"Legendary people's behavior is unimaginable, bohemian and arbitrary," Hugo said. So Camille's crazy play with mud as a child doomed her to an inevitable tragedy in her life.
Shortly after Camille met Rodin, Camille asked Rodin for a marble. She wants to carve a bust for her brother Paul. Rodin gave it to her. In order to express his gratitude, Camille carved a foot with slight blue veins and gave it to Rodin. It was this work that made Rodin immediately decide to ask Camille to be his assistant and participate in the large-scale sculpture work of the museum memorial.
One day, Camille was working on the scaffold. She accidentally saw Rodin fiddling with the plump naked female model in front of her with an ambiguous action. Camille was shocked. With tears in her eyes, she decided never to look for Rodin again.
The next morning, Rodin found Camille absent. His assistant shook his head and suggested hiring another one. "no!" Rodin refused without thinking. He decided to go to Camille himself. The carved feet on the table told him that she was an irreplaceable assistant and an amazing sculpture genius.
Rodin's visit made Camille's resentment and grievances disappear. She fell in love with Rodin and lived in the newly bought Pei 'an Garden in the suburbs of Paris. In this temporary home, which is more like a workshop, she sculptures day and night, alienating her family and friends and being almost isolated from the outside world. Inspiration, enthusiasm, skill and body, she dedicated everything to Rodin.
"How wonderful it is to win a kiss at the beginning of love when both hearts are sighing at the knotted knot!" I think of Campbell's poem. First love is like this. The beautiful Camille only has Rodin in her eyes at the moment. Time passes silently, and fate and fantasy hold its hand. The longer you stay, the deeper the pain.
Camille found out she was pregnant. She hesitated to stay alone in Pei 'an Garden. A whole day's work deprived her of a decent dress and a pair of decent shoes. In addition to dealing with friends in the art world, Rodin often stays with his fiancee Rosie. After Rosie had a big fight, Camille miscarried and suddenly disappeared. In her studio, Rodin was excited to find a nearly perfect sculpture of himself.
When Camille appeared again, she asked Rodin to choose between her and Rosie. Rodin said he couldn't drive Rosie away like a servant. Camille suddenly realized that she worked for him day and night and thought too little about herself. She will never have everything that other women have, only stones and sculptures, and only sculptures can distinguish her from Rosie.
Rodin is smart and selfish, but I don't want to criticize Rodin too much, because I also begin to understand the helplessness and humbleness of people in front of reality. "The wings of love will loosen when locked in a cage, and only when it is free will it fly with ecstasy." After the prosperity of reality approaches, men always seem to show their free and easy side. And Rodin's reality is so brilliant, is it doomed that he will transpiration himself with Camille's love? Rodin said that if Camier told him she was pregnant, she would definitely marry her. Will it? Maybe. But it is undeniable that when Rodin pointed out that Camier's works only show pain, he was artistic and pure sharp. However, who brought the pain? I know that at this time, others will always persuade me to say "this is life." And I always say with a smile that the morbid personality mentioned by Fromm in The Art of Love, who is not blind in love? Ordinary people are like this, and so are geniuses.
With the help of musicians Debussy and others, Camille's works were exhibited. She wants to fly again with a limp. People praised her works distorted by pain, but all the praise belonged to Rodin, because she was his student and he showed her how to find gold. Life has become a cross, she was nailed to it, and she will never get out of Rodin's shadow. Camille is more lonely than before, hiding in her own world. Loneliness and fear quickly turned her into a sculpture. But even a sculpture will not be abandoned like this.
People are always contradictory. On a rainy night, Camier secretly hid on Rodin's way home, just to see him? Just to bring back a little warmth to this cold rain? What kind of nostalgia and reluctance is this? Even if no one can fully understand her, he is the one who understands her best. Embarrassed, misunderstood and resentful, Camier, surrounded by many things, still needs emotional comfort, but she is tough and will never speak again.
Rodin came, but was turned away, and Camille in the door became extremely fragile and vulnerable. The success of Balzac's full-length portrait made Rodin visit again because Camille had inspired him. However, to his surprise, the reunion after such a long separation turned into a hurtful abuse. Camille, mentally unbalanced, is crazy. She suspected that all her misfortunes were due to Rodin's practical jokes. When the landlord offered to take back the house, Camille rushed to Rodin's house in grief and indignation, smashed his doors and windows with stones and shouted, "Rodin, get out of your kennel, what do I love you!" " The shrill cry echoed in the darkness.
Even on such a lonely night, I can hear its echo. The hysteria between Camille's words growled and the soul trembled. Wild, personality. I thought of Van Gogh and Copenhagen again, where I wrote all my life just to set up a memorial tablet of love. The artist's emotions seem completely inevitable, giving future generations some naked madness and temper. Sadly, the feelings of an artist are enough to leave a quagmire of earth-shattering appeals and inheritors in history, not to mention two. What's more, they once fell in love fiercely? Only the difference between Rodin and Camier is that one does not avoid success and the other does not avoid pain. Perhaps the reason why they surpass mortals lies in their inevitable courage.
sabotage
19 13 In the autumn, shortly after Camille's father's funeral, Camille was signed by a doctor in a mental hospital in Paris, which proved that she suffered from severe schizophrenia. At the moment when he was sent to the hospital prison car, Camille grabbed the window and the iron railing, and his eyes were full of desolation and fear. This level is thirty years. Rodin once said to her, "You have become my strongest enemy." Camille said, "I wish I had never known you …" A beautiful and persistent woman was tortured by a fatal love and her drowned genius. Camier used to be Rodin's inspiration, but as a woman, she can't get rid of the shadow of love, not to mention secular prejudice. In order to prove herself, she spent the rest of her miserable life fighting Rodin. In my opinion, love and fame may not be what she wants, but what she hates is Rodin's huge shadow. Rodin's fame, Rodin's control over her, Rodin's slight injury to her self-esteem, all these, plus hesitation in love. She finally went to extremes.
Camier's works are personal and related to her feelings, her thoughts and every nerve she feels. She is unwilling to accept the so-called "official" recognition. She wants to show her works at the World Expo, declare war on Rodin and confront the secular world. This may be a more detached hope, without established steps and kitsch sponsorship. However, she is a woman, and making such a move will only make it harder to be forgiven and harder to understand. But fortunately, the vision is changing, the works are changing, the life is changing, and the worship of art has not changed. Sculpture is her life, pure as flowers in the holy land, and can't defile others or herself at all.
Camille's genius has long since disappeared after being imprisoned for 30 years, and her love and hate have become a secret with fading out and forgetting. Not recognized by the world, and finally died of depression. I remember seeing such an ambiguous paradox: "The death of a genius is likely to bury the sorrow of history in the ruthlessness and indifference of the whole people." At this moment, I am deeply grateful to her granddaughter, who spent her life collecting Camille's works. If it weren't for her, how sad the gap in history would be.
It was not until 37 years after her death that the secular finally recognized her talent and reputation, but after all, she did not stand in her position and only called her "Rodin's lover". However, the decades when she was submerged were her losses, but were they not history and the world? Perhaps only at this time, people stopped talking and gossiping and began to recall and regret, but time was always fixed in Camille's desperate eyes, quietly waiting for history to return to justice and portraying it as a sculpture beyond everything.
Perhaps this is God's special treatment and love for a talented sculptor, and God has learned to carve sadly.