I write New Year's articles every year. Even if I don't have any ideas, I will keep writing, because these words are not only the existence of a sense of ceremony, but also a reflection and summary of my year. Similarly, I also hope that this year's experience will make me grow and gain something.
Some people say that 20 18 is not a very friendly year, and we are caught off guard by too many things lost after 1990. My favorite singer retired, the author who watched it died, my idol disappeared, and even the coordinates of my childhood were gone.
People around us keep leaving, as if an endless note has been affecting us, and those false efforts and false anxiety are mixed in.
In fact, each of us has a long way to go, and it is normal to encounter some trivial things that hinder our life and work. Therefore, you don't have to rush for success, and you don't have to be too anxious, because some successes don't necessarily shine at the beginning.
02
This year, I jumped from the traditional industry to the Internet industry.
Staying up late is becoming more and more serious, and inner anxiety is becoming more and more obvious. I feel how the internet industry is racing against time to seize every user, and I have also witnessed many successful and failed entrepreneurs on the road.
When I first came into contact with the internet, I was very hard and suspicious. Apart from intense overtime, I doubt whether I should start over. Uncertainty has seriously hit my confidence.
It is said that everything is difficult at the beginning, but once you take the first step, it will be a brand-new state, and you may get unexpected results. In many things, the most difficult thing is not the process of advancing, but the determination to plan and plan to start, as well as the preparatory actions for practice.
I have a colleague's signature on WeChat: 1 A construction worker who successfully changed jobs three times in two years.
Before he graduated, he was arranged on a deserted construction site, dealing with reinforced concrete all day, not to mention the internet, and even the abbreviation of which companies BAT is, I am afraid I can't answer it.
Later, I worked as a takeaway brother of the US group, and also sold health care products to the old lady and the elderly in the hotel. Later, he and I became colleagues, and studied hard every day about products and operations.
Although he hasn't made great achievements yet, I believe him: find your own position and work hard slowly, and life is the real beginning.
03
This year, I tried to catch up with my starting line.
We ran forward anxiously, fearing that we might fall down carelessly. Therefore, we always expect ourselves to shine at the starting line from the beginning.
Know that your background is not good enough and work hard; Knowing that your IQ is not high enough, you will become diligent in practice; Knowing that you didn't start early enough, you ran twice as fast as you could.
Beijing in March, Shanghai in April, Beijing in May, Shenzhen in June and Shanghai in July. Just before going to Shanghai for a business trip, I suffered from cervical strain due to long-term working conditions.
In the waiting room of the flight to Shanghai, I still put 55 yuan's plaster on the back of my neck, in order to relieve the pain of cervical vertebra and avoid delaying the work progress.
The colleague who went with him said, Brother Fei, why don't you tell the leader that you should arrange others first and have a good rest in Shenzhen this time. I replied, not so melodramatic, but fine. It's all minor problems, and it will get better after a long time.
In the eyes of many people, I have neither made any dazzling achievements nor a commendable process, and I have lived so hard. Is it miserable?
Yes, I admit that I am not good enough at present, and I have just reached the starting line of many people, but compared with myself, I make a little progress every day to overcome my anxiety. After overcoming every kind of anxiety, my heart will be more calm, and it is a little comfort to be in such an impetuous environment.
Since you can't escape this life, you might as well catch your breath and watch some flowers. Read if you want, cook if you want, and lie down if you want to sleep.
04
This year, I learned that giving up may be more important than persistence.
Yi Hao and I have been standing under the stage for nearly four hours. His favorite Xu Wei hasn't appeared yet. He said that he likes Xu Wei very much because Xu Wei once gave him the strength to move on.
I believe him, because someone once gave me courage to face my unbearable experience, face up to my own problems and keep moving forward.
When life laid hands on Hao again, he chose to give up, no longer adhere to the meaningless pursuit of life, but chose to get a 462 working holiday visa in Australia.
One day, I saw a photo in his circle of friends. It was a poster photo that looked like a heartbeat. There is a girl next to the branch. I know there is nothing wrong with his giving up, which is far more meaningful than insisting in Shenzhen.
I slept in the station on the bus and watched the neon-lit Beijing all the way. The girl next to me screamed at the song, didn't cry, but was sincere. In the spotlight of the stage, Zhao Xiaolei is her favorite. On September 1 day, Zhao Lei's concert in Shenzhen was the last song he sang with his guitar on his back tonight.
The girl said that September would be a good start, because when she met Zhao Xiaolei, all the good luck would come.
But she still can't help but sneak through someone's circle of friends in the middle of the night and want to feel his life. After all, superficial abandonment is not as good as inner persistence.
Once, she jokingly told me on WeChat that she didn't have the courage to delete each other. I replied to you and waited. I got it for you when I had the chance. As a result, when we were eating hot pot, I deleted the people she didn't want to give up without telling her. She cried and told our friends that she would never eat hot pot with me again.
After she gave up the boy in the address book, life really got better and better. A few days ago, she clamored for a barbecue together, fearing that the previous unhappiness would disappear. This year, I also gave up a feeling that I thought I was unwilling.
There is no iron body in this world, so rest when you need it; There is no strong heart in this world. Cry if you want. No one in this world can't live without it. Let go when it's time to let go.
05
This year, I hope to use my steps to know the wider world.
From the first hike on 20 14, I advertised my interest in hiking. Before I really explored this interest, my friends around me called me to like sports, such as mountaineering, hiking, swimming, skiing and bungee jumping.
Many times we imply that we are excellent and want to flaunt our own interests with the interests of excellent people. Of course, sometimes we feel that we are unique and can save all the ordinary people in the world and charm thousands of girls.
However, looking back, there are very few truly outstanding people, and even fewer people can do it by clamoring for their own interests. Mountaineering is for taking photos, skiing is for making friends, swimming is for putting on a moldy swimsuit hidden in the closet, and even bungee jumping just follows the crowd and does not pursue sincerity.
This year, I crossed the East-West Chong in Shenzhen, hiked MacLehose Trail in Hong Kong, participated in a color contest with my friends, and climbed Baiyun Temple in Huizhou, hoping to shed my vanity and inner pomp on the way and look forward to a wider world I know.
Hiking can be exciting, because you have a clear destination, and the scenery in the process will never be the same, neither repetitive nor boring, but due to the uncertain factors on the road, every step in the next step is full of expectations.
Life is like a hike. Until the end, no one can say whether there will be a miracle. Those who are far ahead at the beginning are not necessarily the last to shine. Only by taking a longer road and thinking more can we see a broader world.
06
This year, I was recognized in my work, and I have a future in the future; This year, I realized my favorite lifestyle in Chongqing, calm and easy-going; This year, I reviewed nearly 10,000 manuscripts in class and saw the efforts of thousands of people.
There are many, many, time will remember, words will also appear, the wind and frost on the face will not deceive, and the inner growth will not be concealed. This year, whether you are happy, happy and happy, or wronged, helpless and sad, you will leave us.
In the next year, I will still book myself a few things I want to do, things I want to buy, cities I want to go to and distant places I want to live in. I hope my words can accompany you through every late night.
I have seen some people who clearly know what they like, but work hard and give up when they find that there is no return; I have seen some people insist on running for a few days, and they have never made progress since they made a circle of friends. On the glittering road, there are always too many people give up halfway.
I want to say: in many things in life, we don't force to see hope, but we can only see hope if we persist. Therefore, there is still a long way to go. You don't have to shine at the beginning. Hang in there, hope is there, and you will get everything you deserve.