The person who said this is Zhang Ailing, a talented woman. She was married twice in her life, but the first marriage was controversial because her first husband was a traitor Hu Lancheng. Actually, Zhang Ailing didn't like Hu Lancheng at first, but she finally fell in love with him from the bottom of her bones. In the final analysis, this is actually a family tragedy.
Zhang Ailing is the eldest daughter, her grandfather Zhang Peilun is a famous minister in the late Qing Dynasty, and her grandmother Li Ju and his wife are the eldest daughter of Li Hongzhang. His father Zhang Zhiyi was one of them? Your second generation? It's a pity that his generation has come down in the world. But at least it's a broken aristocratic family. A thin camel is bigger than a horse and its life is safe. It's just that his father doesn't pursue anything, and the more he crosses, the more empty he becomes, thinking about the beauty of being well-off at home all day and not making progress. And her mother, Huang Suqiong (later renamed Huang Yifan), is an independent woman with her own thoughts? New? How can a woman stand the appearance that her husband is the second ancestor?
But Zhang Zhiyi is a master who can't make ends meet, so how does Huang Can Su Qiong get along with him? Be reasonable? , he is still. Huang Suqiong was angry and took it out on Zhang Ailing. She even said to Zhang Ailing: If I had known this, I shouldn't have given birth to you! ? In this case, any child will remember it deeply. It may also be that Zhang Ailing and her mother lived together later, but still? Stranger? Reason. After giving birth to Zhang Ailing's younger brother Zhang Zijing, Huang Suqiong divorced Zhang Zhiyi, then went to the United States to study, leaving Zhang Ailing's sister and brother cruelly.
After Huang Suqiong left, Zhang Ailing's life became more and more sad. Her father ignored her, and then she married Sun, which was also a declining aristocratic family. Zhang Ailing is a sensitive temperament, and her childhood was not unfortunate. It is not easy to be a good stepmother. Stepmother Sun didn't have such a big temper and couldn't walk the path of influence with love, so she was at odds with Zhang Ailing when she first entered the Zhang family. However, Father Zhang Zhiyi is a selfish advocate. How can he get his daughter Zhang Ailing? Exquisite In my mind, when Zhang Ailing quarreled with Sun, he only thought that Zhang Ailing was an unfilial girl, and maybe he still had some resentment. He hit Zhang Ailing and then shut her up at home. However, if the child is disobedient, is it really good to have a meal?
Half a year later, Zhang Ailing escaped with the help of domestic servants and went to Huang Suqiong, her mother who returned from studying abroad at this time. Huang Suqiong still loves her daughter, perhaps out of guilt, trying to make up for something. However, the childhood experience has made it impossible for Zhang Ailing to make out with this overly individualistic mother. In fact, Zhang Ailing yearns for maternal love, but she has always been aloof and aloof. Huang Suqiong may also want to get along well with Zhang Ailing, but look at Zhang Ailing? Cold face? Maybe it's from guilt, maybe it's just that you don't like face, anyway? Quit when you encounter difficulties? Yes
Zhang Ailing and her mother are in such an awkward position. They feel bad, so they want to move out. Perhaps she inherited the independence of her mother, Huang Suqiong, and Zhang Ailing began to find ways to make money. How does she make money? Write a novel. Then the first fragrance of agarwood chips became an instant hit, and then the second fragrance of agarwood chips, jasmine scented films and other novels became more rapid? Red? . However, when Zhang Ailing's material needs were met, her emotional emptiness became more and more obvious.
Before she became popular, Zhang Ailing's mind should be divided into some trivial matters of life. After she became popular, with money, there were naturally fewer trivial things and more emotional things. From 65438 to 0944, 38-year-old Hu Lancheng appeared in her life. It should be said that Hu Lancheng was attracted by Zhang Ailing, although she was not good-looking? Raymond? And brilliant, is it? Gentle? . I like Zhang Ailing's novels, so it should be natural to go to Shanghai to play.
However, Zhang Ailing is insecure and unsociable. Can any strange man see her if he wants to? Hu Lancheng was turned away on her first date. This can hurt Hu Lancheng's self-esteem. A romantic veteran who has read countless women was rejected by a girl in 2034, who just started her career. At the same time, she feels novel and interesting. The so-called unattainable is always in turmoil. Zhang Ailing aroused Hu Lancheng's interest. Despite being rejected, but still? Sincere words? Did you really leave a note on Zhang Ailing's door saying that he had come to see her? A heart? Finally attach my address.
If Zhang Ailing is a full, optimistic and cheerful person, Hu Lancheng estimates that it is useless to leave a stack of notes. But Zhang Ailing is not. Zhang Ailing's life is boring and lonely. She is lonely, except writing. Is anyone there now? Chase the door? And a gifted scholar seems to be doing well, but in fact he still has some expectations. So Zhang Ailing made an appointment with Hu Lancheng the next day, and Hu Lancheng was naturally overjoyed. I really feel that Zhang Ailing is not playing cards according to common sense. She is a strange girl, but she likes it more and more.
However, as soon as Hu Lancheng came into contact with Zhang Ailing, he realized that Zhang Ailing's novels were well written, but? Life idiot? . Life experience is poor, and feelings are even more sensitive and fragile. Such a girl is really easy to get rid of. So Hu Lancheng showed his superb skills of picking up girls and showed meticulous care for Zhang Ailing. For the first time in her life, Zhang Ailing was treated so well. Hu Lancheng, like a ray of dawn, shone into her emotional window, making her heart feel warm for the first time. She thinks that Hu Lancheng is a man who can be entrusted for life.
Zhang Ailing is not stupid, but for a girl who has no love since she was a child, suddenly someone gave her the warmth she had been longing for for for a long time, just like a person floating in the water for a long time, holding on to a life-saving straw and being hard to give up. The only thought in her heart is to catch it and hold it tightly. Unfortunately, if either party in a relationship shows too much concern for this relationship, is it actually called love? Games? Lost the initiative. Just like Zhang Ailing's love for Hu Lancheng, right? Fall into the dust? .
In such a relationship, if the active party has pity and sympathy for the passive party, everyone will naturally be happy. It's a pity that Hu Lancheng is a promiscuous person from beginning to end. He divorced Zhang Ailing, who married Hu Lancheng despite the opposition of relatives and friends. The wedding was simple and shabby, but Zhang Ailing didn't care. She just hoped? When the years are quiet, the world is stable. ? Unfortunately, the good times did not last long. With the decline of the Japanese army, the traitor Hu Lancheng began to flee. Then he married Zhou Xiao, a nurse aged 17, in Hanyang, and had eight women and four wives in his life. For him, Zhang Ailing is a white rice grain on his chest. How can there be fresh people in front of him?
Hu Lancheng family.
Until then, Zhang Ailing chose to forgive. Maybe forgiveness can make a husband? The prodigal son returns? And then what? Unfortunately, Hu Lancheng then moved to Wenzhou to live with Fan Xiumei, and Zhang Ailing finally gave up. And she and Hu Lancheng have been married for less than two years. After liberation, Zhang Ailing married Yala, a writer in the United States, and lived alone until Yala died at the age of 74. And this love between her and Hu Lancheng must be a sore spot in her life.
Maybe two people's feelings should not be put first? As low as dust? .