The women in Zhang Ailing's family are very unusual: grandmother is the eldest daughter of Li Hongzhang, and both mother and aunt are free and independent new women, which also doomed Zhang Ailing's life and caused some waves. However, at that time, Zhang Ailing could not imagine how fiercely her words would be loved or hated many years later. She will meet two unforgettable men, and how bumpy her life will be.
Her temperament has a sense of indifference, which is true for affection, love and friendship. But in fact, she is hot inside, but it is not easy to show it.
Just like when she met Hu Lancheng at the beginning of the year, even though her heart was "as low as dust", the surface was still a light cloud. Her cautious personality may be inextricably linked with the warmth that her family rarely gives her.
Zhang Ailing grew up in a family that was extremely lacking in love. Because of my father's infidelity in marriage, my mother left home to study in Europe very peeily, while my father was unhappy all day and smoked in the smell of opium smoke.
Her mother is a woman with new ideas. After returning from studying in Europe, she agreed to divorce her husband. My mother, who studied at school, knew the importance of education, so after she graduated from Zhang Ailing's middle school, she considered sending Zhang Ailing to London for university, but she was not well off, so Zhang Ailing had to ask her father for money.
Of course, my father disagreed. The man was obsessed with Zhang ailing's mother, but he couldn't pull his face down and felt inferior to his situation. When Zhang Ailing proposed to study abroad, he let out a sneer from under his nose and threatened to let Zhang Ailing get rid of this idea as soon as possible, instead of taking the old road that her mother and aunt had taken.
At that time, Zhang Ailing was so worried that she only thought about how to convince her father, so she didn't think much and immediately refuted his words. She thinks that modern women like her mother and aunt have their own ideals and live their own lives, which is exactly what she wants to be. Her words touched a raw nerve of her father and challenged his self-esteem. A few days later, because of the contradiction with my stepmother, everything came together these days, and my father finally broke out.
She was shut up by her father in a small sealed house, where there was no darkness and no light. This life lasted for three months. From the tenacious hunger strike at the beginning, she gradually became depressed, and by the third month, she was on the verge of collapse. To make matters worse, she got dysentery, vomiting and diarrhea, and was in a trance. Finally, she had to tie the distress letter to a chopstick and throw it out of the room, hoping that it would be picked up by good people.
The note was picked up by Zhang Jia, and the employer showed it to Zhang Ailing's father. His father finally relented and gave a shot of anti-inflammatory drugs to sleepy Zhang Ailing. That night, Zhang Ailing, who recovered a little, escaped from the grave where she grew up.
Zhang Ailing has her own obsession with writing.
Since childhood, she has learned to write old-style poems with her father. In primary school, she wrote her first novel, which was about a family tragedy. Later, she wrote many novels one after another and circulated them among her classmates. Later, he became famous for his works such as The First Incense Burner, Half-Life, Blockade, Eighteen Villages and little reunion. She has always loved writing and made a living from it.
Later, because of the war, Zhang Ailing's illusion of studying abroad was shattered, and she decided to study at the University of Hong Kong. She won the first prize in the school, and after getting the scholarship, she can be sent to Oxford.
Later, when Hong Kong fell, Zhang Ailing was forced to suspend classes. Her three-and-a-half years of hard work went up in flames. In order to get the diploma, Zhang Ailing had to decide to take the placement exam. Then the problem came again, and the tuition fee has not yet been settled. She could only lick her face and plead with her father. Under the persuasion of her brother, her father finally agreed.
Zhang Ailing's road to study is full of endless twists and turns and regrets, but her desire for knowledge has overcome many obstacles again and again.
The first acquaintance between Zhang Ailing and Hu Lancheng was deeply attracted by her article "Blockade" published in Heaven and Earth magazine, so she wrote to Su Qing and asked who Zhang Ailing was. As a result, the "doomed love" drawn by this letter stretches for hundreds of miles.
As Hu Lancheng's visit was turned away, Zhang Ailing heard that there was such a person who appreciated his writing, so she wore a mink coat with great interest and went to Hu Lancheng's house.
We chatted happily the first time we met, and Hu Lancheng was full of praise for Zhang Ailing's works. For the first time, Zhang Ailing was surprised to hear that someone praised her work so much, which also made her notice the man who was talking and laughing.
After seeing Hu Lancheng again, he took the initiative to go to Zhang Ailing's residence. Hu Lancheng is naturally engaged, but Zhang Ailing is always dizzy. Perhaps because of her childhood experience, she didn't dare to give her heart to someone easily, let alone just know each other for a long time. But later, she found out that she was wrong. In her mind, others can't get into the door, but Hu Lancheng just poked his head in.
Hu Lancheng knew her, so in a letter to Aileen later, he said, "Because he knew, he was merciful."
They are finally together. Even if menstruation told her that Hu Lancheng was a family man, even if they had only known each other for a short time, even if they could not see the future. It was the best time in Zhang Ailing's life. On the left is her best friend Yan Ying, and on the right is her beloved Hu Lancheng. She enjoys the happiness of every day, has no time to think about the future, and doesn't want to disturb her interest.
On the wedding invitation, Hu Lancheng wrote: "May the years be quiet and the world be peaceful." But in the end, he failed Aileen after all. With the further intensification of the war, Hu Lancheng fled to Nanjing alone, where he fell in love with the nurse Zhou Xiao, just as he later fell in love with the widow Fan Xiumei. He broke his original promise again and again and broke Zhang Ailing's heart again and again.
Zhang Ailing finally decided to leave him. She moved out of her old apartment and completely cut off contact with Hu Lancheng.
Later, she went to America and met her last companion, Yala, a man several decades older than her. Laya had a daughter with his ex-wife, but she didn't want to endure the bondage of her family, so she went out to make a living alone. Both of them love literature, and Yala became the only person Zhang Ailing could open her heart when she first arrived in the United States.
Later, Zhang Ailing was pregnant with Yala's child, but for various reasons, Zhang Ailing aborted the child. They lived together for more than ten years, ten years of poverty and love.
After the death of Jehol, Zhang Ailing moved out of the former residence of Jehol.
At this time, Zhang Ailing was helpless, and she became very nervous. She always feels that every corner of the world is unclean and full of nasty lice. She kept disinfecting the room with disinfectant, so life was filled with annoying and meaningless trifles.
Zhang Ailing's old friend Zhuang couldn't worry about her, so she took care of Zhang Ailing. She wore a grey headscarf and a grey robe. This is a strange old lady. She won't let anyone into her room, and often forgets to bring her key because she is afraid that others will see the chaos in the room.
It was a sunny day. She turned on the TV in the background and wanted to go to the bathroom to get something, but she couldn't walk and lay back on the camp bed. In this way, her soul gradually separated from her body, and she seemed to see her mother waving to her in heaven.
After her death, Lin held a funeral for her and her ashes were scattered in the Pacific Ocean.
Her life is full of twists and turns. She once loved, and eventually she was sad for love. She experienced the glory sought after by thousands of people, but in the end she was just ignored. But only she can bear the ups and downs of such a span in this world, which is only the normal state of life for her.
She left, but her magnificent and delicate words stayed in this world forever, infecting readers from generation to generation.