The complexity of the day made me lose my nature and put on a coat called "Strong". I wear it, laughing at what leaders laugh at and worrying about what leaders worry about. No matter how tired I wear it, I can't take it off. After taking it off, my thin body can't stand any wind and rain. I'm afraid it will catch cold, and I'm afraid the sun outside won't shine on it.
But it's relaxing at night. I can do what I want. I can cry in front of the computer, and it doesn't matter if I cry until the sky is faint or the earth shakes. And after crying, I will find that my heart is full.
full of feelings.
I think of my parents, my lover and my friends. So I picked up the phone, turned over the number and put it down again. It's so late, who should I call?
I don't know if those future and contact friends who are busy with work are still there, and I don't know if those friendships are really untrue under the baptism of years.
ok, I'll take a gamble.
"Hey, what's the matter, why don't you sleep so late?" There was a sleepy and concerned voice on the other end of the phone.
"I want to cry." Actually, I hate to say this. But after hearing the voice of concern, I lost control.
"cry if you want, I'm listening."
is this a friend? Give you what you want. Feel.
"Aren't you going to ask me why I want to cry?"
"Do you need to ask? I don't know you yet, but your disguise is too good. You lack love in your heart than anyone else, and you are so strong in disguise. Even pretending to forget who I am. When I want to cry, I think of me. "
"Are you angry? I know it's my fault ... "
" All right, don't repent, it's getting worse. But I'm quite happy. I'm the first to think of me when I'm sad. It means that I still have weight in your heart. Not bad, hahahaha "
I smiled through tears:" How did you know that I was the first to call you? "
"Well, just as you know I will answer your phone, I know you quite well."
is this a friend? Being familiar with your personality makes you.
"Well, now I'm crying and making trouble. Tell me about your troubles."
is this a friend? Always release your stress.
Before hanging up, she said: If you have anything inconvenient to tell your family or boyfriend, come to me. We are all women who are easy to talk to. I laughed aloud. But she said: Don't laugh, cry, crying is better than laughing, crying is all pressure, laughing is all burden. I like the way you cry.
like the way I cry.
but what do I look like when I cry? I think it should be as mysterious and indifferent as this night.
I thank the night for giving me a space to examine myself, and for letting me see the true feelings of the world.