Really. I was desperate before I finished reading it. It's too long, man. You should forget it. Be strong. Emotion is a slippery thing. She is so unpredictable that you are the only one who will suffer in the end.

The world is big and there are many women. Don't get into trouble ... if you ignore her, she will come back to you. Can you believe it? But ah. If her heart is not yours, it will never be yours. She came to you when she was lonely and needed you. Will she accompany you when you are lonely?

Protect yourself. Forget that. Even if you don't want to, you will give up sooner or later. I have been there before. Just like you.

Remember: it is better to end the pain than to be ambiguous, and even licking the wound alone is better than being hurt by others.