Chinese is extensive and profound, so there are two ways to say this sentence. One is about others: it means that you are embarrassed to say what you want to say. Can others understand what you want to say? If you feel embarrassed to do it, then don't do it? The tone is a little embarrassed, full of disgust! There is also mocking myself and trying to do something, but because I feel embarrassed, I feel that I have not expressed what I want to say clearly. After thinking about it, I wonder if others can understand what I want to say. I was a little angry with myself, saying that since I felt embarrassed, I didn't want to do it, so I thought I was a raw meal!