This is a sentence from Lu You, a writer in the Southern Song Dynasty. He wrote "Speak Your Heart and Wait for Wan Li".
The full text of Complaining about the Years of Wanli Queen is as follows:
Recalling that year, in order to find opportunities to make contributions, I went to Liangzhou, the border guard, alone. Now the military life of defending the frontier fortress can only appear in dreams, but I don't know where I am in dreams. Dust covered the old mink fur.
The Hu people are still alive, the temples are frosty in autumn, and the affectionate tears are dry. Who could have predicted in this life that the original intention was to leave the enemy in Tianshan Mountain, but now he is destined to die of old age in Cangzhou!
Literal meaning of the full text:
Recall that Pengcheng Wanli went to the border to defend Liangzhou in order to find opportunities to make contributions. Nowadays, the military life of defending the frontier fortress can only appear in dreams. When I woke up, I didn't know where I was, and the dust was covered with mink and fur left by the old war.
Now, the invaders from the northwest have not been eliminated, and I am old, my temples are as white as autumn frost, and I can only let sentimental tears flow in vain. Who can predict this life, the heart has been fighting the enemy in the northwest front, but people have died of old age in Cangzhou!
Full text appreciation:
"In those days, Wanli sought to seal Hou, and one horse kept Liangzhou." In the first two sentences, the poet reappeared the heroic spirit of the former top gun and went to the front line of the enemy. "In those days", Lu You came to Nanzheng (now Hanzhong, Shaanxi) and threw himself into the curtain of Wang Yan, the ambassador of Fu Xuan, Sichuan. At the front, he personally participated in the encounter with the nomads from the army. "Searching for India" uses the allusion of Ban Chao's meritorious military service in a foreign country to write his ambition to serve the motherland and clean up the old rivers and mountains. "Where the dream closes the river, the dust darkens the old mink and fur". Lu You was transferred after only half a year in Nanzheng front. From then on, he closed the river defense and could only realize his wishes in his dreams from time to time, but he didn't know where he was when he woke up. Only the old mink put on the uniform, gray and black. A word "dark" turns the passage of time and personnel into a hazy picture of dust, and the mood is full of melancholy.
At the beginning of the last movie, the word "that year" wedged into the memories of the heroic military life in the past, and the tone was very high, and the dream was shattered, forming a strong emotional gap, and generosity turned into sadness. The following films further expressed the contradiction between ideal and reality, fell into a deeper sigh and turned sadness into depression. "Hu is still alive, it is autumn, and tears are streaming down his face." These three sentences are tight and short, and they will never succeed in life. Looking at the northwest, China sank, and the remnants were not swept; Looking back on life, the years are dark and the temples are pale; Looking back on the past, although the ambition is there, it is difficult to pay for it. The words "no", "first" and "empty" show deep feelings in comparison, and the more they turn, the deeper they get: who is not old in life since ancient times? However, the anti-Hu has not been extinguished, the achievements have not been achieved, and the years are passing. This makes people feel the bitterness of "getting old first" urgently. "Nothing has been accomplished, sadness permeates my heart, and life is the oldest." However, even if you take a few years off, it is difficult to achieve the cause of "eliminating rape and rejuvenating Han". "Zhumen sings and dances, and the stable horse is fat and the bow is broken." "There is Qian Shan outside the cloud, and no one has asked." Therefore, the tears of worrying about the country are just "empty" streams. The word "empty" not only wrote the inner disappointment and pain, but also wrote the dissatisfaction and indignation of the small court in the southeast corner of Pian 'an where the monarch and his subjects were drunk. "Who knows that in this life, my heart is in Tianshan, and I am old." The last three sentences summarize your life and reflect on reality. "Tianshan Mountain" refers to the front line against the enemy, "Cangzhou" refers to a secluded place, and "Who expected this life" refers to "Who expected this life". The poet did not expect that his life would be constantly in the conflict between "mind" and "body". His mind was fascinated by the battlefield, but his body was lying in a remote village. He saw the "Tiema Glacier", but it was only in his dream. His mind was lifted high and flew to the "Tianshan Mountain", but his body fell heavily in Cangzhou. The word "who expected" describes the innocence of the past, the disappointment at this time, "knowing the difficulties in the world when I was young" and "knowing the worries now". Ideal and reality are so incompatible, no wonder the poet sighs loudly. At the end of the sentence "The heart is in Tianshan Mountain, the old Cangzhou", it is first raised and then suppressed, forming a big turning point. The poet is like an eagle bent on fighting the sky, but his feathers break and fall to the ground, groaning in pain.