow

Stepping into the flames of winter

This is the Soviet revolution Fire

A test that a hero must pass

And now you finally understand

This is how steel is made

Low In the woods

You are holding the yellowed pages of the book

The young man's eyes are staring at the sky

The sun reflects the rainbow in the tears

Reciting Paul's famous lines

The power of will makes you tremble

And Tonya, when you silently read her name again

There is a feeling that is almost Suffocating you

At that time

You were going through a passionate and fragile age

You can only replace imitation with awe

Replace it with tears Blood

1974

The years of panic and loss

A bourgeois girl

Become your only concern

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In the early summer more than 20 years ago, I fell in love with Tonya

That year, the "Cultural Revolution" had already achieved a decisive victory, but the revolution was not over yet and was moving forward in depth. develop.

Before I fell in love with Tonya, I had known her for nearly ten years. "How Steel Was Tempered" was the first novel I read when I was in high school. In the winter of 1965, the weather in Chongqing was extremely desolate and dreary. The winter rain that cannot be avoided every year fell silently at first, and then turned into an uneasy and spooky rain without realizing it. Cold rain.

Mandatory nap. I hid under the quilt and read Paul's comic strips. My mother quietly came over for inspection and confiscated the little book, but she said: There are novels and comic books at home! From then on, I bid farewell to comic books and started reading novels, which were in traditional Chinese characters.

Ostrovsky described the revolution in a fascinating way, and I was fascinated by it.

In retrospect, the reason why it is so attractive is that

He describes the revolutionary journey accompanied by love experiences: Paul had three girlfriends, and the last one became him

's wife; at that time, he was almost paralyzed. Daya, who is beautiful and coupled with revolutionary consciousness, is willing to devote herself to him - to be precise, to the revolutionary cause represented by Paul. Revolution and love are both stimulating themes, such as the current stories about the encounters between policemen and beautiful women, which make young people feel dazed and inexplicably excited. But I didn’t know the relationship between revolution and cancer at the time. Is revolution for eros, or eros for revolution? Revolution is a social sexual behavior, and eros is an individual sexual behavior; revolution is not a treat for dinner

Painting and embroidery cannot be so elegant or gentle, respectful and thrifty, revolution is..., and eros is an occasional individual fragility

The natural power of love is "a feeling that warms, shimmers and turns into pure radiance"...

Like most revolutionary novels, the thread of erotic love is revealed in "How Steel Was Tempered"

The experience of the revolutionary was affected in the story, but the relationship between revolution and love is quite ambiguous. There was no joy in the unexpected encounter between the two, but instead a feeling of embarrassment

Sadness and joy. In "counter" revolutionary novels, the relationship between revolution and eros is often much clearer in gloomy social upheavals.

Pasternak wrote that Lana's husband discovered on their wedding night that Lana was not a virgin and had been "possessed by the bourgeoisie",

so he defected to the "bourgeoisie" "The revolution; the love between Zhivago and Lana is described as a weak candlelight in the chandelier that was shaken violently by the revolution. It is like the desolate twilight in the summer wilderness, and the red bloom. The dawn-like revolution is not on the same horizon.

What is the position of Eros in "How Steel Was Tempered"? How does it relate to that revolution? From the beginning

I subconsciously cared about Tonya's position in the revolution. I always wonder why the author arranged for Paul and Tonya to reunite unexpectedly in the ice and snow? During the reunion, Paul used the "rudeness" of revolutionary consciousness to humiliate his first love, saying that she had become "sour", and pretended not to know that the man standing next to Tonya was her husband.

When I describe my first love in this way, I don’t know whether I am complaining about the castration of my first love by the revolution, or retaliating for the infection I got from my first love

The bourgeois blue sailor uniform and fat-leg pants alien class sentiment. On the eve of his escape, Paul hugged Tonya for the first time for several hours. He felt how docile Tonya's soft body was, and the hot kiss was like a sweet electric current that made him tremble.

Happiness; his hand also "accidentally touched the breast of his lover"... If the revolution did not happen, or the revolution happened in the lover

Close to the land of tenderness When the story ended abruptly, Paul married the daughter of the bourgeoisie, and that would be another story.

They vowed not to forget each other. Paul had no revolutionary consciousness at that time and called the revolution a "riot."

Love words in passionate love become the remaining leaves in the hurricane. Is this caused by revolutionary consciousness?

Before I finished reading this novel for the first time, the "Cultural Revolution" broke out on the streets and in schools. I don't understand the meaning of this revolution

I only heard that it is to revolutionize the fate of the "bourgeoisie"; all bourgeoisie are "sour", and Tonya is a capitalist

Bourgeois person, so Tonya is "sour". However, why does the caress of bourgeois Tonya arouse the "rapid heartbeat" of Paul, a worker's child? How can Paul dare to say "how much I love you"?

I don’t have time to think too much. With a dislike for Tonya's "sourness" and Paul's autobiography in mind, he joined the team of red soldiers of the "Cultural Revolution

and went to distribute leaflets.

Actually, I secretly liked Tonya from the beginning. She has a cheerful personality, a good-natured temperament, loves to read novels, and has a heavenly temperament

; she has thick black braids and is slim and petite. Her figure is very beautiful in a sailor-style dress. It is the first concrete image of a light and transparent beauty in my mind.

But Paul said that she is not "one of our own" and we should be wary of developing feelings for her... I care about Tonya's position in the revolution, actually because, if she does not belong to the revolution I just can't (dare not) like her.

The "Cultural Revolution" has entered the stage of armed struggle. The "rebels" have occupied the West and South Districts and are advancing towards the Central District;

The "Propagandaists" have occupied most of the Central District, leaving only a six-story power grid building near my home that is occupied by the "rebels" control, the "conservatives" have been besieging it for a week. The "villains" in the Southern District lined up dozens of anti-aircraft guns

on the beach on the south bank of the Yangtze River, and shelled the area day and night.

I couldn’t go out on the street. Amidst the sound of gunfire, I finished reading "How Steel Was Tempered".

On that night, bursts of automatic rifle fire echoed in my ears all night long, and the explosion of grenades came from time to time into our formation

In the midst of intense fear; the general attack on the Communications Building The battle was fiercely fought five hundred meters away from my house. In the early morning, smoke billowed out of the building. The "protective faction" failed to attack all night long, so they simply set fire to it and tightened the siege on three sides. The stubborn "villains" finally abandoned the building and fled.

The alley in front of my house has been blocked, and three or four female high school students as big as Tonya are guarding it. It was July

and the weather was sultry. The tight armed belts made their youthful breasts appear more plump, reminiscent of Paul's "unintentional" touch

. Under the grass-green helmet, there is a fair, delicate face with big and bright eyes. Chongqing girls are very beautiful...the Type 56 submachine guns in their hands make me envious, because Paul likes to play with Brownings.

Their mission is to intercept the fleeing "villain" team members. The other party is not in uniform, so how do you know whether the young man carrying a gun and walking in a hurry is a "villain" or one of our own? The only identification is the memory of classmates. The young man who was carrying the shell gun was pulled back, the shell gun was removed, and the submachine gun butts in the girls' hands were hit in turn by waving their fair and tender arms.

His head was hit. On his face, chest... He is not one of our own, but a classmate.

I saw pure blood for the first time.

While trembling, I suddenly thought of Tonya; why did she want to save Paul? Does she understand revolution? Did she save Paul for the sake of the revolution? Paul clearly said that Tonya was not one of his own.

Revolution and Eros have one ambiguous thing in common: devotion. Consecration is a transfer of position in an individual's body. "This" body self is thrown into the desired time and space position by itself, and is resettled in its own bumpy time

self. Of course, revolution and eros are committed to different places in time and space; but both revolution and eros require ridicule of cowardly devotion, which often makes it difficult for people to distinguish the difference between the two.

There is no sacrifice for no reason, there is always a reason for devotion, and this reason can be called the temperament of "this" physical self

Temperament. The difference between revolutionary and erotic devotion lies in temperament. Paul dedicated himself to revolution, and Tonya dedicated herself to love. The body position

was invested in different directions. There was originally a tragic tension brewing, but it was easily ended by Paul's escape. Paul entered the ranks of the revolution and left behind a series of glorious achievements; Tonya was thrown into a place that was not even a corner of history after being frivolous by the revolutionary consciousness.

Paul did not intend to devote himself to the revolution from the beginning. Dedicating himself to the revolution requires many trials. Aurobindo liked to use the tempering of lust to prove Paul's loyalty to the revolution, but once, he used the tempering of lust to prove Paul's loyalty to devoted love

. In the cell, Paul is faced with the devotion of a girl who will be ravaged. Both sympathy and lust provide reasons for Paul to accept the devotion of "this" girl, and the power of lust is obviously greater, because Paul feels that he needs self-control

< p>Power, sympathy obviously does not require such self-control. In fact, the passion aroused by Khriskina's "hot and plump" lips wiped away "all the pain before his eyes" in the cell, and the girl's body And "cheeks soaked with tears" made Paul feel uncontrollably, "it was really difficult to escape".

It was Tonya, and it was her "beautiful, lovely eyes" that enabled Paul to find the strength to control himself, not only suppressing

lust, but also suppressing sympathy. There is no constraint of any sexual moral principles at all, just because he has "this" Tonya in his heart. Paul's "this" physical self's love only tends to another "this" physical self, and she is irreplaceable.

Revolutionary consciousness changed Paul's erotic power. The words of love before parting with Tonya were transformed by the revolutionary consciousness into something trembling and worthy of ridicule. The awakening of revolutionary consciousness means that the passion of "my" physical self must be subordinated to the revolution. From this, we can understand why the original nature of the physical self is so abundant in the revolution.

The "Ninth Five-Year Order" was issued, and all armed revolutionary groups surrendered various firearms under the instructions of their leaders. The streets are very lively

The "Protection faction" fighting team is holding a grand gun-handling ceremony. The ceremony was actually a show off of various weapons; a Jiefang brand truck towing four anti-aircraft guns and carrying a heavily armed combat team slowly circled the city.

I was attracted by a truck of combatants: twenty girls as big as Tonya were sitting on the truck, each with their arms in their arms

A light machine gun, wearing a Wearing a grass-green steel helmet, there was also a female high school student lying on the car, holding a heavy machine gun mounted on the front of the car, eyebrows furrowed - particularly beautiful sword eyebrows, staring ahead. The girl's full body and the terrifying power of the gun in her hand really complement each other.

In the evening, the middle school held a funeral for the martyrs who died. The first ceremony is to display the remains of the martyrs. The purpose is not to show the greatness of the martyrs, but to show the cruelty of the counter-revolutionary consciousness of the "villains". The weather is still sultry, and there are many exposed parts of the corpse.

Most of the corpses have turned dark gray, with gray-black liquid leaking from some parts and filled with a suffocating rotten smell; protect the dead

< p>’s comrades covered their perfumed masks and used dry branches in their hands to ward off flies from time to time.

The body of a young man. He only had a pair of underpants on, and a steel drill as thick as a thumb was inserted into his temple.

His eyes were wide open, as if he was asking something, and his eyeballs were rolled up, leaving a lot of white.

Lying on the lawn was the body of a female high school student. Her upper body was covered with a straw mat. Her exposed waist showed that her upper body was naked; there was a strip of grass on her lower body. Green military shorts. It seemed that she had just been "sacrificed" not long ago, and her body was still human-like. Her head tilted to one side, her left cheek was soaked in the grass, her pale lips pressed against the hot and humid Chinese land. Originally, her beautiful lips should be waiting to be accepted. Mixed with a shy first love kiss; without a steel helmet, the flowing hair and the weaving of grass and leaves covered with dusk dewdrops

are a bit of the "poetry" described in revolutionary novels. Her brows were furrowed, that was the expression of enduring the pain as if she had fallen down before she stopped breathing after taking the bullet... One (how many?) bullets shot through her neck? Shoot through the chest? Shot through the heart?

I felt like I had lost some kind of life-support, the feeling that connected "this" physical self to the "other" physical self

Together. I thought of the brows of the female high school student lying on the front of the car clutching the heavy machine gun, and suddenly I thought of Tonya. If

she also dedicated herself to the revolution and got on that train with Paul...

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Captain Zhao of the martial arts group delivered an emotional speech to the crowd of spectators. "Fight to the end for... (of course not for these young corpses

)!" Then he pulled out a revolver from the three pistols on his waist and pointed it at the sky

In the air, his comrades raised their guns. The funeral ended with the heart-stopping sound of gunfire.

Revolutionary devotion is different from eros devotion. The former requires individuals to obey the overall purpose of the revolution so that the revolution can be realized.

Eros devotion only lingers and consolidates the individual. position.

: The devotion of "this one" falling in love with "the other" is the purpose of the individual's love itself. It is tied to the limited existence of the individual; revolution is not the purpose of devotion to revolution. itself, it must serve a secondary purpose. In Aurobindo's heart-wrenching words: "My whole life and all my energy

are dedicated to The most magnificent cause in the world - the struggle to liberate all mankind. "Struggle is revolution, and "liberating all mankind" is the second (ultimate) answer to this kind of revolution. To this end, the individual must bid farewell to his own finite existence and devote himself to the infinite eternity of all mankind through a revolution of devotion. In the infinite eternity, there is the ultimate reason for existence of the occasional individual. If we abandon the infinite all human beings, the individual body with limited occasional existence is said to have lost the reason for living. The relationship between infinite existence and finite existence has always been tense. Kierkegaard chanted: "Abandoning infinity is what an ancient legend says." The shirt mentioned. The silk thread was woven with tears, bleached with tears, and the shirt was sewn with tears. "The "anti-" revolutionary novel "Zhivago". "Doctor" expresses exactly this "renunciation of infinity", so it is full of tears trembling with fear for the infinite revolution.

Before the advent of Christ, various religions in the world were already dotted around the world, and they are still evolving today; no matter which kind

religion, rational or irrational, silent or Crazy, the purpose is nothing more than to move the individual's finite body

to the infinite, although the implications of this infinite vary widely. There are gods, there is Daquan, there is Brahma, there is heaven, there is pure land, and there are people. However, the infinite persistence of revolution makes the lingering individual love lose its reason for freedom; abandoning revolution means that the individual's occasional "I" is no longer there.

In many revolutions, the rotten odor of "this one" young body is not enough to scare people. Showing the many "this one" youthful corpse, But for revolutionary educational purposes: this is the price that individuals must pay to identify with "the people"

. When Paul and Tonya broke up, he said that "there are many excellent girls" who "carried out cruel struggles together" with them and "endured all the hardships." He wants Tonya to join the brutal struggle and know when to pull out the pistol like his political counselor Leda.

After the fighting, under military control, the middle school students continued to revolutionize the individual soul and body, and made great achievements in the vast world

. At that time, I had passed the fighting age of middle school, and the vast world fascinated me. The small steamboat that jumps in the queue for going to the countryside sails down the Yangtze River towards Badong. On the boat, I did not enjoy the scenery, but read "How Steel Was Tempered

" again. I found that my reading speed has improved greatly, and my ability to read traditional Chinese characters has also improved