In this life, do you like people you can't get?

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In Jin Yong's novel The Legend of Flying Fox, there is a clever woman named Cheng Lingsu, who is a close disciple of the Poison King.

She doesn't ask about Jianghu, but just bends down to arrange flowers and plants every day. Life is bleak, but she is also happy.

It happened in an ordinary afternoon when Pei Hu, a young man who likes to show chivalry, broke into her world.

Pei Hu stepped forward, bowed to her and asked, "Miss, which way is the medicine to Wangzhuang?"

She made a bad first impression on Pei Hu. "Her skin is yellow and her face is sallow. It seems that she can't eat all the year round. Her hair is yellow and thin, her shoulders are cut and her figure is very thin. She is a poor girl in a poor village and has been raised since childhood. "

The only thing that looks good to her is her eyes. "A pair of eyes bright as black as paint. If you look up like this, you will be completely naked. "

This year, she 16 years old.

Pei Hu originally just wanted to ask the way, but what he got was this answer: "You go to the cesspool over there and fill it with clear water and water the flowers for me."

Because he wanted to be alone, Hu Fei poured dung and water according to his words, patiently watered the dark blue flowers shaped like shoes, and watered all the blue flowers in the field twice.

At this time, the sunset has fallen into the ravine, and the golden light is reflected on a big blue flower, which is brilliant and gorgeous. Hu Fei couldn't help praising: "These flowers are really beautiful!"

Cheng Lingsu picked up two blue flowers and threw them at him: "If you say these flowers look good, I will give you two."

It was such an encounter that the girl's heart in Cheng Lingsu bloomed quietly like those blue flowers.

When they met again, Cheng Lingsu was very happy to learn that Pei Hu had been carrying these two flowers, but they had withered and not been thrown away.

She said to Pei Hu, "My blue flower is a new experimental variety. I finally owe it to you and didn't throw it away on the way."

Pei Hu said with a smile, "This flower is beautiful in color."

She had a little mood: "fortunately, this blue flower looks good." If it is not beautiful, you will throw it away, won't you? "

Pei Hu didn't know what was right at the moment. He just said, "Well, even if it's not beautiful, it's from you. I watered it again and won't throw it away casually. "

But Pei Hu thought, "If this blue flower is really ugly, will I still hide around?" ? Is it because of Huamei that Brother Zhong and I were saved? "

Not beautiful is Cheng Lingsu's original sin.

She is not even as good as that flower, and can't get Pei Hu's pity. I finally got up the courage to express my love to Pei Hu, but Pei Hu offered to be her brother and sister.

She loves Pei Hu, but she has no chance to speak. She can only kowtow twice more than eight times.

Finally, in order to save Pei Hu, she was desperate to drink poison for him and lost her life.

Before she died, she stood up slowly, looked at Pei Hu with infinite tenderness, took out two kinds of powder from the medicine bag, put it on the back of his hand, and took out a yellow pill and stuffed it into his mouth.

She said in a low voice, "My master said that all three kinds of virulence are incurable diseases, because he only knew that there was no doctor in the world who wouldn't give his life to save patients. Eldest brother, he doesn't know me ... I will treat you like this ... "

From The Legend of Flying Fox to Flying Fox in Snow Mountain, Pei Hu continued to be chivalrous, and met Yuan Ziyi and Miao Lan Ruo, who grew up from a teenager to a young man with a beard. I wonder if there is a moment when he will think of Cheng Lingsu who died to save him?

At that time, Cheng Lingsu dressed him up as a big shot. He said, "Second sister, I look good like this. I will really grow such a beard in the future. "

She wanted to say, "I'm afraid your sweetheart won't agree," but when the words came to her lips, she finally held back.

Another woman who has the same infatuation as Cheng Lingsu, but can only become sworn friends with her sweetheart, is Cheng Ying in The Condor Heroes.

In the battle between the Stonehenge and King Jinlun, Yang Guo was seriously injured. Seeing that the law was about to be broken, he lost his life. Cheng Ying came to the rescue in time.

Yang Guo mistook her for a little dragon girl in a coma and hugged her. This hug made her feel ashamed and anxious, but she couldn't escape Yang Guo's pleading.

Cheng Ying relented and let Yang Guo hug her, just reminding her softly, "I'm not your aunt."

From that moment on, her affection for Yang Guo was officially upgraded to liking. From that moment on, there was a "big brother Yang" in her heart.

However, Cheng Ying is, after all, a gentle and considerate Wen Ya woman. Not as sharp and lively as Lu Wushuang, not as arrogant as Guo Fu.

Even if I like Yang Guo and know that he has someone else in his heart, I will no longer show my heart easily, but hide my affection like water.

During Yang Guo's injury, Cheng Ying took care of his daily life and diet. Bring the food to his bed and serve it to him. Although bamboo chopsticks and pottery bowls are rough, they are brand new.

She always spends a lot of time quietly cooking ordinary vegetables, tofu, eggs and small fish, which are very delicious.

She spoke to Yang Guo with three points of kindness and three points of respect. She always covers up her worries lightly and comforts him by saying, "Go to your aunt when you get well."

Yang Guo said that the little dragon girl is the best beauty in the world. If it is Guo Fu or Lu Wushuang, it will lead to jealousy and ridicule. Cheng Ying followed him and said, "This must be the case. She is not only beautiful, but also extremely kind to you. "

The person she likes is around, so she can only write "See a gentleman, I don't like it" repeatedly on the paper. This restrained feeling and calmness are admirable.

She is very careful, she can detect all the friendship between Yang Guo and Xiao Longnv and Guo Fu, and of course she knows all the impossibilities between her and Yang Guo.

She knew it was a secret love, but she was still willing to "miss Yang Guo for life at first sight".

Finally, Yang Guo saw the "Sixteen-year Covenant" carved by the little dragon girl on the edge of the cliff, and decided to take the Lysimachia and marry them.

Lu Wushuang almost cried when he heard the news. Cheng Ying was sour, but said nothing.

When Yang Guo left, she was shocked and said to her, "He ... he finally went."

Lu Wushuang ran to the top of the mountain and looked around, followed by her. As far as they can see, they can only see the endless Yunshan, where is Yang Guo?

Lu Wushuang felt very painful in his heart and choked up, "Where did you say he was ... where did he go? Can we see him in the future ... in the future? "

She comforted: "Third Sister, you see these white clouds gather and gather, disperse and disperse, and life is on and off. Why bother you? "

At this point, she couldn't help crying.

Buddha said that people have eight sufferings, namely, birth, old age, illness, death, resentment, hatred, love, separation, exuberance of five yin and ambition.

The first four are physical pain; The last four are mental pain.

And this "can't be longed for" means that what you originally longed for can't be close, you can only wait and see from a distance, or even can't see it. But you are still wishful thinking, and you can't stop being happy alone.

The person you love, wearing armor and holding a sharp knife, stands there expressionless and doesn't know who you are thinking. You face your heart again and again and want to cry without tears.

Or, you don't think you deserve the person you like. It's like standing under a rainy roof. You can't go up and say "Let's go together" because you don't even have an umbrella.

I fell in love with each other, but lost time, failed to go on, but did not live up to our meeting. There is no chance to start at all, but it is a hundred times more painful than ever.

Sometimes loving someone is like an oral ulcer. Although you know it will hurt, you can't help licking it.

But Lin also said, who can make Mount Fuji private with love?

Liking someone is like liking Mount Fuji. You can see it, but you can't move it The only way to move Mount Fuji is to walk there by yourself. The same is true of love. Shopping is enough.

You like flowers, there is no guarantee that they will bloom undefeated; You like the wind and can't let it stop; You like the cloud, you can't let it cover you forever; You like the sea, you can't jump into it; You like a person, and you can't stay with him all your life as you wish.

If you are not ready to die alone and want someone who will come out later to come into your life, you must bid farewell to the past and forget the person who can't get it.

Love is that mountains and seas are separated and uneven. Forgetting the old is loyalty to the new.

Shallow joy is like a pale dog, deep love is like a long wind. Only when you say goodbye to the wrong can you meet the right one.

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