The famous painter Huang Yongyu has a famous saying, which is engraved on the tombstone of the writer Shen Congwen, "A soldier either dies on the battlefield or returns to his hometown." But this sentence is obviously not applicable to Lu Xun, a writer and warrior.

Lu Xun seemed to be a particularly mean-spirited and ungrateful person. It can be said that there is no other modern cultural celebrity who can surpass him. Throughout his life, he spoke freely and made enemies all over the world. Almost all his relationships ended badly, causing the relationship between his wife and brothers to break up. He also seemed indifferent to his hometown of Shaoxing.

He left home to go to school at the age of 18. After that, except for the successful revolution of 1911, he returned to his hometown to teach for two years, and once went back to sell his ancestral property. In addition, he almost never set foot in his hometown again in his life. In his later years, he settled in nearby Shanghai. It stands to reason that even if he does not go back to spend the rest of his life, he can "come home often", but he did not. Some people say that he is not even willing to say that he is from Shaoxing.

In Shaoxing today, Lu Xun is a big fan, and everything must be related to him. The people of Shaoxing joked that "the mud walls of Baicao Garden are full of banknotes." The toilet paper used by Lu Xun would be enshrined if found. But Lu Xun knew it well, and as a man, he would not only not be able to understand the sentiments of the rural party members, but he would probably write thousands of words of "grievance and blame".

I think what needs to be explained is that just because Lu Xun never returned home does not mean that he has no feelings for his hometown. It's just that this kind of feeling is more complicated. It can be said that to sum it up: I admire the culture and sages in my hometown that are preserved in ancient books, but I hate people and things in reality a little bit, or feel a little compassion for "sorrow for their misfortune".

From this point of view, no matter how complicated his subjective emotions towards his hometown are, the place that actually has the most impact on his life is Shaoxing, which is "the land of revenge and avenge." His life began in Shaoxing, and his subsequent success was inseparable from the influence of the unique regional spirit of East Yue and the distinct humanistic style of the "sages from the old county".

Lu Xun was born and grew up in Shaoxing. He lived in Shaoxing and "ran away from home" until he reached adulthood. His childhood relatives, teachers, playmates, the scenery of his hometown, and the books he read have been with him throughout his life. The sages of the country, from Dayu and King Goujian of Yue, to Lu You and Xu Wenchang, to Wang Siren and Zhu Shunshui, the spirit of preferring death to surrender has made him unforgettable and loyal to his old age. Later he was in Beijing and Shanghai. Although he was far away from his hometown, he had been collating and compiling history books and local chronicles written by local sages.

When we look at his articles, from "Hometown", to "Scream. Preface", to "Morning Blossoms Picked at Dusk", we can also find that he actually never forgot about Shaoxing. Shaoxing, known as a famous water town, has its black-topped boats, its Shaoxing wine, its Baicao Garden, its Sanwei Bookstore, the street scene in Lu Town, the bridge at Grandma’s house, the market towns in the south of the Yangtze River, the interesting farmhouses in the villages, and the fictitious... Hotels, the lovely Runtu's felt hat, local social operas, etc., all have infinite charm in Lu Xun's writings.

However, from these points we can probably see that Lu Xun’s love and concern for his hometown of Shaoxing mostly just focused on the identification of “culture” and “sages”.

In his later years, Lu Xun chose Shanghai as his "home to his bones", and he definitely would not return to his roots in Shaoxing to retire. In addition to being restrained by various circumstances, it was also because his hometown gave him too many bad memories. .

While Lu Xun was in Shaoxing, life in his hometown gave him a lot of warmth and joy, but the life of a big family there also brought him too many wounds that were difficult to heal in his lifetime. His later cynicism, difficulty in getting along, and suspicion and harshness were all closely related to this growth experience.

His family fell into decline around the age of 10. His grandfather was imprisoned and his father died of illness. As the eldest son of the family, facing his widowed mother and younger brother who were helpless in the house, he could only face all the wind and rain from the outside world by himself. The harshness of the world and the warmth of human relationships that he experienced after his family declined have been torturing Lu Xun's body and mind. As he later described it, "Like a wounded wolf, howling in the wilderness late at night, mixed with tragic injuries." With anger and sadness.

"It was the stimulation of too many people in his hometown that made him realize that the emotional ties connected by blood relationships are so fragile. They can neither withstand the waves of the times nor the impact of the waves of human nature.

Lu Xun was not even willing to say that he was from Shaoxing. Let's look at Zhou Zuoren's "Memoirs of Zhitang", which clearly stated, "Shaoxing people are not very popular in Beijing, so there are not many people." I admit that I am from Shaoxing. This was the case with Lu Xun. When people asked him where he was from, he replied "Zhejiang". In his article, he also directly said that he hated the people there. For example, he said that an aunt asked him to take the family's money, and later it was rumored that he stole it. Family money; for example, when his biological father passed away, not only did the adults in the clan not show sympathy, they even had a coffin at the front door, and secretly held meetings in the back hall to rob his family property. He was angry with his relatives there; The only poor people there who still had some good feelings for him, such as Runtu, he saw with his own eyes that they had become a "numb" group, and his mood was also desperate.

This is reflected in his "Hometown". Articles such as "At the Restaurant" and "Kong Yiji" are very revealing and profound, and even more sad.

That's why when Lu Xun was able to spread his wings and fly high, he couldn't wait to "leave." "He ran away from home" without even looking back.

Around 1919, as soon as he was able to establish himself in the capital, he immediately returned home, sold his ancestral property and fields, and moved his family northward, never to go back again. On February 8, 1919, Lu Xun was sick and looking for a house. With the money from the sale of his hometown, he finally built a warm nest in Badaowan in Beijing. He mistakenly regarded his hometown as his hometown. So far, at least. In real life, he was officially no longer connected with his hometown of Shaoxing.

On New Year’s Eve of this year, he wrote in his diary, “Sacrifice to ancestors at night, add food at night. Drinking will make the flowers bloom.” From these few words alone, we really can’t figure out whether this “abandoned son” who worked hard to run away from home was feeling happy or sad that night. The grand banquet will eventually come to an end. Even if the road ahead is full of thorns, we still have to move forward.

"I am marching to the west, and I am going to the wilds." There are countless people in life who, once they embark on the journey, never return to their hometown. , and even cursed the place where he was born and raised, with a mixture of love and hate. For Lu Xun in his later years, it was actually the same as many of us. The dream of his hometown will always be there. In my heart, I no longer want to go back, and I can't go back.

Fortunately, there is always a gain when there is a loss. Lu Xun lost Shaoxing, but he became the best writer in modern China. After leaving his hometown, he may have won a temporary house, but he has nothing left mentally.

On the evening of December 12, 2018, we had a quick chat

Lu Xun did not return to his hometown in his later years. The fundamental reason is that he sold his ancestral home a long time ago. Why did he go back to his hometown?

First of all, Lu Xun was not poor, and his income was very considerable. Secondly, although Lu Xun revolutionized the lives of all walks of life, he did not want to go back to his hometown. He is still quite traditional at heart. He bought a large house in Beijing, and then settled his three brothers, his mother and his wife, Zhu Anbu, here. Because he didn’t have enough money to buy the house, he paid one-third of it himself, and the two brothers were unwilling to contribute. , so they negotiated to sell the ancestral home, and borrowed some money to buy the courtyard in Beijing.

As an aside, the courtyard was also the reason for the discord between the brothers.

As for Zhu An, although Lu Xun did not love Zhu An, he was still financially good to Zhu An when Lu Xun was alive! If he divorced Zhu An, Zhu An would not be able to survive at all, so Lu Xun kept raising Zhu An, even if he had a falling out with his brother Zhou Zuoren and moved out of the big courtyard in Beijing. Lu Xun bought another small courtyard outside to accommodate his mother and Zhu An. Zhu An lost his financial resources after Lu Xun's death.

Lu Xun wrote extensively about his hometown in "Morning Blossoms Plucked at Dusk", but it was not out of his feelings for his hometown, but his feelings for his childhood. We can see from the title that his Focus on time, not place. In his later years, he simply stopped returning to his hometown. When he mentioned Shaoxing, his tone was often unfriendly. There was self-deprecation and a real sense of alienation.

Why did Lu Xun have such weak feelings for his hometown? The reason why I think there is a hometown here is also due to Lu Xun's personality.

First of all, Lu Xun left with resentment towards his hometown.

His grandfather Zhou Jiefu was a former Jinshi of the Qing Dynasty. He served as a scholar of the Hanlin Academy, a magistrate of Jinxi County in Jiangxi, a cabinet secretary, etc. Later, he was involved in an imperial examination bribery case and was sentenced to beheading. Although the prisoner did not actually carry out the execution, the Zhou family's family fortune was in decline. Lu Xun wrote in "The Scream: Preface":

"Is there anyone who has fallen into trouble from a well-off family? I thought that along the way, I could probably see the true face of the world; I want to go to N I entered K School, as if I wanted to take a different path, escape to a different place, and find a different kind of people. My mother had no choice but to get an eight-yuan Sichuan investment, saying it was up to me; but Yi cried, this happened. It is just a reasonable thing, because at that time, studying and taking exams was the right way. The so-called Westernization was regarded by the society as a kind of desperate person who had no choice but to sell his soul to the devils. He was doubly ridiculed and ostracized..."

In fact, Lu Xun's situation may have been experienced by many people. His hometown is not entirely gentle. On the contrary, it is often very harsh. Because we know each other well and are comparable to each other, you are more likely to see people who hate others and laugh at others in your hometown. In addition, when you were in your hometown, you may not have developed yet, so you were the weakest period in your life. It is possible to be crushed by various personnel and leave unpleasant memories.

However, even so, most people still have grievances and grievances with their hometown. People do not think their mothers are ugly, and dogs do not think their families are poor. They are all places of origin and cannot be easily disliked. The same is true for my hometown, and I often praise it exaggeratedly in front of outsiders, treating it as a unique capital that cannot be disadvantaged by others. Lu Xun, however, had a sharpness like a knife, and he also said that he would not forgive anyone. He once said, "I love my weeds, but I am still willing for the fire to rise from the ground, and the weeds will be with me. I love my weeds, but I hate them." This ground is decorated with wild grass. The underground fire is running and raging; once the lava erupts, it will burn out all the wild grass and trees, but I will be calm and happy. I will laugh. Sing”, for him, tenderness always has to give way to anger, and it’s not surprising that he has this attitude towards his hometown.

In many of Lu Xun's works, he describes his hometown, such as "She Opera" and "Hometown". Like all Chinese, he has deep feelings for his hometown, but at the same time he avoids Shaoxing. , wary of Shaoxing, showing an attitude of indifference and isolation from his hometown. Lu Xun left Shaoxing for the last time at the end of 1919. Until 1936, he never returned to his hometown in the last seventeen years of his life.

Lu Xun's feelings towards his hometown and his people were very complicated, including a kind of hatred. In addition to his disgust for the reputation of Shaoxing master and knife and pen official, there is also the huge shadow caused by his painful youth experience. However, he never returned to his hometown in his later years, and he may have hidden secrets that are unknown to the public.

First of all, the reason why Lu Xun did not return to Shaoxing in his later years was related to his wife Zhu An. Zhu An was also from Shaoxing. His family was wealthy and he was from a famous family. As we all know, Lu Xun's marriage was a painful failure. Not only was Zhu An three years older than Lu Xun, but his figure and appearance were beyond his acceptable limits, putting him in a desperate situation. The two of them are just like strangers in name only. Lu Xun didn't like his wife Zhu An. Many people kept tabs on it because Zhu An was a woman from the old era, illiterate, had bound feet, and did not have the same ideals and interests as Lu Xun. But the most fundamental thing I think is that Zhu An is not beautiful and lacks the basic charm of a woman. Lu Xun was not ignorant of Zhu An's external conditions before marriage, but he and Zhu An had never met. Before marriage, he may have had illusions, thinking that the wife he found for him with a mother's eyes should be acceptable to him, but he did not expect that The Zhu An we saw on the wedding night was thin and withered, with a pale complexion, a sharp chin, thin lips, a wide forehead, and some underdevelopment. One can imagine the distress and resentment in Lu Xun's heart. As long as he had the slightest affection for his wife, the twenty-six-year-old groom would not abandon his wife and mother on the fourth day of their wedding, and travel across the ocean with his second brother Zhou Zuoren to return to Japan.

Lu Xun paid almost no attention to his wife Zhu An. Once he had the opportunity, he would definitely flee his hometown to avoid the painful marriage. Just imagine: Lu Xun’s relatives and friends, classmates from his hometown, Zhu An’s natal relatives, etc. are all in Shaoxing. Suppose Lu Xun goes back. Based on his situation at the time, what will happen to Lu Xun if he or Zhu An’s relatives and friends ask him about his family situation and about Zhu An? To answer, with Lu Xun’s self-respect, this embarrassing topic is really difficult to face.

Another reason why Lu Xun did not return to Shaoxing in his later years was related to his family and brothers. When Lu Xun was thirteen years old, his grandfather Zhou Jiefu was imprisoned for examination fraud. After that, his father became ill for a long time and eventually died. The family declined rapidly. The young Lu Xun often visited pharmacies and pawn shops. The young Lu Xun once lived in a state of tension, anxiety and panic. He felt not only the psychological gap and economic pressure caused by life changes, but also spiritual depression. The contempt of acquaintances and even tribesmen had a profound impact on Lu Xun's psychology. Big impact.

From this, it can be seen that Lu Xun's failure to return to Shaoxing in his later years had complex personal and emotional factors that are difficult to describe.

Lu Xun definitely loved his hometown of Shaoxing, and it is understandable that he has a mixture of love and hate. As Ningbo people, most people identify with Shaoxing, Ningshao has the same origin, Ningshao Plains, Ningshao Merchant Gang, and Ningshao Steamship Company in Shanghai. The two places have a friendly relationship that is both independent and cooperative. Such an inseparable relationship is actually a family relationship. The same should be true in time, too close and understanding will lead to emotional entanglements... Among the people in Ningbo, it is precisely Yu Ci who is not very fond of Shaoxing people, which can explain the problem. Haha, but it cannot be said that Yu Ci does not like Shaoxing, because he is originally from Shaoxing. Understand each other

A master from Shaoxing was a so-called sharp-edged official. Lu Xun's family fell into decline because he was framed by a sharp-edged official due to a fraud case in the examination room. In order to revive their family reputation and become successful, the Zhou brothers studied in Japan and eventually became famous. The country people were afraid of officials, so Lu Xun went to the capital to become an official to show them (the Minister of Education was also considered an official). Even the ancestral house has been sold, which shows that it has uprooted its roots and never wants to go back. Because that is sad

Mr. Lu Xun said in "Reply to the Editor's Letter of Opera Weekly": "Almost all Chinese people cherish their hometown and ridicule the heroes elsewhere. Ah Q also has this temper. "Lu Xun must have had deep feelings for his hometown like others. He always recalled his life in Shaoxing during his youth in many of his later essays. These articles were mainly concentrated in "Morning Blossoms Picked Up at Dusk", but At the same time, he avoided Shaoxing and was wary of Shaoxing, showing an attitude of indifference and isolation from his hometown. The most obvious example is that Lu Xun left Shaoxing for the last time at the end of 1919. Until 1936, he never returned to his hometown in the last seventeen years of his life. Lu Xun and Xu Guangping have been living in Shanghai since October 1927. Shanghai is about 140 kilometers away from Shaoxing. Even in those days when transportation was not developed, this distance was not enough to prevent Lu Xun from returning to Shaoxing.

Lu Xun was emotionally separated from his hometown and was even unwilling to say that he was from Shaoxing. In addition to his jealous reputation as a master of Shaoxing and a master of swords and pens, this was also caused by his painful youth experience. The huge shadow made him hate his hometown and its people. However, he never returned to his hometown in his later years, and he may have hidden secrets that are unknown to the public.

First of all, I think that the reason why Lu Xun did not return to Shaoxing in his later years was related to his wife Zhu An. Zhu An was also from Shaoxing. His family was wealthy and he was from a famous family. She was the great-niece of Lu Xun's great-uncle Yutian, and the matchmaker was Aunt Qian, Zhou Yutian's daughter-in-law. The mother-in-law and daughter-in-law had a very good relationship with Lu Xun's mother.

As we all know, Lu Xun’s marriage was a painful failure. Not only was Zhu An three years older than Lu Xun, but his figure and appearance were beyond his acceptable limits, putting him in a desperate situation. The two of them are just like strangers in name only. Lu Xun didn't like his wife Zhu An. Many people kept tabs on it because Zhu An was a woman from the old era, illiterate, had bound feet, and did not have the same ideals and interests as Lu Xun. But the most fundamental thing I think is that Zhu An is not beautiful and lacks the basic charm of a woman.

Recently, my relationship with Shaoxing has become increasingly bad, but I don't know why. " (Volume 11 of "The Complete Works of Lu Xun", page 358) The old house in Shaoxing was sold because "it was forced by the tribe and had to be sold." There was probably something unpleasant happening with the tribe. Lu Xun lived there All the Xintaimen are his relatives, but due to family changes, they have become cold and snobbish. This can't help but make him feel an emotional hatred for the people in his hometown. He sells the Xintaimen Zhou house and takes over his mother Lu. Rui, his wife Zhu An, and his third brother Zhou Jianren's family went to Beijing to live with his second brother Zhou Zuoren in Badaowan. He had few emotional concerns and attachments to anyone in Shaoxing, so there was no reason why he had to go back to Shaoxing.

From this, it can be seen that Lu Xun’s failure to return to Shaoxing in his later years had complicated personal emotional factors that are difficult to explain.

Don’t the editors find this type of question very funny? Celebrity calligraphy and painting are just as ridiculous. Then I ask you, why did Lu Xun have to go back to Shaoxing? Couldn't he have felt the decline of his family when he was a child, and he also faced the death of his father in his youth. I think Lu Xun was serious about studying medicine at that time. After all, before, the Zhou family in Shaoxing City was a very prestigious Hanlin family. If you think about it now, most people with similar experiences to Lu Xun would return home in glory. The difference is here, I love what I love and hate what I hate. This is Lu Xun's character, although his income in Beijing at that time was still "rich". "In his later years, he became even more obsessed with watching movies. Compared with the social environment at that time, life can be considered a luxury. But China started with Qu Yuan as the first, and Lu Xun as the second, and the third has not yet appeared. Lu Xun's greatness can be compared with Qu Yuan Side by side.

Lu Xun was from Shaoxing, and he was also Chinese. He was worried about the future of the country and the people's mentality, and he had no intention of returning to his hometown in his later years (by the way, Lu Xun was only 55 years old when he died. There is no such thing as "old age"). In China, apart from Shaoxing and Xiamen, Lu Xun mainly lived in several major cities, including Beijing, Shanghai and Guangzhou, and the working, living, medical and other conditions were better and more convenient than in other places.

I like a saying that if you still miss a place, it’s because the place where your youth was buried or you can’t forget someone there. Lu Xun still didn’t return to Shaoxing in his later years. Maybe there were no childhood friends in Shaoxing that he missed. The place we were in has changed and we are no longer familiar and likeable. What can we talk about if we meet friends again? Maybe what is left is just a simple exchange of greetings. It will be even more awkward to go back because the relationship is not very good. . Hometown. If my parents are still alive, I will go back to my hometown every year. If my parents are not here, then my hometown will only be a beautiful memory.