At first, Smile Jun told me that he was afraid to read Osamu Dazai's book, which was too sad and he didn't recommend me to read it.
But I don't want to be so calm and silent.
I once suspected that,
I am no different from grandpa in the book. Self-pity and self-pity, play a live role. In order to be like the public, and to make myself less unique, cautious and sensitive, I am also sad about it.
The real us never dare to dig in front of outsiders, and even the people closest to you never know you.
The truth can never be described or told, even if someone listens,
Tao is not Tao, how can it be the same?
The difference between humans and animals is that,
People can think, but people like 369 think differently, which determines that life is different. People who think too much will never live well. He trapped himself in his own world, and outsiders could not get in. People inside are afraid to go out.
Life is too hard,
In fact, many people love him, and his family has affection. His family didn't blame him so much. Although the money he sent was a drop in the bucket, it still existed.
The lover loves him, the wife loves him, he has friends, and those who support him all his life, if they don't care, who wants to see if a stranger is doing well,
The world is too cold and affectionate,
But he doesn't understand, he is born, he can't love, he is afraid of being loved, so he is sad.
How pitiful he is, others will never understand him, because he is ill, a humble and sensitive disease, which once came to this world and paralyzed himself with alcohol every day.
So that he can feel really alive,
They always ask me why I like drinking,
Like is like, where there are so many reasons, just saying hello to this various world every day is enough tired, drinking can make people more awake and more real,
So I like drinking,
Almost, almost,
I am such a poor man, too. Fortunately, I have my salvation, the only sunshine in my life, and I begin to feel love bit by bit, although it is difficult to understand.
I am fragile and sensitive, and I am loved by everyone. Although they will never know what I am thinking, although they will never understand me, as long as they are kind to me and accompany me, I know that they love me.
With this love, I can try my best to live my own life.
How sad! There are thousands of people in Qian Qian, and no one will understand you.
You live in a world different from others, and occasionally you want to escape, but you dare not face it. Life is so long, those people who appear are passers-by or lost.
After all, don't come for nothing.
The world is not worth it,
Sadly, the world is not worth it.
My biggest gain from reading "Disqualification on Earth" is two sentences in the book.
The first sentence: There are too many shameful facts in this life.
This is the first sentence at the beginning of the novel
Osamu Dazai committed suicide after finishing this book. He had committed suicide five times before (four times? )。
Bernard Shaw said: The more you know about shy people, the nobler they are.
In my opinion, according to Osamu Dazai's logic, many people should have been ashamed long ago, but they are so proud!
Shame culture is one of the pillars of Japanese national spirit.
Shameless people have no future.
The second sentence: Funny is the last courtship of mankind.
This sentence actually instantly deepened my understanding of Stephen Chow.
Single-parent family, dead walk-on, perfectionism, nonsense, tragedy with comedy, and king of comedy, all these are Stephen Chow's life tracks, and also his lonely road of artistic pursuit, until mainland college students understand his big talk about traveling to the West.
The core of a truly profound comedy is laughing and crying, even crying.
As for some sketches, there is nothing to talk about. It is because creative performers are too smooth, too happy and too unlovable.
Art is by no means a boring product of being drunk and dreaming, and having nothing to say.
I have been reading this book recently. Before that, I actually thought about reading this book. After all, I searched the book reviews online and felt very heavy. This is very different from the book I used to read. Finally, I couldn't resist the temptation and bought it. When I held it in my hand, I felt a particularly excited mood, which was even stronger than the throb of my first love, which almost did not exist in the past.
"Cowards are afraid of happiness. When they touch cotton, they get hurt, and sometimes they get hurt by happiness." This is a sentence on the cover when I got this book. Actually, I'm no stranger. After all, I read a lot in book reviews, but at that time I always thought it was just a classic quotation, that's all. However, as I slowly read the book, the preface, the first letter and the second letter, I gradually seem to understand some emotions contained in this sentence: I am eager for happiness, but I am afraid of it; Longing for happiness, afraid of losing the happiness you once had. It seems more unacceptable than never getting it, getting it and losing it.
In fact, the speed of reading this book is really slow. I don't know why, I always feel that I can't go on reading, and I can't go on reading. I have a feeling of oppression in my heart and need to be released urgently.
If the previous sentence is afraid of losing happiness, then "
Osamu Dazai tried to commit suicide many times. Do you think his life is happy? If you are happy, why kill yourself to get rid of it? If unfortunate, he finally succeeded in committing suicide and came to the end with his lover. In this way, he may be happy. He always wanted to die. Maybe he just wanted to be saved. Finally, I stubbornly believe that he got the happiness and love he wanted.
Born as a human being, I'm sorry that I lost my qualification as a human being when I was born, not because I did something heinous, but because I don't understand the value of others, the mask of the world, the falsehood and meanness, but the laws and significance of the world's operation. So, I'm sorry. Sadly, such a person just wants to integrate into such a twisted and grotesque society in his eyes. Because I never understood that the only way left is to please others.
Like a clown, he made others laugh, so he felt that he existed and was meaningful. As for whether it is really integrated into it, others, others, don't even have the courage to think about it and take a look.
Osamu Dazai's works are plain, but there is a kind of power that people can't look directly at. It seems that there are tentacles all the time, trying to drag you into the endless dark whirlpool. The name of tentacle, a kind of despair, a kind of sadness.
Seeing the scene of Yoshiko being raped by a businessman or committing adultery with a businessman seems to tear up the last curtain. Sadness and fear hit the road like waves and wet his face. However, the scene of animal behavior has unparalleled obstacles. For those who can't understand, it may just be grotesque and playful. But for me who have no grandchildren and regard someone as the light of life, I feel the fear and despair brought by losing the world instantly.
After a long and painful life, I found that no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't live a good life. Life or death, it seems that death is happier. At least, death is peaceful.
About last February, I finished watching Disqualification on Earth and curled up in a chair, hugging myself tightly like a small animal. In my mind, all the scenes are illusory, not even a real shadow. My heart sadly echoed with a voice:
Somebody help me, help me.
"You are a lamp in my life!" This sentence is really not just talk.
Bottom line: Ye Zang and I are different people. Friends who have read Disqualification on Earth generally think that this book is too pessimistic, which is a portrayal of Osamu Dazai's own life. He committed suicide soon after he finished writing the book. In fact, there are many writers with "true temperament" like Osamu Dazai. After writing a book or performing a movie, they will be too involved in the drama and eventually die in the world they built.
Just like a beautiful sketch "Mr. Lu", a Chaoshan painter painted Niuwan all his life (Chaoshan Niuwan is a special snack), and it was well painted and felt very real. As a result, one day he looked at the cow balls he painted and starved to death. So is this painter, and so is the disqualification of Osamu Dazai and the earth. After reading this book, I have two biggest feelings.
First, don't be pessimistic about life. Recently, there was a very popular old Chinese doctor, who was over 90 years old and was still treating people in the hospital. He is also very healthy and strong. He once said a famous saying: 50 years old, life has just begun. When many people thought that life was coming to an end at the age of 50, the old Chinese doctor lived passionately for another 40 years.
On the other hand, Osamu Dazai did not live to be 50, but committed suicide in his forties. If Osamu Dazai can have such a positive outlook on life, how could he commit suicide easily? Even in the year of his death (1948), Japan was defeated and the whole country was pessimistic, so we should not be so irresponsible to ourselves.
Second, the wonderful life of "no" does not need to explain that life is your own. Whether it is wonderful or not, everything is caused by yourself. Each of us, including Osamu Dazai and Ye Cang, can't choose our own birth, but we can choose our own life.
Before I was 20 years old, you said that you couldn't live without your parents and that you were a minor, which was understandable. But after 20, how do you live? Nothing to do with others. It's your choice.
You are independent, adult and able to exercise full civil responsibilities and obligations. You choose a pessimistic life, a positive life, wandering around the world, lonely to the old.
Therefore, after the age of 20, you should be responsible for your own life. And Osamu Dazai may not have done this, just had such a depressed suicide.
So I regard human disqualification as a negative textbook, and sometimes I feel very depressed, just like Ye Cang, but whenever I think of this book, I always say, "Have you ever thought about this life in the book?" My answer, of course not.
So, what's your answer?
I am a thousand cities, that is, people who want to read 1000 books and walk through 1000 cities.
Human disqualification: the inner monologue of a neurotic personality
The pine nuts in the movie "The Life of Unwanted Pine Nuts" wrote a sentence on the wall of their house: I am sorry for being born a human being. When I first heard this sentence, I was very surprised: this man regards his qualifications very solemnly and hates himself at the same time. Soon, I knew that the original author of this sentence was Japanese writer Osamu Dazai.
1948, Osamu Dazai wrote in his suicide note: "I'm sorry to be born human", and then Osamu Dazai committed suicide. This is Osamu Dazai's fifth suicide. He finally succeeded in committing suicide. Before his death, his autobiographical novel "Human Disqualification" was published.
There are several unqualified versions on the market at present. What I saw was the new edition published by Jiangsu Phoenix Literature and Art Publishing House on 20 17. Interestingly, this version also includes the autobiographical novel Deception by French writer andre gide. Disqualification on Earth is about having a healthy body and a morbid soul, and Ye Zang finally destroyed himself. A liar has a morbid body and a vibrant soul. After his wife died, Michelle's life was like the joy of rebirth. Obviously, the editor put the two articles together to make readers understand that a healthy soul is the value of survival compared with a morbid body.
If there is anything great about Disqualification on Earth, I think it is probably that Osamu Dazai described the inner monologue of a neurotic personality so delicately and truly, just like holding a broken heart in front of him and silently accusing the dark side of mankind.
Karen Horney described neurosis as: neurosis is a psychological disorder caused by fear and defensive measures against these fears, and trying to find a compromise to ease inner conflicts. Moreover, through external observation, we can see that only when this psychological disorder deviates greatly from the common behavior pattern in culture can it be called neurosis. Ye Cang belongs to this kind of person. Let's look down.
The protagonist in Disqualification on Earth is Ye Cang, who was born in a wealthy family in rural Japan. His father is a congressman, and there are many brothers and sisters in his family, as well as servants.
Ye Cang didn't understand the world since he was a child. After his observation, he found that human beings lived deceitfully with each other, and he came to the conclusion that he was finally caught by the anxiety and fear of "only myself is a heresy". This sentence summarizes the characteristics of Ye Zang's neurotic personality: the way to defend human beings from inexplicable fear is to play the clown, because then he won't have to deceive others, and I hope he won't have to deceive himself and be deceived by others. But this is just his wishful thinking.
When I was a child, my father asked what gift to bring back next time. My father thought he would like lions, but Ye Zang didn't want them. But in order to please his father, he still wrote "lion" on the gift list.
When he was playing with Masao Horimu, Iezzo never let him suffer, but when Iezzo and the waiter in the bar had not finished double suicide, Masao Horimu obviously wanted to alienate him. Masao Horimu wants to make money from him, which is not a sincere friendship. What is even more infuriating is that Masao Horimu found out that the bookseller raped Yoshiko, the wife of Wild Tibetan. He didn't come forward to stop him or do anything to protect his friends, just "he pointed it out to me in a low voice. The small window in my house is open, from which I can see the inside of the house. The light is on and there are two animals crawling inside. " It can be said that Ye Cang also discovered a cruel fact: in Horimu's heart, he didn't treat me as a real person.
And his father's friend "Flounder", a world accustomed to cheating. Every time Ye Zang sent money from his hometown, he said that the "flounder" was himself, his love for Ye Zang and so on. The elders, like the father who is a member of parliament, have been deceiving Ye Zang, an unconscious child.
The most desperate thing is that Yoshiko was raped, which also prompted Ye Zang to really go to self-destruction. A Liang has a natural trust in people, which is a very valuable quality in Ye Zang's view. Yoshiko's heart is as pure as her virgin body. It can be said that this is Ye Cang's last salvation.
Yoshiko is a genius who trusts others. The bookseller said he could do nothing. As a result, Yoshiko was defiled. The fact that Yuzryha can't swallow is not his wife's chastity, but a question that haunts his mind: Is trust a crime?
Ye Cang was finally crushed by the last straw. He started drinking and injecting morphine, and his body completely collapsed. Just then, a letter came from my brother in my hometown and my father passed away. Ye Zang thought: The unforgettable horror that never left my heart at that moment is gone. Some people judge that the personality that causes Ye Zang's neurosis is his fear of his father. In fact, Ye Zang discovered a dark world of mutual deception through his father, which is also one of the sources of his inexplicable fear.
Through Ye Zang's experience, I saw how his nameless fear dragged into the abyss of fate step by step, and a neurotic personality struggled painfully between self-salvation and fate struggle. Although Ye Zang's ending was miserable, it gave me an indescribable shock in spirit.
Finally, let's talk about the layout of Disqualification on Earth, which consists of the author's preface, postscript and three notes by Ye Zang. At first, look at Ye Zang's photos from other people's perspective, then let readers listen to Ye Zang's inner monologue, and finally return to other people's perspective. This layout is exquisite from the outside to the inside and from the inside out. What's important is that Osamu Dazai formed a closed loop of Ye Zang's personality from the outside to the inside. Looking at him from outsiders and how he looks at outsiders, let our readers objectively examine the heart of a neurotic personality.
By the way, if you don't know, watch Human Disqualification later!
Iris Lin Jiujiu, a Minnan who wrote more than 100 book reviews.
After reading this book, I burst into tears. I seem to see an erratic and violent necromancer in the flickering candlelight. He tried desperately to embed himself in the white wall, become a wax figure-and then disappear into this vague world.
I know that whether this Ye Zang is dead or not, he is dead.
What saddens me most is not his despair from beginning to end, but that he chose to hide when happiness was possible. When he saw the white rabbit prepared by Shizuko's mother and daughter for him, he almost "peeped at happiness" through the crack of the door and left without saying a word. What depresses me most is not his pale face sitting in front of the fire at last, but his sneer at "friends" in his heart at that time:
"Isn't the so-called world you?"
"There is nothing in the world, but you won't tolerate it."
"You buried it."
So he never accepted the world from beginning to end.
Why does this book move me so much? I think it's probably because the "fear of mankind" in the protagonist is deeply rooted in people's hearts. His lost self, the world he hates, and the short-lived expectation he ignited in life. It hurts me. This kind of heartache seems to make me exhausted in the heavy snow on winter nights, and then fall down.
I don't know what kind of despair this is, but for a moment, I felt suffocated.
In all these answers, I seem to see the pain of others.
I think maybe the deeper reason why we can feel this kind of pain is that we have all become Ye Cang more or less. I used to be a funny clown, pushing away all sincerity and accepting the illusion of the world.
Remember this pain and be a happy person.
Slow, healthy, sensitive and fragile, what would you choose?
There is a book review like this. This book is the only thing I envy you because you can't understand it. Why do you say that? Because it can awaken a little darkness and sensitivity in your heart, and even make you feel particularly distressed. It is normal for the protagonist to feel depressed after reading this book, especially the last sentence of the book is even more sad.
He said he was born a man, and he was sorry, but he always felt that it was not his fault. He is also a poor child, a man who committed suicide at the age of 20. He is very sensitive and pretends to be a gangster to avoid taking drugs. At the age of 39, he committed suicide for the fifth time. This is self-redemption. Maybe he is more tired to live than to die, but it doesn't take courage to die.
Although this book is very negative and his life has been decadent, he has always been a sober person. He knows it's not good, but he is timid. He can only blindly avoid "cowards are afraid of happiness, and they will get hurt when they touch cotton, and sometimes they will be hurt by happiness." I don't know why I like him very much. I don't like his decadence and negativity, but I like his bravery. A man who wore a mask for 39 years finally took off his mask and tore off such a dark, disgusting and selfish self without any worries. At this time, nothing can replace the positive he brings.
Everyone has a dark side in his heart, even if you are a heartless person who laughs all day. This is no exception. No one is so ashamed. Please don't let it corrupt your heart. Even if you see through the world, you hate it, those hypocritical people, and even yourself. Don't forget to stay awake and don't run away blindly. You should love life, enjoy all the good things it brings you, and digest the bad things it brings you. There are so many people who love you, so you should live well and grow up slowly.
Indeed, the book "Human Disqualification" is like carrying an infectious mental virus. Even with depression, there are still many readers who jump into the infected area without realizing it.
Why? "Disqualification on Earth" is so sad, why can it be so hot?
So last week, we spent seven days looking for some reasons why it became a popular classic.
Ye Cang, a protagonist wearing a clown mask, is a hero who can no longer be mourned and lives in this world all day.
On the surface, he is honest and smart, a good boy and a good student, but in fact, Ye Cang is just a coward for survival and a liar for communication: he always plays the fool to make people laugh, and he always does something ridiculous, like a clown, to give the world a funny face.
Because he felt that only in this way would he be recognized and liked.
So even later, Ye Zang was admitted to an institution of higher learning in Tokyo, but he didn't take off the clown's mask and continued to gag.
However, it is too hard to live with a mask all day. Under the guidance of urban hooligan Horimu, Ye Cang finally went to his irreversible decadent life, drinking, smoking, whoring, entering pawn shops and playing with tickets to join left-wing organizations. ......
An outsider's "play in the play" Later, Ye Zang's life finally fell into the abyss, drinking, committing suicide, taking drugs and betraying his loved ones ... He chose to double suicide with his beloved and narrowed the road bit by bit; He wasted his good years in the fog, and since then he has been unable to exercise self-discipline, master his own life and get along with the real world normally.
Whose fault is this?
Peony
@ Zheng Weili
@ Zheng Weili
Wuyi and Jumu, who can be called Ye Zang's "friends" in this paper, are undoubtedly Ye Zang's "leaders" in understanding himself and society. When I was a child, only Wuyi saw through Ye Zang's funny tricks, but he didn't expose them in public. He just went to Ye's hiding place and whispered that Ye's hiding was intentional. Wuyi seems to exist to remind Ye Cang and try to wake him up from the chaotic world.
Then Horimu replaced Wuyi. Horimu only cares about his own feelings, but completely ignores others; But what makes Yuzryha Tibetan unbearable is that Jumu didn't stop his lover from being violated. After that, Ye Zang had a clearer understanding of the selfishness of human nature.
Giant trees, like leaves, have gone to the other extreme. His appearance suppressed Zhu Yi, who represented the last bit of reason in Ye Zang's heart, and returned to the world with Ye Zang in a cold and hypocritical way. Ye Zang despises him, but he can't give up. This unbalanced contradiction will inevitably pull Ye Zang into the abyss of no return.
@ Wu Min
According to the observation and personal experience around us, people will easily slide into an uncontrollable state. Generally uncontrollable, manifested as uncontrollable spending, buy buy, procrastination, alcoholism, overeating and so on. Extreme, don't go out in March, live with garbage, eat and sleep all day.
Why is it difficult for people to control themselves and let them live so cowardly, despicable and hopeless? Ye Cang, who directed and played the clown in the play, revealed to us the reason why human beings are easy to fall, that is, there is no constraint.
This kind of constraint is usually the love and persuasion of the closest relatives, the recognition and expectation of the society, and the gentle and powerful spiritual watch. When you don't feel this positive motivation and give up on yourself, the hidden magic in human nature will take advantage of it and firmly control your life.
Why should we study Osamu Dazai? Many people say that Osamu Dazai was too weak to like and understand after reading Disqualification on Earth. Others assert that Osamu Dazai has read too many books, and he will suffer from mental illness. But is this really the case?
Maybe not. Personally, Osamu Dazai's writing is Bokujun's greatest attack and ridicule on civilized society in history.
I don't know when it started. This society is full of cries for positive energy. It seems that negative energy is the original sin of being born as a human being.
We can quit the reading circle of the main theme and read Osamu Dazai's works. We will be surprised to find that there is a rogue art in the world that makes positive energy tremble openly-it tells us that the world is cruel, suffering and negativity are not original sins, because God gives us tears while smiling.
Since you can laugh when you are happy, why can't I cry when I am sad?
Before reading this book, I read the cartoon "Human Disqualification".
"Sorry, I was born alive."
Forgive me for having to combine them because of the strong impact of animation. The gloomy music, the twisted space, and the monster that has been accompanying Ye's hiding place make people very depressed and scared.
Will be brought into a role. When faced with unfriendly things, I dare not face them. When the mind is frustrated, it will only completely close itself.
Helpless and helpless loneliness constantly stimulates one's mental pressure, as if darkness is around, waiting to devour oneself. It seems that I am a mediocre person, but I only look like a woman.
The story in the book is very promising. It's just that reality is far more cruel than hope. Ye Zang's pain comes not only from his own misfortune, but also from the misfortune he feels has brought to the people around him.
When he was full of thorns and sadness, everyone thought that at the end of the story, he met the pure white innocent girl. This seems to be his last light.
Two unforgettable scenes: leaves full of scars lying on thick and pure snow, heavy snow falling, and the picture becoming blurred. He hid his face and cried, "It was wrong for me to be born in this world."
At the same time, his pure and kind wife saw everything in the attic when she was defiled by the producer. Although she panicked, she was at a loss and allowed the rape to continue.
Without exception, Ye Zang has depression. Without exception, sometimes his kindness and inaction hurt everyone.
Everyone is lonely sometimes, but we always have to come out. I know that Mr. Osamu Dazai died shortly after he finished writing Disqualification on Earth.
But I still want to say that depression is not terrible. Everyone will be lonely, everyone has pressure, and there are times when they are at a loss and helpless.
If you are not careful, there may be a strange monster around you. You accompany it, it is your haze. Take medicine, adjust, feel the beauty of life, and don't feel that the world is not worth it.
I don't need an afterlife, but I also live like myself.
Please cherish yourself, cherish your life, and you will meet the warmth of life brought by a beam of light.