It is never the light of dreams that attracts me forward, but the abyss behind me that forces me to run.

February 27, 2018? Sunny Tuesday

Text/Chen Shihang

01

When I am confused, I Hide in a corner and have a big meal.

I thought it was just me who had this quirk, but later I found out that my friends also had it. Our biggest opponent is not others, but our own confusion. Don't always waste your best time in inconsequential confusion and stupidity.

A few days ago, I received a message: Master, you haven’t updated your article for a long time. I thought you didn’t plan to write anymore. To be honest, when I heard my friend say this, I was deeply moved and also very ashamed. For so many years, I have been using "confusion" as a shield. In fact, this is a habit of mine.

02

During this period, I encountered a "confusion period" in my writing.

I was no longer confident in my work, and some people began to dislike me and my work. Worse than this, I could neither write a satisfactory story nor find out the reason for my confusion.

Last night, Shu Ling said: "Hangzi, have you been stealing cattle these days? Why have you become lazy? How many days have you been late on the manuscript you owe me?"

Lingzi asked three questions in a row, and I was speechless for a while.

I said: "I have been very confused these days. I only focus on eating and sleeping."

She said: "I don't want to hear your explanation. Give me the manuscript before tomorrow night." I'll send it over."

I replied "OK" cautiously.

I had no time to get confused, so I had to hurry up and write the manuscript.

When we understand that any explanation is useless, we will understand that the result is the best proof. In many things, we look at the results rather than the process.

Now I know that I am not confused these days, but I am short of "goods" in my heart. I need to replenish energy and knowledge in time, rather than just resting on my old laurels.

03

After the college entrance examination, I spent three months in a daze.

The gap between dreams and reality gave me a slap in the face. The heroic words and passionate youth of the past no longer exist. All that was left to me was a scarred life.

I was really confused during that time. The dream that had been cultivated for more than ten years was almost destroyed in one day. I even went on a trip to relieve stress. Having no courage to move forward, no way to retreat, and being unwilling to live a mediocre life is just confusion.

Later, when I was visiting a certain university, I met a beautiful junior girl. Under her guidance, I slowly got out of my original predicament. The hardest thing is not that life tortures me in every possible way, but that I always have trouble with myself. There is no confusion at all, it’s just that I didn’t work hard enough.

Later, I grew up. But I have never met that senior sister again. Someone once said: Everyone who appears in our lives will teach us something. Since then, I have believed this statement to be true. Thank you for your presence on the days when I need strength.

It is never the light of dreams that attracts me forward, but the abyss behind me that forces me to run.

04

I no longer vent my negative emotions in front of others, and show my best side in front of everyone.

I wonder if you have ever been like me:

You obviously like your major, but you are still doubting your original choice; you have no worries, but you always want to make a fortune. temper. Sometimes someone else's ordinary words can easily arouse your own anger. After venting his emotions, he realized that he was a big asshole.

No matter who you are, there will be bad times in life, inexplicable loss, unexplained sadness, and those complicated pasts.

"Confusion" gives us time to think about ourselves and space for growth.

When we are alone, what we have to do is to slowly improve ourselves.

In Homer's epic poem "The Odyssey", there is a famous saying: "There is nothing more intolerable than wandering aimlessly."

Although the process of confusion is painful , but the growth after confusion is also amazing.

05

Youth is like this, we all grow up with pain, but we always show no hesitation.

If life is a practice, I would like to spend my prime years and have a rouge drunkenness with time, and I will not be drunk forever. No one's life is always full of happiness and joy, there is always some pain and sadness tormenting us.

There is a passage in "Downton Abbey":

We all have scars, internal or external, no matter where they are for whatever reason, they will not What makes you different from anyone else. Unless you dare not face it, hide the wound, and let it fester in secret, that will make you a patient, and no matter how you pretend, you will never be normal.

When we are confused, we will be hurt, give up, and suffer. If you get through it, everything will really be over.

Any time is not used to be confused, but to find a better self and live a better life.

If one day you feel confused, stop focusing on filling your stomach and store your own capital.

I am a little brother~

Let me tell you a secret

When you meet me, your body temperature will rise by 0.2°