People of my generation cannot escape those things, including scientists, doctors, lawyers, and police. As for me, when I was young, I wanted to be a writer, make movies, create music, and hold art exhibitions. I also can’t figure out why I, who came from a mildly poor family in an 18th-tier town, would aspire to such a career where I can’t even make enough money. Probably because no matter what they wore, what they said or did, they were different from the people around me and seemed very free.

Now, looking back, the peak of my literary talents may have been in high school, because I wrote eight-legged essays for exams for a long time. Those who understand should understand the overall structure of the total score, the list of three or more parallel sentences, endless quotes from famous people, and the last paragraph must sublimate the theme. In order to get high scores, I also created several extra paragraphs, no matter what the subject matter. All composition topics can be applied to it. The major and minor exams were non-stop. During that time, I felt that I could write an essay with close to full marks with my eyes closed. Because of this, I always feel that my soul is suppressed, so the weekly diary has become the only place where I can express myself freely. The weekly diary, which is often 30 pages long, is quite unruly. It records my memories, the people I think are important, the incredible stories in my dreams, and the current affairs that I pretend to comment on in a mature tone. My Chinese teacher likes me very much. She thinks my "novel" is very interesting. She wanted to share it with the class, but because it was too long, by the time she finished reading, the lesson was gone. Of course, I didn’t want to bear the anger of the whole class being dragged away because of such public praise.

By the time we got to university, especially my university, which is known as a liberal arts desert, writing was actually a very rare experience. After all, even the professor required us to use TEX to write our homework. My typing speed has improved, but not for the details of life that make me moved after writing and reading it again, but for the coding skills that I will rely on to survive four years later.

After working and starting a business, I read reports and data every day. Time flies, but I always feel that something is missing. What I am proud of is that I have not lost my habit of reading, but I read more about the Internet, business models, financial management, and marketing. As for novels, the last novel I read was probably half a year ago. And prose, what is this?

Those repetitive and trivial things mentioned in the previous paragraph, which are depressing on the inside and bloody on the outside, seem to be living an entrepreneurial life that can bring me financial freedom every day. The dream of going public is indeed getting closer and closer. , but there are fewer and fewer stories of memories that can be recorded by me. When I have time at the weekend, I will reflect on what I have done this week and find it difficult to explain clearly. It is very difficult to even name three things. If you are reading my rambling words, I would like to ask you a question. What are your top three priorities in 2018? 1, 2, 3, can you think of it?

Recently I fell in love with a talk show, "Xiao Shuo", a stand-up show by Teacher Gao Xiaosong. Listen to him tell the fascinating stories of Greek mythology, listen to him talk about the industrial operation of Hollywood, and listen to him talk about the impact of the 5G era and blockchain on the cultural and creative industry. It will be amazing. Some people also say that these are drafts written by the creative writers behind Teacher Xiaosong, and are not his own knowledge reserves. Of course there are a lot of negative fans, but I don’t think it matters. Then I am amazed not only by him, but also by his entire creative team. I really like Gao Xiaosong's free and easy attitude. He can sit there with a fan and talk for a long time. If there was no time limit on the show, I guess he would be a talker. If I could just sit there and talk for a whole day, no matter what I talked about, it would be a happy and interesting thing. But look at myself, except for gossip, I shouldn’t be able to talk about other topics for two hours. Even if I gossip, I can’t last half a day. Since when did my own thoughts and experiences become so shallow, I don’t know.

I have the habit of keeping a diary, starting in high school. Sometimes I look through my old diaries. Compared with the words used at that time, they are like Yangchun Baixue and Lower Riba People. I have time to joke with my friends that the reserve of 2,000 Chinese characters should be enough to satisfy all my daily expressions, whether written or spoken. But I know in my heart that this is a fact and not a joke. Even if I get an IELTS score of 7, I still need a vocabulary reserve of 8,000 words. I am probably not a qualified and educated Chinese.

Writing is not a very difficult thing nowadays. There are various creative platforms, including public accounts, Zhihu, and Toutiao, and I believe content and cultural creation will be a competitive track that all giants will try their best to occupy in the future. In addition, there are also many AI-assisted creation tools emerging. , Everyone is creating, I think it will not be very far away. Someone in my circle of friends joked that he wrote an article in three seconds in the morning and posted it to the headlines. In the afternoon, more than 200 people liked it. I thought so too after watching it. Although I don’t want to use this sentence structure, it is quite suitable. This is the best time for creation, and it is also the worst time for creation.

But this is the general environment and has nothing to do with myself. Because my original intention was just to write some words, and it was not related to creation at all. Writing fluently and telling some short stories that are not too vague now that I think about them are my hopes for myself at this stage. Compulsory education has reduced the number of illiterates in poor areas, but it has not prevented the large number of intellectuals in big cities from degenerating into illiterates, such as me who can no longer write.