Snape’s tragic life

Snape’s life consisted of ten years of living cowardly in the quarrels between his parents and ten years of being a coward in the bullying of Potter and others. He lived on earth, followed Voldemort to do evil for ten years, protected the child of his beloved and his love rival for ten years, and finally sent that child to die. During those thirty years, he loved deeply and painfully a woman who was destined not to belong to him.

When he was a child, he was a skinny boy with too long black hair and dirty clothes. His jeans were too short and his shirt was a strange-style blouse. , the tattered coat is obviously that of an adult, with a disheveled face, short and thin. From the outside he is not a lovable child, and coupled with his cowardice, timidity and weirdness, no one likes him even more. (--Of course, it's not his fault that he is unhealthy or poorly dressed. It only means that he has been unlucky since childhood.)

Since he was a child, his parents have been endlessly obsessed with him. The quarrel is his nightmare, his shadow. Generally speaking, this kind of quarrel will lead to two results. One is that he does not believe in love and rejects marriage when he grows up; or he is extremely eager for love. Pity him, he is obviously the latter. In his roughly forty years of life, nearly three-quarters of it was entangled in his love for Lily.

In his heart, he believed that pure wizard blood was noble, but he was a mixture of Muggle and wizard, which made him unable to find his own place. So much so that later, with an extremely low self-esteem, he adopted a seemingly extremely arrogant way of expressing himself by calling himself the "Half-Blood Prince".

He is extremely talented in potions, has a strong interest in black magic, and has profound attainments. Voldemort is his idol, which can be regarded as his career success. pursuit and persistence. However, he offended the woman he loved, causing her to break up with him and eventually turn to Potter, whom he hated most. From then on, he turned his grief into strength and wanted to do something great, so he devoted himself to Voldemort and realized his ideals and ambitions. So as soon as I heard Professor Trelawney's prophecy about idols, I immediately told Lord Voldemort. Without thinking, I lost my beloved woman forever. From then on, I carried the shackles of my soul and lived in regret and self-blame. lifetime.

Perhaps in order to atone for his sins, or perhaps to take revenge, he was forced to be a "bad guy", a spy, and later even killed Dumbledore, causing everyone to misunderstand him. .

In the midst of self-blame, he chose to protect Lily's child unconditionally forever - the boy with Lily's eyes. Perhaps, being able to look into Lily's eyes was a blessing for him, but those eyes were on his nightmare "Potter", causing him to suffer even more.

The most egregious thing is (Snape and Dumbledore's dialogue)

"I spy for you, for You lied and put yourself in danger. Everything I did was to protect Lily Potter's son, and now you tell me that you raised him just to slaughter him like a pig-"

In terms of love, Snape has been secretly in love with the little girl since he was nine or ten years old. However, because of his poor expression, he was misunderstood and hurt the little girl's sister. Therefore, Disliked from the start. Then there were further differences due to differences in friendship, career, and different concepts of right and wrong. Finally, they broke up completely because they accidentally cursed the little girl with unbearable words. But no matter what Lily thinks of him, he regards Lily as his true love.

For Lily, he betrayed his career and faith, for her to endure humiliation, accept the infamy, and be understood by no one for almost his whole life, and for her to protect that annoying child Harry.

Snape shouted: "Calling the Guardian!"

A silver doe jumped out of the tip of his wand. She landed on the office floor, jumped across the room, and flew out of the window.

Dumbledore watched her fly away. After the silver light faded, he turned to look at Snape. Severus's eyes filled with tears.

　"It's been so long and it's still like this?"

　"Forever!"

　. . . .

"Snape folded up the page with Lily's signature and put it into his robe, then tore the photo in his hand into two halves, leaving Lily's smile. The half with James and Harry was thrown back to the ground under the cupboard..." (--childish behavior)

Even the last words before death One sentence turned out to be: look...at...me - just because those eyes like Lily answered his "always" forever.

　(--It has always been hard for me to imagine that Snape, who had such a disgusting appearance and behavior in the first six books, actually had such a pure heart)

Even his death seemed meaningless - Voldemort misunderstood that only by killing him could he truly use the Elder Wand. (--At least let him die heroically to protect Harry)

"The remaining blood on his face disappeared, and at the same time, the black eyes suddenly enlarged, and the snake's fangs Penetrating his neck, he struggled to free himself from the magic cage that held him, his knees weakened, and he fell to the floor."

"It was so miserable. A silent death? !

　"In addition to blood, something was leaking from Snape's body. Silver-blue, neither gas nor liquid, coming from his mouth and ears. , and welling up in his eyes" (--this is quite tragic). He tried his best to leave the truth behind with the last bit of strength before his death. Those memories came pouring out from all over the place, not only because he was dying, but also because this was the only chance in his life to tell the truth and his inner feelings.

Ten years of cowering, ten years of humiliation, ten years of doing evil, ten years of preparation to send a child to death. For thirty years, he had treated his feelings as his own business and loved alone.