After hearing your experience, I sympathize with you but also envy you. To paraphrase a cool saying, it’s like: As long as you have something once, why should it last forever? I understand that you are feeling lost, frustrated and unsure of yourself right now. However, you are blinding yourself now. In fact, you have accomplished a lot of meaningful things, but you didn't realize it, or you have obliterated them now. I don’t want to borrow any more words to comfort you, like God will close a window and open a door for you. Because after a long time, it became boring to listen to it.

I believe that it is up to others to solve their own problems. When you try to accept the sunshine, it is your new starting point. No matter it is high or low, it is worth fighting again!