Snape lived timidly for ten years in the quarrel between his parents, bullied by Potter and others, followed Voldemort for ten years, and protected his beloved and rival child for ten years, and finally sent the child to a dead end. For 30 years, I deeply and painfully loved a woman who was destined not to belong to him.

When he was young, he was a skinny boy with long black hair and dirty clothes. His jeans are too short, his shirt is a strange blouse, and the tattered coat obviously belongs to adults. He is short and thin. From the outside, he is not a lovable child, and besides, he is cowardly, timid and eccentric, and no one likes him. (-Of course, it's not his fault that he is unhealthy and poorly dressed, which only shows that he was unlucky since he was a child. )

It was his nightmare and his shadow that his parents quarreled from childhood. Generally speaking, this kind of quarrel will lead to two results. First, when you grow up, you don't believe in love and reject marriage. Or longing for love. Although he is poor, he is obviously the latter. In his 40-year life, nearly 3/4 of his time was entangled in his love for Lily.

In his mind, he thinks that pure wizard blood is noble, but he is a mixed-race muggle and wizard, which makes him unable to find his own position. So that later, under the psychology of extreme inferiority, he adopted the seemingly arrogant way of calling himself "half-blood prince" to express himself.

He is very talented in potions, has a strong interest in dark magic and has profound attainments. Voldemort is his idol, which can be regarded as his pursuit and persistence in his career. But it offended the beloved woman, causing her to break up with him and finally turned to Potter, who he hated most. From then on, he turned grief into strength and wanted to do something, so he joined Voldemort and realized his ideals and ambitions. So as soon as I heard Professor Trelawney's prediction about idols, I immediately told his Lord Voldemort that I never thought about it, but I lost my beloved woman forever. From then on, I was bound by my own heart and spent my life in regret and self-blame.

Maybe he wants to atone, maybe he wants revenge. He was forced to be a "bad guy", a spy, and later even killed Dumbledore, which made everyone misunderstand.

In regret, he chose to protect Lily's child unconditionally and forever-the boy with Lily's eyes. Maybe it is a kind of happiness for him to look into Lily's eyes, but those eyes grow on his nightmare "Potter", which makes him miserable.

The most ridiculous thing is (Snape talking to Dumbledore)

"I spy for you, lie for you, and go through fire and water for you. Everything I did was to protect Lily? Potter's son. Now you tell me that he was raised to kill him like a pig-"

In love, Snape has been secretly in love with the little girl since she was nine or ten years old, but she was misunderstood and hurt her sister because of her poor expression, so she disliked her from the beginning. Then there were further differences because of the different ideas of making friends, career and right and wrong, and finally they broke up completely because of the unbearable words of the little girl. But no matter what Lily thinks of him, he regards Lily as his true love.

For Lily's sake, for her humiliation and condemnation, for her protection of that annoying child Harry, he betrayed his career and faith.

Snape shouted, "Call the Guardian!"

A silver doe jumped out from the tip of his wand. She landed on the floor of the office, jumped over the room and flew out of the window. Dumbledore watched her fly away. When the silver faded, he turned to look at Snape. Severus' eyes were full of tears.

"So long, still like this?"

"forever!"

. . . .

"Snape folded the page with Lily's signature and put it in his robe, then tore the photo in his hand in half, leaving the half with Lily's smile and throwing the half with Zhan Mu and Harry back to the ground under the cupboard ..." (-childish behavior)

Even the last words before dying turned out to be: Look ... at ... me-just because those eyes like Lily answered his "forever".

(-I've always found it hard to imagine that Snape, who was so disgusting in appearance and behavior in the first six films, was so pure in heart)

Even his death is meaningless-misunderstood by Voldemort, and only by killing him can we really use the elder wand. (-At least let him die heroically to protect Harry. )

"The blood on his face disappeared, at the same time, his black eyes suddenly enlarged. The snake's fangs pierced his neck He broke free from his magic cage in vain, his knees went soft and he fell to the floor. "

Such a sad, silent death !

"In addition to blood, there are some things leaked from Snape. Silvery blue, neither gas nor liquid, gushed from his mouth, ears and eyes. " (-This is very tragic) Spelled his last strength before he died, leaving the truth behind. Those memories poured out from all over the world, not only because his life was coming to an end, but also because it was the only chance in his life to tell the truth and his inner feelings.

Ten years of retreat, ten years of humiliation, ten years of evil, and ten years of preparation to send a child to die. For thirty years, he took his feelings as his own business and loved them alone.