At that time, he was not Lao Ling. He is our monitor and can be the vice president of the Student Union. Flowers and plants around him, unbridled joy. Apart from dancing, I am not very conspicuous in my class. Hair is not so long and yellow, just looking at him silently. I like this.

He and I were assigned to a group of an intangible performance class. I remember clearly that the theme of that class was "Zoo". Accustomed to bossing around, he asked me to play the gorilla who just woke up, and he went to play the tiger who was foraging around. I was very dissatisfied with his role assignment, so I quarreled with him at that time. I clearly saw his eyes wide open, and when I saw my head, he was speechless for a moment.

When I went back to the dormitory that night, he had been waiting for me at the entrance of the dormitory for a long time. Scratched his head, smiled and said, it's really hard to keep you waiting. I didn't do the right thing in class today. What you criticize is that I will pay attention to it in the future. Well, can I always play the opposing side in class in the future? Seeing his embarrassed appearance, I smiled at that time. I said, monitor, your image is very much like that gorilla who didn't wake up. I raised my hand and waved like an orangutan. He was also very happy and smiled. Next time you shoot a tiger, it's a tigress. I said fuck you, so I gave him a stick. This is the first time I touched him.

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Later, I asked him, the beauty of the film academy is like a cloud. Why do you have a crush on me? He solemnly raised his head and thought for a moment, saying that the devil is rational and God tends to be eternal. I laughed at the sentence you copied from the reader and said, how many girls have been cheated? He hugged me and said you were the first.

More often, I called him Chow Yun Fat, and he said I was Brigitte Lin. I said it's a good thing you're not in Qin and Han dynasties, otherwise people who love each other can only love each other forever, but they can't be together forever. He asked me cunningly, how do you know they are in love? How do you know that Brigitte Lin will be together for life now? Later, when watching a Chinese Odyssey, Stephen Chow asked Xia Zi if the fairy was Brigitte Lin, and joked that she was from Qin and Han Dynasties. The audience laughed, so did I, and so did he. Suddenly I remembered what the screenwriter teacher told us. Any plot can be invented, not only on the screen but also in real life, including love.

But Lao Ling won't. We often snuggle up on the west lawn of the dormitory building in sunny afternoons. I will touch his hair from time to time, fearing that you Shaanxi people will not all lose your hair. Look at Guo Da. I don't want you to fall like that. He said that Shaanxi people's representatives wanted to see Zhang Yimou, which was our pride. I grinned. The old scoundrel didn't have much hair.

At this time, I will hug him tightly and ask Chen Jiao, Brigitte Lin is too far away, and ask you a near one. Do you think Zhang Yimou really loves Gong Li? Why does true love part? Lao Ling said that love must be a gradual process, and I think Lao Mouzi still loves Gong Li deeply until now. He left because he loved her. I said I didn't understand, and he said he didn't understand either. On the road of love, we are all students, and the academic system is a lifetime.

Sometimes we can see Huang Lei and Sun Li strolling around the campus on bicycles in the distance. I will act like a coquette and shake his arm and say I want it, too. The next day, he really got a second-hand bicycle from the repair shop in Xitucheng, cleaned it, let me sit on the front beam and took me for a ride. He can ride very fast, and the autumn wind can blow my hair. At this time, he will loudly use the words of their Xi people: through your black hair and my face, it is safest to marry a woman with a big mouth! This scene is like an old yellow film, and the lens rattles. We pass through the picture and disappear into the depths of the scattered plane leaves. ...

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I said I didn't want to be an actor after meeting you. I want to be Lao Ling's wife. He said, then let's get married and get married after graduation. I asked him if this was a proposal? What about the diamond ring? He said the diamond ring is not available yet. I'll get you a meal ticket for life, and you can be an aunt at home and I'll keep it until I die. I said angrily, you are going to die!

In his senior year, he began to receive some print advertisements and sometimes invited me to an advertising company. The boss of the company will be very smooth. Miss Yao belongs to the uninhibited type, which is more suitable for us to find a personable product. So I can only watch him take pictures. In the studio called by the photographer, Lao Ling lost the prestige of the student union cadres and put on various shapes, which were very beautiful. Seeing that the man I love is really manipulated like an orangutan, I suddenly feel that the world is ironic and realistic. I began to think that I couldn't give up my dream. I love him and I should share it with him.

I want to go to work, even for love.

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We are really married, just two months after graduation. In Xi 'an, his hometown, I received a lifetime meal ticket he promised me. Similarly, he has a share. I smiled brightly at the photos on the meal ticket. I tried to tighten my mouth, but it was still brilliant. I know that from this moment on, we will really start to work hard for the problem of eating. After the banquet, we returned to Beijing. At that time, he had eaten with several directors, and several small roles were quite suitable for him. Because of my unrestrained temperament, I didn't find the right crew to take me in until I met Shang Jing.

As if it happened overnight, Guo Furong was angry because I needed to wear sunglasses when I went out on the street. Lao Ling said with a smile, my four-year drama is not as good as your four-month sitcom. I said you were jealous. He said no, this is something to celebrate. I still have the psychological quality of becoming famous overnight after eating this bowl of rice. I didn't expect it to be you. I said you were still jealous. He shook his head gravely. He really didn't. Let's celebrate. Let's call some classmates to celebrate today.

That night, Lao Ling drank a lot of wine and talked a lot with the upper bunk. After graduating from the upper berth, she went to Beijing People's Art and played several diners in the new edition of Teahouse. When he left, all the ladies in the upper bunk laughed and asked Lao Yao to take care of you more in the future. If you have any good books, you can introduce them to your brothers. I said yes, yes. What did Lao Ling tell you? He said nothing, "a heartfelt word!" He played a Beijing opera coloratura and walked away with the wall.

Since then, I seldom go home and take many plays. I try to keep my mouth shut when I laugh, because I want to get rid of Guo Furong's shadow. However, when Lao Ling comes to visit the class, she will persuade me to laugh impudently. Do not accept. Here is your label. Whether it's a fashion drama or a costume drama, what people want is your heartless feeling. Rational words are tasteless! That's why I love you.

After so many years of marriage, in the crew, Lao Ling talked about the reason why he loves me.

After he left, I was at a loss. On the set, he said the reason why he loved me. I don't know if this is an act. Because everyone is acting, you know, staying in the crew for a long time often leads to a sense of time and space disorder.

Lao Ling said she loved me, hehe, I haven't said that for a long time.

five

I once discussed love with the god of wealth. Lao Ning can still radiate shrewd wisdom behind deep lenses. His words made me a little unforgettable. He said that even the best love will be smashed by pots and pans sooner or later. I said we don't cook at home. He said don't be smart. You know what I mean!

Yes, I understand.

Life is very realistic, and Lao Ling sometimes can't hold on. When not playing, shopping together and being stopped at Xidan to ask for autographs and photos is Lao Ling's most annoying plot. Sometimes I refuse the mobile phone handed by passers-by asking for photos, and quickly pull Lao Ling away. At this time, Lao Ling was still blaming me. You can't treat your fans like this. What's wrong with taking pictures of others? I said I only had a few days free, and we were going to live a life of two people for a few days. He would say angrily, how is that possible? We can't live a leisurely life any longer.

I know this gap will be unbearable for a man with high self-esteem. He has always supported me before, but now I feel that no one will feel better if I turn it upside down, let alone my relatives. "Have you ever had jet lag? It is this feeling. " Sometimes I run on him. However, his demeanor as the president of the student union is still there, and he will argue with me: "I'm sorry, Yao Dawei, but I'm flying from Xi 'an to Xiamen as far as possible, so I don't need jet lag." "I don't need you to introduce me to the future crew. I don't need anyone! "

From Xi 'an to Xiamen, I remember that before we decided to get married, we went home together and talked about getting married. Was it yesterday?

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I seldom tell my insiders about us. Although he refused, I still had the opportunity to recommend Lao Ling to the director I worked with, saying that he was our monitor and president of the student union. If I can play so well, he will be better. A director once told me that you were too simple in the morning. Now acting is not about acting, but about the audience's cognition. I don't have the courage to use new people. You're the director. Do you know that?/You know what?

So I will still be at a loss, although I vaguely feel that there is a visible and intangible glass between us. When I am alone, I really hope that he is Chow Yun Fat and I am Chow Yun Fat's wife, so that a balanced seesaw can support a family. But things are always unsatisfactory. God is joking with us. It has made me a Brigitte Lin, but my beloved Lao Ling is still here, in Xitucheng, hoping to ride his second-hand bicycle and squeak back the best autumn in Beijing.

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When I walked out of Xi Civil Affairs Bureau, I found Lao Ling relieved. He said it might be because he went back to his hometown. The flowers and grass here make him feel very kind. He said he could hear the heartbeat of the ancient city wall. I grinned, just like you said when you were in Xitucheng. He was silent, but he still held my hand. I didn't break free. I told him lightly that when I was at school, you let me read Zhang Ailing's novels. You said you liked half-life best. Now I suddenly remembered what Man Zhen said to Shi Jun. We can't go back. Lao Ling didn't let go, looked at the distance and said, Remember the DV drama we filmed when we graduated? "One year equals a lifetime". Now that I think about it, it is really a prophecy. Actually, seven years is neither too long nor too short. We seem to be confirming a sentence, the devil will be rational, and God will tend to eternity. I shook my head, until now I still don't understand, even though I still love each other deeply, I still don't understand the meaning of what he said. But we really can't go back. I suddenly thought of the topic of Zhang Yimou and Gong Li that Lao Ling told me. He loves her deeply and wants to leave her. I understand now. It took me seven years to learn to love all my life. But I still don't seem to understand. Help Lao Ling, you are lying to me again!

He said that no matter what you think, cheat or not, I am here, not sad or happy; I lie, or I don't lie to you, love is there, and I won't come or go; You love me, or you don't love me, love is there, neither increasing nor decreasing; You follow me, or you don't follow me, my hand is in your hand, don't give up; Come to my arms, or let me live in your heart; Silence, happiness, love and silence ...

201165438+1October 30th

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