There is a procrastination, disguised as awe.

Since June 5th, the official account of WeChat has written 19 reading notes, nearly 30,000 words, in one and a half months. I was recommended to the home page 13 times, so I began to slack off and reached the point where I wanted to stick to it.

I happened to meet three things, Mid-Autumn Festival activities and British holidays, and at this node, I chose to read Zeng Guofan written by Mr. Tang.

Later notes began to drag on.

My original intention of writing reading notes is to cultivate my self-restraint and good habit of reading.

However, Zeng was almost the first self-restraint perfect person at all times and in all countries.

By contrast, I am ashamed.

This book has read the fifth chapter, which tells that he has gone out of the mountains and started Yong ying from the lotus pond in Xiangxiang to Changsha, the provincial capital.

I often have the urge to write, but I always feel that I am too shallow to understand.

In the meantime, this book is like a mirror, hanging in my heart, reflecting my inner struggle, hesitation, humility and pride. In short, I can see everything in my mind.

If reading this book 14 years ago opened the door for me to see saints, then 14 years later, what's the point if I still admire and admire saints?

If you don't lift the autumn, you can't see the sun and the moon as your eyesight, and you can't see the thunder as your hearing.

So the key is how to be upright and upright in the process of reading.

During this period, my biggest gain should be to really practice the old gentleman's "stupid kung fu", to learn, and to be good at "playing dumb".

So during this time, I began to form such a habit.

Get up at 6 o'clock every morning on time, no matter what, turn on the computer and write for an hour, where to write, where to count. Stop running out at once, don't give yourself too much pressure, and use a good habit to resolve the anxiety and regret caused by your inner commitment. This is a fact.

Go back to the first five chapters of this book.

After Yangming, he studied as a vassal, from the Duke to the Duke of Zeng. The former created a clean mind, while the latter sublimated the soul of Neo-Confucianism.

Their tracks still converge on this poem by Li He: Please go to Lingyange temporarily, if you are a scholar Wan Huhou? !

It is this poem that awakens the ambition of two generations of literati, saves the people from fire and water, helps the building to fall, and saves the tide from falling.

Zeng Guofan was a scholar at the age of 2/kloc-0, at the age of 23, and at the age of 27. A poor student, in Beijing, persisted along this career path and was promoted to a second-class office step by step. Ten years, seven moves, even ten steps, and all this happened during the Daoguang period. This period is also a decade of Zeng Guofan's Neo-Confucianism, and his official career has never forgotten to cultivate self-discipline.

With the ambition of being a saint inside and a king outside, wait for the current situation.

This book was written in Xianfeng two years. At that time, Zeng Guofan left Beijing for Jiangxi as an examiner. On the way to Anhui, he learned of his mother's death and went all the way to Yueyang for help. At this time, Zeng Guofan is about to turn 43.

There is a detail in this, that is, Zeng Guofan "got a talent" in Yueyang, and they returned to Xiangxiang and Ningxiang by land from Yiyang. This Zeng adult was captured by Taiping rebels and wrote a notice. Fortunately, he was rescued overnight and fled back to his hometown.

The second chapter is the study of "Left". The logic here is that Changsha City is in danger. Zhang, then governor of Hunan, recommended Zuo and Zuo, who were taking refuge in Dongshan, to return to Changsha as staff officers. Qi Xin joined forces to defend Changsha, and Xiao Chaogui, the Queen Mother of the West, was shot and killed. In order to capture Yuezhou as soon as possible, the Taiping Army led a great army down the river and took Jinling directly, which gave Changsha a breathing space.

At this time, the Qing court began to issue decrees to promote Yong Lian, and set up local armed forces to quell the rebellion. Zuo recommended Zeng Guofan to Zhang as Hunan Yong ying minister.

Zeng Guofan's previous career was almost smooth sailing. The biggest crisis occurred in the first year of Xianfeng, when the new emperor just boarded Dabao. In May 2008, under the impetus of Liu Rong, Luo Zenan and others, Zeng Guofan criticized Emperor Xianfeng in "Respecting Chen Shengde's Three Ends to Prevent Abuse". Emperor Xianfeng didn't finish reading it, but fell to the ground angrily and immediately summoned the Minister of Military Affairs to convict him. If Qi Junzao, Ji Zhichang and others hadn't interceded for him, he would probably have an accident. After understanding this situation, Zeng Guofan was very nervous and immediately blamed himself for this admonition.

According to his cautious personality, combined with his previous smooth career experience, he became the minister of Ying Yong who suppressed the rebel army in a stormy time, and he was in Hunan, the hometown of Hongyang, which was the most popular and corrupt in officialdom. It is conceivable that Zeng Guofan will definitely refuse at first.

So the most wonderful plot description in these chapters of the novel began:

First of all, on the recommendation of Zuo, Zhang, then the governor of Hunan, wrote a letter to Zeng Guofan, inviting him to do it in the provincial capital, and the meaning of the talk came to the fore:

"Bright base and timber, lack of your hometown, it is hard to bear this task. Adults are the talents of Sanxiang and the pillars of the country. The emperor relies on them and the people trust them. They are eager to move to Changsha, host group training, wipe out bandits, pacify the place and comfort the people. Ji Liang also listens to orders day and night to help the times. "

Zeng Guofan returned the pen:

"The governors have been away from home for a century, and they are more and more homesick. They want to leave the imperial city for a long time, serve their loved ones and be dutiful sons and grandchildren for life. "

"Gong Mingya yi, all the Francisco and kowtow. However, is there a mother who died and was not buried, which is the reason for doing business? If you should be ordered, you will not only be laughed at by the literati, but also feel deeply ashamed. At this time, Guo Fan has nothing to ask for, just want to accompany his mother for three years before building a house grave, so as to fulfill the responsibility of the son of man and reduce the crime of unfilial. " I hope you can understand the privacy of blackbirds. "

Like many dynasties, the Qing Dynasty ruled the world with filial piety. I have to say that this is a good reason to refuse.

The next letter comes from Tang Jian, a fellow villager of Zeng Guofan in Beijing. He was a great scholar at that time and a good man in Hunan, and was called Mr. Jinghai by the world. This famous official of Neo-Confucianism is not a nerd who sticks to his head and speaks his mind, but an able person who cares about the people, attaches importance to the economy, is knowledgeable and resourceful. Similarly, Tang Jian also knows that Zeng Guofan is a thoughtful talent. During their stay in Beijing, Tang Jian and Frant Gwo's teachers and students often discussed not Zhu Cheng's knowledge, but the history of the rise and fall of chaos.

Zeng Guofan regards Tang Jian as an old man in Huangshi, and Tang Jian also expects Zeng Guofan to be with Sean.

In July of the second year of Xianfeng, Tang Jianfeng was called into Beijing. In two months, Emperor Xianfeng summoned him fifteen times, which was a great honor for Confucianism. At this time, he and Su Shun both recommended Zeng Guofan to handle Yingyong locally. Out of a deep understanding of Zeng Guofan, Tang Jian told Emperor Xianfeng that Zeng Guofan was born in Hanlin and served as a Beijing official for a long time. He is not familiar with local things and will have difficulties at first. Please trust him from beginning to end. Tang Jian assured the emperor with a lifetime of fame that Zeng Guofan would surely achieve great things.

Old Master Q carefully wrote a long letter in small font, with a very affectionate and sincere tone. He introduced in detail the exceptional experience given by the emperor when he entered Beijing from Jiangning, especially his last visit, the emperor's inquiry and his personal recommendation.

"My good brother has tasted the hardships of the world for decades. Now he is in the prime of life and shoulders heavy responsibilities. His good brother is famous for his ambition to take the world as his responsibility, which is well known to the old man. I used to read sage books with my good brothers and teach the world. Why? "

This time, Zeng Guofan was moved, but did not act immediately. He is still soberly aware of this era.

The last appearance of Guo Songtao was at Yuelu Academy. He met Zeng Guofan and Liu Rong, learned from each other and became like-minded friends.

This good friend used a little trick to let Chen Fu act as the advance team. Chen Fu is a non-party expert. When he arrived in the lotus pond, he chose an auspicious place for the old lady to be buried. From Zeng Guofan's face, he also saw that he would eventually pay homage to each other.

Confucius in the Three Dynasties said, "Yao takes man as his shape, Shun takes man as his color, and he takes man as his quantity." Ancient sages chose to assist them, always focusing on their bones first.

Zeng Guofan loved divination, and later wrote an ice guide. Undoubtedly, this psychological suggestion is just right.

Guo Songtao's acquaintance with Zeng Guofan showed his excellent eloquence and domineering personality.

First of all, I hit the nail on the head: "I am the only person who knows you in my life." You are worried that long hair is not easy to deal with, and that if you are not successful, you will be ruined for half your life! " "

"Dongpo asked Jia Taifu,' But if there is no Yao and Shun in the world, you can't do evil in the end?' Song Tao asked my dear friend with this sentence,' But there is no heaven in the world, so you must not do evil in the end?' "

"The ancients said,' Although there is wisdom, it is better to make good use of it; Although there is a base, it is better to wait. "There is a cloud,' rare and easy to lose, sometimes; If you don't look back then, you have a chance. Therefore, saints tend to keep pace with the times, and wise people will follow the trend. " "

"Master Li said well,' Please go to Lingyange temporarily, if you are a scholar Wan Huhou?' The title of the fifth grade has never been hunted by the battlefield. How many times have you read Feng Hou's articles? "

The last sentence directly poked Zeng Guofan's heart, using a slogan more than ten years ago: wake up the leopard in your heart!

In addition to the previous layers of bedding, Xianfeng Emperor's letters were also written. In front of his mother's portrait, he burned his resignation passbook and decided to go out.

Zeng Guofan was so cautious because he didn't think it was an errand from beginning to end, but a mission. This seriousness and ambition decided his next direction of forming the Xiang Army. It's a world of difference to take the initiative to form an army and lead a regiment to practice, but he did it. With enough mission, he had enough means and methods.