1. The life of Shi Tiesheng’s mother also suffered countless tortures because of her son’s disability. When Shi Tiesheng was paralyzed, his mother was no longer young. She began to have gray hair on her head because of Shi Tiesheng's legs. The hospital has made it clear that his condition is currently incurable. However, his mother was still focused on treating him. She looked for doctors everywhere, inquired about folk remedies, and spent a lot of money.

Every time she held on to hope religiously, but in the end, she was always disappointed as many times as she hoped. In the end, the mother finally gave up. Therefore, every time Shi Tiesheng was about to leave, his mother would help him get into the wheelchair silently and watch him rock the car and turn out of the path.

Every time, she stood in front of the door and watched her son walk away in silence. Once, he remembered something and came back, and saw his mother still standing there, still standing motionless, as if watching where her son's wheelchair had rolled, and she didn't react to her son's return for a moment.

She sent her son out in a wheelchair day after day, standing in the sun and cold wind. Later, she died suddenly, unable to survive because of her son's pain.

This is her only son. She hopes that her son can find a way to his own happiness, but she has not been able to help her son go on this path. She was so distressed that she couldn't stand it any longer. She was only 49 years old when she left her son in a hurry.

2. In 1998, Shi Tiesheng, who was paralyzed in his lower limbs, developed uremia from chronic kidney injury. From then on, Shi Tiesheng could only rely on hemodialysis to maintain his life. Dialysis patients need surgery to bring the arteries and veins from the kidneys to the surface. During dialysis, needles need to be inserted at three points in turn.

For 9 years and more than 1,000 acupunctures, Shi Tiesheng’s arteries and veins bulged into earthworm-like shapes. The poisonous blood in the body comes out of the bulging arteries, filters out the toxins through the dialyzer, and then returns to the body through the bulging veins. Three times a week, during each four-and-a-half-hour dialysis session, the blood throughout the body is filtered dozens of times—this is Shi Tiesheng's daily life.

3. In 1974, Shi Tiesheng found a temporary job at the Beixinqiao Street Factory in order to make a living. There is neither public medical care nor any labor insurance when working here. The work I do is painting landscapes, flowers and birds on antique furniture, and sometimes painting Easter eggs. If I work full time, I will be paid 30 yuan per month.

But in order to read and try to write, he only worked for half a day every day, and could only receive 15 yuan in one month. He had been doing this job for 7 years. But the next year, Shi Tiesheng suffered from serious kidney disease again. This time the doctor only left him with a damaged left kidney. Due to physical reasons, he had to quit his temporary job in a street factory and stay at home to concentrate on writing.

In 1979, due to paralysis of his lower limbs and severe damage to his kidney function, he had to use artificial leakage to urinate. Then, due to muscle atrophy, blood circulation is blocked, and sitting for long periods of time every day, bedsores develop, with the prospect of sepsis. In 1986, pain caused by his prostate forced him to stop writing and stay in bed all day.

In winter, his numb legs cannot withstand the cold. If they freeze, there is a possibility of necrosis; in summer, all the heat in the body can only be discharged from the upper body, and the prickly heat on his forehead never stops.

It was in such an environment that in 1980, his novel "Our Corner" was adapted into a TV series by Tian Zhuangzhuang, which caused quite a sensation in the film and television circles at the time; in 1983, he The novel "My Distant Qingping Bay" won this year's "Youth Literature Award" and "National Outstanding Short Story Award".

In 1984, his work "Grandma's Star" won the "Writer's Literary Award" and "National Outstanding Short Story Award" that year; his novel "Life is Like a String" was also adapted into a movie "Walking and Singing", carefully directed by Chen Kaige, has aroused strong responses.

4. When Shi Tiesheng's legs were initially paralyzed, someone always advised him to "be more optimistic, look at how beautiful life is" and the like. But such words had almost no motivating effect on Shi Tiesheng.

Shi Tiesheng said in his heart: "You are kidding, you are talking easy, the disease is not your fault." Especially when his legs were just paralyzed, life had almost lost any appeal to Shi Tiesheng. He thought: "If I can't stand up and run again, even if I can walk slowly, I don't want to live anymore."

At that time, the doctor told Shi Tiesheng that if his disease was a tumor, he might still be alive. Some help, otherwise, you will have to prepare to live in a wheelchair for the rest of your life. Therefore, Shi Tiesheng used his eyes to write two words on the ceiling of the ward all day long. One was "tumor" for tumor, and the other was "death".

Shi Tiesheng prayed in this way, hoping that if he wrote these two words thousands of times, it might come true, whether it was a tumor or death. Later, after it was confirmed that his disease was not a tumor, he only wrote one word: "death".

5. The root cause of Shi Tiesheng’s illness was when he was 18 years old. At that time, he went to Yanchuan County, Shaanxi Province to join a team. Once while grazing cattle in the mountains, he encountered heavy rain and hail, and developed waist and leg pain after a high fever. When he was 21 years old, Shi Tiesheng was admitted to the hospital because of a leg disease. It was his birthday. From then on, he never stood up again.

This incident seems to prove once again the fragility of life.

Just one exposure to the rain caused his legs to become paralyzed for no reason, bringing a life that was originally fresh and young to the point of withering and dying.

For Shi Tiesheng, although death was so tempting to him at the beginning of his paralysis, he even woke up every morning and felt depressed because he was still alive; however, he was still alive. In the first few years after his paralysis, Shi Tiesheng couldn't find a job or a way out, and suddenly he could find almost nothing.

Just like what he wrote in the article, he is irritable and irritable. In order to escape the real world, he would always roll his wheelchair and go to Ditan Park, which was still sparsely populated at that time, when normal people were working.

From dawn to dusk, spring and autumn go back and forth, spending time in this garden. He has been under every tree in the Temple of Earth. No matter what season, what weather, or what time of day, he has stayed in this garden. Sometimes I stay for a while and then go home, sometimes I stay until the moonlight shines all over the ground.