However, this fact took me three years to doubt and wait. From Hawu to Haqi, there is nothing.
I don't know how long it will take to believe and accept.
It can be seen that Rowling in The Order of the Phoenix is trying to destroy the image of Sirius. However, after she created this image in hp3, Sirius was out of her control. Some people say that anyone who has seen HP admires him even if he doesn't like him. Perhaps this is an exaggeration, but there are so many people who love him that all his shortcomings can be regarded as advantages.
Besides, I never regard pride and conceit as a shortcoming. I think wisdom can make up for all shortcomings except personality, especially pride.
He tried his best to get rid of everything that this family brought him, but he also tried his best to get rid of the pride in his bones and the irreversible fate that this family brought him.
More than ten years ago, God punished his pride-with the dark and painful years of Azkaban 12 years, with his life's pain, guilt and regret, and with the loss of nothing but faith. However, he is still proud, still conceited, still holding his head high, which he has never given in. Even if it's ruined.
As a result, he was punished more thoroughly, and his shining life disappeared on the other side of the curtain. At the moment when he was most reluctant to leave, on the battlefield where fierce fighting was inseparable-in the most abrupt, incredible and unacceptable way.
Just like his usual style.
Once, he was the most handsome, intelligent and troublesome student;
At one time, he was the most evil, crazy fanatic who regarded human life as dirt;
Once; He is the most painful, sober and despised prisoner;
Once; He is the most affectionate, responsible and willing to give everything. ...
No matter when and where, his life is always full of all kinds of miracles and all kinds of incredible. Some people love him, some people hate him, some people despise him, some people respect him ... In his short life, he has tasted all kinds of tastes of life, including sweetness and bitterness, bitterness and joy, and depression. Short, but wonderful enough, rich enough, thrilling enough-just like he likes it.
Yes, he's dead.
But I think, if he appears again, he will still laugh proudly like a dog barking, or he will despise everything he once despised so proudly, or he will arrogantly yell out to Kreacher ... because he is Sirius.
I still can't forgive Rowling for giving Sirius so many deep disasters, unspeakable pain and irreparable struggles. He is smart, loyal, brave, persistent, firm and upright, loves friends, yearns for freedom and pursues light ... He is too proud to be ignored.
He sent letters with colorful tropical birds. He gave Harry a broomstick that he had been longing for for for a long time. He gave him a jumping owl to make up for Ron's lost pet. He didn't forget to give it to Harry when he fled. He agreed to his signature in Hogsmeade village. He knelt in front of the stove to help Harry solve the problem regardless of the discomfort of the cold ground. ...
Perhaps this is the story. There must be someone who will be heartbreaking and unforgettable after many years. Unfortunately, this person is Sirius, Sirius we love.
I have imagined his deep eyes for countless times, and imagined his forbearing but uncontrollable feelings-flashing intelligence and cunning, hazy loneliness and depression, helpless heart pain, and angry impulses. ...
His eyes were supposed to shine like the stars in the sky, but they were dim. What did I do wrong? He thought, read and shouted again and again, but he couldn't find the answer.
Yes, he's dead.
Will he throw his black hair to his forehead and proudly say that he doesn't need to be remembered-what about Harry? Can he really accept Harry's forgetfulness?
For him, Harry is a young and frivolous time, Harry is a free and unrestrained time, Harry is a cold and helpless day alone, Harry was locked in a cage yesterday with his heart in the field, Harry is a man who has seen the light of day and raised hopes today, and Harry is a sunny and happy man tomorrow. ...
Harry was his deepest concern, the most difficult mourning and the most complicated gaze before he left ... would it be easier for me to die without you? Can you not relive your heart before you die? Can you get eternal peace? Can you smile and leave safely?
Harry was everything to him, but he was forgotten.
Yes, he's dead.
Harry's impulsiveness, Snape's meanness, Dumbledore's secrecy, Kreacher's cunning deception ... others' mistakes became his reasons for leaving.
There is a kind of loyalty, which should be interpreted with life; There is a spirit that needs to be forged with blood; There is a profession that needs to be completed by death.
In that place where birds are singing and flowers are fragrant, there are James, Lupin, Lily, Tonks and their own happiness. What about Sirius? Where is his happiness? I think after all this, he really wants to smile and be happy because of his friend's happiness.
Yes, he's dead.
But so what? So what? Nothing can change-he is an eternal legend in this world.