Fifteen years ago, a fair and thin girl looked at the camera and sang: "I only have you in my heart, not him. Do you know that my love is not a lie." Dressed in a neutral style, a bit cool, with a neat and simple smile, a bit shy. She became famous that year, and everyone knew about her in the streets.
Fifteen years later, this girl simply said: "My father advised me to quit the entertainment industry twice before." This sentence caused a strong response. It turned out that once she was on the escalator at Changsha Airport, she was crowded and fell due to too many people watching, causing several injuries all over her body. Another time was last year, when she suffered from synovitis in her knees, which was very painful, but she still persevered to complete the task. Toured in Chengdu. She is China's first real traffic niche and the first generation victim of online verbal violence.
She is Li Yuchun. The former super girls set a precedent for all people in China to participate in the selection of super idols. In this event, the most eye-catching rookie is undoubtedly Li Yuchun! She shines brightly on the stage, as if she was born for the performance stage. She has a unique aura and a rare superstar look.
In the end, the audience voted online with 352 Yinma Town to win the crown for her! That year was the summer of 2005. Regarding the fact that he became famous overnight, Chunchun simply said: "This kind of success is the success of variety shows. For me, it has nothing to do with it." The day after the game, Li Yuchun She rushed to Beijing from Chengdu and started her acting career. From this day on, Li Yuchun's life path was completely changed.
Dazed, lonely, and silent became her companions. Under the assignment of the company, she met many people and participated in many activities. When I open my eyes and close my eyes, I am either on a plane or on various variety shows. She is like a piece of equipment. Some people turn it on, but no one turns it off. She just keeps turning and turning, with no direction and no clear destination.
Once, in the crowd of people watching and taking photos, Chunchun suddenly felt like a fool: "Who am I?" She felt that she could no longer find herself. She felt that she was not a rigid person, just a body and a mark. Once, my daughter's parents, who had not seen her for a long time, rushed to Beijing to visit her.
It was already dark when we arrived, and the lights in the room were dim. The parents standing at the door saw their daughter sitting alone on the water tank, staring blankly into the distance. There was no TV, no one to talk to, not even a fabric sofa, leaving only the thin, lonely figures of my parents. Her parents were very sad and wanted to ask her, but they were worried about asking her.
Because, they felt that the change in their daughter was not the same as the one that would cry in front of them when they were aggrieved. Except for silence, she may be silent. Her father wrote a six or seven page letter to her, but Chunchun didn't say anything at all. Behind the honor, there is a trace of loneliness. Thinking of what Haizi said: "There is nothing in the distance but distance, and the farther distance is even more lonely."
Although Chunchun did not respond to her parents' concerns, in fact, she knew her parents very well in her heart. For her love, she also knows that her dream is music. This is not the life she wants, and she is determined to find herself. Li Yuchun gradually started her resistance in a way that is so stubborn as a teenager that she almost blindly follows the trend.
She ignored the artist manager assigned to her by the company and refused to reply to messages; the boss Long Danni asked her to have dinner and meet people, but she did not go; she did not participate in the commercial performances assigned to her. She built a very thick shell and surrounded herself in it, unwilling to walk with anyone, not even her parents. Only when she was alone did she feel free, and only song was her antidote.
Soon, Chunchun's first solo album "Queen and Dream" was released and won various song awards. In Li Yuchun's heart, music is her queen, noble, above all else and simple, and cannot hold a single pebble.
Just as the song was recognized by the public, her recognition was also increasing day by day, but online verbal violence became more and more intense. Some people love him, and some hate her!
The "Blood Donation Gate" in 2008 made Chunchun feel the evil of human nature for the first time. What followed was the full-screen "Brother Xinchun Gets Eternal Life", and "Boys and girls are born the same in rural areas" In the promotional banner, her avatar suddenly stood. Drink bottles were thrown at him during the music season, and he was even rumored to have married a coal boss, got divorced, and committed suicide.
Due to stubbornness and indifference, no matter what kind of website was hacked, Chunchun could not even say a word and never asked the team to delete comments. In her heart, people who understand you don't need to express it, and people who don't understand you have no use expressing it. This lasted fifteen years. It was not until recently on the stage of "I Am an Actor" that Chunchun said to herself: "Not everyone is Li Yuchun. Just because I can bear it doesn't mean that others can also bear it, let alone I can be hurt at will, I hope everyone can be considerate.”
Some people say that Chunchun did not become Cui Xueli because of her parents. "Happy people are healed by childhood throughout their lives, and tragic people are healed by childhood throughout their lives." This is the wise saying of Austrian psychology expert Alfred Adler. Indeed, Chunchun is lucky because she has good parents who love her. "What is the greatest influence of your father on you?" Li Yuchun responded without thinking: "I love my mother."
That's right, the simple happiness that parents give their children is that the father loves his parents. Therefore, even in the face of many intentions, Chunchun would be sad and depressed, but he still did not fall to the ground. Chunchun remained silent as always. She kept watching "The Pianist on the Sea" and seemed to find a kind of comfort and understanding from the male protagonist 1900. She deeply felt that life was ultimately lonely.
Perhaps, the occurrence of Chunchun challenges the traditional Chinese aesthetic view of women. Perhaps it is difficult to recognize a person as outstanding. Perhaps, becoming famous overnight made many people feel that she was too lucky. Why did Li Yuchun become famous, why did Li Yuchun win the championship, why did Li Yuchun become a big star overnight?
In the latest song "Whyme" released in 2009, she wrote and sang: "WhyMe style style adopts the song Show itself WhyMe surprise surprise CauseIamChrisLee" because she is ChrisLee Li Yuchun. The charming Li Yuchun on the stage, the youthful and arrogant Li Yuchun.
Li Yuchun responded to the world and herself with her songs, but her detractors did not care. Li Yuchun shrank into her hard hole again, as introverted and distant as ever. She learned to play drums to vent her emotions, and she broke a drum at a company KTV party. She doesn’t use Weibo, doesn’t appear on variety shows, and barely communicates with fans.
In her world, there are only songs to accompany her. In order to get closer to Li Yuchun, Yang Liu, the company's senior vice president and responsible artist manager, tried every means to get close to her. He stayed up late at night just to meet Li Yuchun unexpectedly who was happy to steal food online. Gradually, Yang Liu was able to say a few words to her.
At that time, Li Yuchun was invited to star in Peter Chan's "October Besieged". In fact, filming was not the company's plan for her. But Yang Liu wants Chunchun to stay in the film crew, get along with others more, and please don't close yourself off too much. The work of persuasion was particularly difficult. They had been arguing for several months. Li Yuchun got tired of it, and with the idea that if the performance was not very good, some people would come to me, he agreed.
But she made a "three-part agreement" with Yang Liu that she must wear a hat when acting and cannot take it off at any time. But while filming a construction explosion scene, the person next to him had his arms blown off, and it was impossible for him to keep his sunhat on his head safely. The director asked Chunchun to take off his sunhat. But at that time, Chunchun was like a baby, unable to communicate with the film crew independently. She was so furious that she called Yang Liu at three o'clock in the night.
In the end, the film director gave in, and the unscientific camera shot wearing a hat may have happened on the big screen.
In a subsequent interview, she said: "The sunhat was the only straw she could hold on to in the unfamiliar adventure island of the film." In fact, it was not the sunhat that Li Yuchun could not forget, but the careless disposal. sense of belonging.
If "October Siege" opened Li Yuchun's closed heart to the outside world, then the stage play "Dream Like a Dream" directed by Lai Shengchuan made her closed heart. Opened a small window. Yang Liu blocked commercial performances from all walks of life for Chunchun and accepted this stage play that cost only 5,000 yuan per round. But this time she was right. For nearly half a year, Chunchun rehearsed plays with the theater actors, ate fast food boxes together, and rode around in cars to perform together.
From the beginning, she just watched everyone eating and chatting silently from the sidelines. Later, she was able to integrate into this "big family" and even play shuttlecock with everyone. Once, a well-known actor bought Chuanchuan incense and asked her to eat it together. She was so moved that she felt like crying. It turns out that in this world, apart from parents and fans, there are some people who can accept her and invite her to eat and play together.
The life of the stage crew made Li Yuchun feel deeply warm. While talking about everything, the hard shell on Chunchun's body was warmed little by little. She would no longer be as resistant to getting along with others as she used to be. . Shocking changes are still happening. Since 2013, Chunchun began to actively break out of her comfort zone, learn photography, cooking, and even picked up a long-lost guitar, and also developed a strong interest in art.
By chance, she appeared on the stage wearing a long gauze dress during a concert tour, which shocked many people, and the fashion industry gradually began to pay attention to this unique girl. What is surprising is that Li Yuchun's androgynous aura, which has been criticized for a long time in China, has made fashion masters in Western countries happy. They were deeply admired by Chunchun's unconventionality, and Gucci, Givenchy, Vineyard, etc. successively threw olive leaves to her.
At that time, Riccardo Tisci, who was the design director of Givenchy, met Li Yuchun in Paris and asked her: "Is it OK if I wear high heels?" She immediately responded "NO". "Very handsome, I just like that." Riccardo Tisci said. I still remember that Chunchun at that time was unable to communicate with the film crew independently. Now, she can finally say "no" calmly and express her intentions calmly.
In 2018, Li Yuchun held a mass art project of "Fashion Laboratory - Farmers' Market" in Shanghai, discussing the topic of "fashion" with many art masters and audiences. Her enthusiasm and enthusiasm, stubbornness and doubts have found another entrance and exit in the deep sea of ??plastic art.
Li Yuchun said: "The best fashion belongs to those who have the courage to break away from the fashion." That's right, isn't Li Yuchun such a typical person? She broke away from the constraints of traditional aesthetics and promoted a new wave of aesthetics. Her name not only represents herself, but also represents an era and a representative. Li Yuchun is Li Yuchun, and Li Yuchun is not Li Yuchun.
What was even more surprising was that when Wu Tong, the director of "I Am an Actor", approached Chunchun and expected her to join the show, he was unanimously rejected by the team. . But Chunchun insisted on moving forward. She said: "In addition to music, performance is also a medium of art. Among different characters, happiness is yours, sadness is yours, and these are what you want to say. "
This is the first time in the past fifteen years that Chun Chun wants to show all his joys, sorrows and joys in front of the public. And she did it, and Chunchun became the biggest surprise in the show. Her performance was sincere and charming, and she was praised by many directors and recognized by the audience. After so many years of experience, Li Yuchun gradually realized: "No one is a desert island, you can't escape at all. Everyone is a piece of the mainland, a part of the whole. Whether it is a music producer or a film and television person, or Journalists all need to pronounce words according to their own media.
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On the night when his father suggested quitting the entertainment industry, Chunchun said sincerely to his father: Dad, the reason why I have reached this point is actually because of falling down again and again. The whole team is in the period of adjustment. , Trial and error. I often feel that I can't do it yet, and it is really difficult, so how can I just give up like this? I have to move forward at that time. Chunchun, who blindly follows the trend and talks to the world in a violent and closed-minded way, now finally finds the true meaning of life, which is to live up to her original intention and move forward.