Towards twilight is Zhang Ailing's first essay published in Santa Maria Annual in 1933. The following is Zhang Ailing's essay "Late Evening" that I shared, hoping to help everyone!
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in Zhang Ailing's essay "Late Evening" only has a lonely shadow, she is leaning on the railing; Her eyes, which just woke up from the dream of youth, still have some drowsiness, looking at this crazy world, as if at a loss to understand the mystery of life. ? Inscription
I read the article written by Zhang Ailing to myself again? "Twilight", she is a late bloomer. Facing this bustling spring, she feels that she is a latecomer of the times and that she has been abandoned by the times. Yes, in the law of nature which is recurrent all year round, how many friends around us can really find their ideal goals? Although there is a certain gap between reality and ideal, if we don't have the courage to work hard to find our own way, then this life will only be spent with the public. Many times, we always feel that we are mediocre people, just as the article says: Heaven has given people life and created society, but how can we only give us the most precious fleeting creative era of just over ten years? I am not afraid of old age, illness and death in my life, and I am most afraid of going through dozens of short spring and autumn periods without doing anything like this.
When we are in our youth, we always live in an impetuous industrialized society, rushing for jobs and rice bowls. Of course, it doesn't mean that life can't fight for it, but what we need more is a quiet heart that can look at the prosperous world around us, with a sensitive heart like Tao Yuanming and Shakespeare. Don't wait until you have been completely baptized by this society or changed the essence before you realize the importance of purity of mind. It's too late to get there. Life is like any creature in this nature, which has a smooth transition from birth at the beginning to gradual sophistication and then to decline. Finally, return to the soil. But when youth passes away like running water, I don't know how to spend the gray life of more than ten years in my twilight years. People are always used to thinking about what they have gained, what they have lost and what they are pursuing in their old age. And rarely think about it in youth. You have always given excellent young people to the professional society, or now, since you came to this world, your elders have been making blueprints for your future career. When you were a child, they planned it with their own hands, while when you were an adult, they designed it with their own hands. The elders only gave you advice as an auxiliary reference. I think we should think about how to spend our lives from this moment on. I found that it can be said that I personally experienced that college is the place where people are most likely to get old. Especially some low-level vocational universities. Its training goal is to take employment as the orientation and do order-based education. Of course, there are more technicians and the employment-oriented training in vocational middle schools is more obvious. Although this is the demand of society, or a trend of industrialized society, it always feels that this society lacks a little human touch and a little humanistic quality. I don't want to see more people become the old woman in twilight after decades.
Maybe we have all been brilliant, and the old age is a time to sum up our lives and recuperate. People always experience old age and death, and people are inherently mortal, either heavier than Mount Tai or lighter than a feather. We shouldn't hate the elderly like that old woman, because you have to go through that era yourself. Who will take care of yourself and pity yourself then? So she chose to hide, and didn't want her old relatives and friends to see her old self. Just like I don't want outsiders to see my haggard face. Nature is still going on, and the appearance can't stand the test of nature. What we need to do is to reflect more, think more, feel more, be more quiet and less impetuous in our youth. I believe it will play a great positive role in your life.
"Yellow-rolled lanterns, beautiful women dying, the same as before", please don't see the sadness of wrinkles on your face when a tear falls!
Zhang Ailing's essay "Towards dusk" II
The eventful east wind came to the world again in Ran Ran, and the pink couldn't support the red face, so she was drunk in the arms of Aunt Feng. The wicker leaned over the waist and scratched the hair of pedestrians, forming a cluster of catkins, like the light clouds falling from the feet of the spring god, forming a queue, imitating February. On the green grass of Sandy, there is a clear smell of alcohol, leaving behind the traces of tourists. Everything is exciting to the extreme, probably a little crazy? In this colorful and bustling spring!
There is only a lonely shadow, she, leaning on the railing; She has eyes, and the eyes that she just woke up from the dream of youth are still sleepy, looking at the crazy world as if she could not understand the mystery of life. She is a laggard of the times. In the warm world of youth, she has been abandoned invisibly. She no longer has the qualification and mood to follow those who stand in front of the times! When the sweet dream first woke up, all she had was emptiness and dismay; I am disappointed with the loss of my golden age. Cough! Heaven has given people life and created society, but how can we only give us the most precious fleeting creative era of just over ten years? In this way, it seems that the butterflies in ephemerality are admirable. They danced heartily among the flowers in a short spring, and once the flowers were all gone, they died happily in the spring, as if they had only come for dancing and pleasure all their lives, but they should be happier. Like human beings, after the death of youth like running water, how will the gray life of decades of storms be spent?
She, unconsciously, has fallen into the garden of old people. When a hint is discovered, how embarrassing it is! Moreover, how can you struggle with a movie-like life? Especially her, who hated the elderly ten years ago! She used to travel overseas, whistling in the mountains, skating in frozen ports and talking in wide seats. But now? The past is long, and the heroic actions of that year are like smoke clouds, and there is no trace. She can only sigh, and the youth's appearance and arrogance are gradually worn away. She is afraid of meeting her old best friend. Her changed appearance and temperament only add their surprise and secret discussion. In order to escape, I came to this secluded corner, and flowers, birds, wind and sun still made her worry. She began to curse the spring scenery.
the light is dark and green, which shows the desolation in the middle of the night. In a corner of the darkroom, a mournful and dignified chime was uttered, accompanied by a vague chanting sound, and her heart was full of thoughts. Then, a drop of cold tears flowed to her cold lips, blocking her trembling mouth that she wanted to talk but could not say.
Zhang Ailing's essay
I think Ziegler must have a pair of bright eyes. Because of his bright eyes, he found that the small animals he caught became dull, so he thought of ways to make them survive the winter instead of dying; Because he has a pair of bright eyes, he found some unknown theories in the fields of plastics and artificial rubber and won the Nobel Prize. Because he has a pair of bright eyes, he has meticulous observation ability, which has created his extraordinary life. I think we also need to have a pair of bright eyes to make the world clearer in our eyes and let the lamp of observation illuminate the road of achievement.
Because I have a pair of bright eyes, maybe I can save countless lives. If I will become a doctor in many years, can I treat my patients and pull those lives back from the cliff of death? I think so, because I have a pair of bright eyes. As a doctor, "observing the smell and asking questions" is the first, with a pair of bright eyes, we can find the cause from the tiny, and find a cure by peeling silk and cocoon. With a pair of bright eyes, observation has become my biggest assistant. Under the close observation, all the fog disappears and there is no hiding place for loopholes, so as to prescribe the right medicine and achieve the glory of a doctor. I wonder if Bian Que thousands of years ago also thought that having a pair of bright eyes was one of the reasons why he became a famous doctor?
Because I have a pair of bright eyes, maybe I can become a poet after many years. Poetry is not the product of out-of-touch floating in mid-air. The real poetry comes from life, from the daily necessities of ordinary people, from the delicacies and good wines of rich people, from the folk songs of herding children, from the shallow singing and humming of Liuxiang in Huajie, and even from the curses of drunkards on street corners. It is true and touching, and the poet is the one who expresses this series of stories in the most sincere and simple sentences, just because he has the most meticulous observation and only because he has a. I think I can be such a poet, because I have a pair of bright eyes and insight to see the whole leopard. I use my notes to record the ordinary and gather into the extraordinary, just as a broken butterfly has the most beautiful wings after the ordinary and keeps moving forward on the road of poets. I think the man named Liu Yong was also like that in the white dress.
With careful observation, I seem to see the budding achievements in the future. Because I have a pair of bright eyes, I have a careful observation, so I have the ability to pull my life back from the brink of death. Smiling with bright eyes, death detours. Because I have a pair of bright eyes, I have a careful observation, so I have the power to turn the ordinary into rain and dew to moisten people's hearts. Bright eyes are smiling and flowers are everywhere.