The first day after leaving you [first day]

The first day after leaving you, I am not used to the feeling of no one caring about me

I don’t know how to spend so much time time

I regretted breaking up and said so harshly

The day after I left you, I spent the entire night in a tavern looking for new friends

Lonely men and women comforted each other.

No one cares who is who tomorrow

On the fourth day after leaving you, I couldn’t find anyone to accompany me for another crazy night

I realized that I have few friends. Poor

Locked at home and smoked half a cigarette all night

On the fifth day after leaving you, I couldn’t suppress the waves of missing you

Driving outside your door Keep going in circles

It wasn’t until dawn that I realized how embarrassed I was

I fell in love, quarreled, and loved the bitter, spicy and sweet

It hurt and I thought about it again It hurts to go back to the starting point

Love will never be enough for me to finish my studies

My messy hair, red eyes, and stubble-covered face

Every scene of falling in love is vivid Reenacting it

It's like being in a coma and seeing a whole life pass before my eyes

Clearly remembering the six days since I left you

It's only been seven days since I left you, and I feel like I've aged seven years Years old

I never admit that I am wrong

But this time I really regret it

I have only been away from you for seven short days, and my heart has matured by seven years. < /p>

It hurts, I think about it, and it hurts to go back to the original point

Love will never be enough for me to learn and never graduate

I fell in love, I quarreled, I loved bitterness and sweetness

It hurts, I think about it, and it hurts to go back to the original point

Love will never be enough for me to learn from it

Today is the first day I left you, you Are you okay? I really couldn't find anything to do, so I came to Shanghai again.

I already knew the answer before you said those two words to me last night. I can only blame it on my premonition being always too accurate, and like Shi Kang’s, the bad ones are usually more accurate. You just said the first half, and I added the second half to you. It's not that I know it, it's all my guess. I really guessed it. You gave me the beginning and I guessed the ending.

My stomach hurts so much now. I haven’t had pain in years. My diet has returned to normal and I haven’t eaten anything unclean. Maybe the heartache can be transferred. When it comes to you, you have to pay close attention. You always smoke so many cigarettes and drink so much alcohol. You still do this even though you know it is not good for you. You also eat erratically. This is the only thing that worries me. You never know how to take good care of yourself, which has always worried me. You have been coughing for so long and yesterday you actually told me that you had never taken medicine. No wonder it didn't heal. It would be troublesome if it turns into chronic bronchitis, and pneumonia is also possible. Don't let me worry about anything when I leave you, okay?

"I've been thinking about it for a long time. I think we should break up." Haha, such an old-fashioned line. Don't you like new things the most? How about being traditional this time? In fact, I think it is better for you to use "Gang Leader, what a bad taste, right? You chose me? I think we should forget it." This is in line with your favorite Westward Journey. In this way, wouldn’t the topic seem more relaxed?

I kept smiling and telling you, while comforting you that I was fine. You tell me that you want to go back to your original boyfriend, because in the six months since you broke up with him, he has made himself a human being and a ghost. You don’t want him to go on like this anymore. You want to treat him right. He's in charge. You are so kind. What do you have to be responsible for? Loving someone is your own choice. If you do it, you have to accept your fate. Just like me now, I accept my fate. Although I don’t accept the fate, I say that I am still young, I have time, and I can afford it. But how much time can I afford? If I told you it would be a lifetime, I would definitely be lying to you. I will give until the day I can no longer give.

You said it was better to give up on me because I was stronger and you believed I could get through it. Yes, I can really get through it, but you know how I get through it? I could only stop breathing, squeeze my heart with my hands to stop it from beating, and then cover my head with many "facts" I gave to get rid of it. As long as everything goes back to how it was before, I can't stop thinking about you.

I am afraid of failure, but I am even more unwilling to fail, because I really refuse to accept defeat. Defeated in the hands of the strong, I have no way to go. Defeated in the hands of the weak, haha. What is this? Unlucky or evil? I ask you, did I owe you a lot of money in my previous life? Tell me, can I pay you back now? I pay off my debt to you and start over again?

Why haven’t you spoken on the other end of the phone? The phone bill is so expensive. Although it is already past midnight, I only have a few dozen dollars left on my phone card. Where can I buy a card at such a late hour? When I was still at the train station, I said, what happened? I won't go back today. I'll come over and see you, okay? you tell me.

You said no, you had something to say to me, and I said I would come over and listen to you, but you also said no, if I came over you wouldn't say anything, and I would have to go back to school. It was already after eleven o'clock at that time.

The money on the card is going to be gone. I don’t know how much longer it will take. What I’m even more afraid of is that after we talked on the phone this time, I don’t know when the next time will be. I said if the phone is disconnected, don't sleep while you wait. I'll call you on my mobile phone until I run out of money, okay?

You are coughing again. It sounds very uncomfortable to me, do you know? Coughing takes up a lot of time in such a short period of time. I hate coughing.

Haha, I’m laughing again. I really didn’t mean it, and I’m not mocking you. I just like to face everything with a smile. Why do you even deprive me of the right to laugh? ? You told me not to laugh, but I still laughed several times. I kept saying sorry. I hate people saying sorry to me the most. Is it useful to say sorry? No, why bother doing useless things. I don’t know if you have also contracted this problem like mine, but now you still don’t let me say I’m sorry to you. I can only control myself and stop laughing or saying sorry.

My mobile phone is also out of money. Can I make one last request? If I get disconnected, can you call me from your cell phone? Of course you can. But even if you call, how much more time will it take?

I suddenly remembered a sentence I said in something I wrote. There are many ways to refuse ****. In fact, you can use the second way to see it. You asked me what I was talking about. , I said I knew you didn’t read what I wrote. The second form should be: Will you be my brother? You stay silent for a long time and then tell me that this is not possible for you.

You said that you are always doing something wrong. Maybe this decision was also wrong, but you still did it. In fact, you have never listened to me. No matter what I say, you always like to do the opposite. Your biggest problem is that you dig too hard, and you try even though you know it's wrong. Why are you so confused? Now that you know it's your fault, what are you doing? You always like to think a lot, why don't you think about yourself for once? You are obviously not happy being with him! Forget it, let’s not say it. Anyway, you never listen to what I say. You are always so naughty.

I said, would it be okay if I pretended to be decadent like him? Believe it or not, I sat at the door of your dormitory for a week waiting for you. I swore that I could do it. You were frightened by me. You asked me not to swear, because you knew that what I said to you was never impossible, even more so. Don't say it's an oath. I thought about it for a while and then told you, but it seems that one week is a bit difficult. How about three days? You still have to bargain when buying groceries. You suddenly laughed. I don’t know what you mean. I said let’s do it this way. It’s just a few days. I’ll pretend to be sick and take two days off at most. Plus the weekend should be enough.

I really hate myself, why am I always so stubborn? I know that if I make myself decadent immediately like him, maybe you will take back your words, but I just can’t do it. After all, I feel that I am more or less a man. If you are a man, you should behave like a man. If you have to deal with things yourself, you should lick any wounds by yourself. Why should I make others feel uncomfortable? As for that!

I don’t want to add pressure to you, I want you to be happy.

I said again that I could afford to give time. If you ask me who to give it to, I said to give it to the most perfect person I have met so far. Maybe she is not perfect in the eyes of others, but By my standards, she is perfect. Why don't you speak again?

You asked me to stop talking about who I would give time to, but I didn’t listen to you this time. I was still saying it. Then you asked me who I would give time to, and I could only tell you. Are you crying? . You have always been so strong. I can't imagine you crying, but I heard your voice. It didn't feel right. Are you crying? I didn't dare to ask because I didn't want to be a sentimental old peacock, and I also knew that asking would only make you more sad. Okay, I promise you, I won’t give you any more time. I won’t say anything, just understand it like this. In fact, I think you know, even if I don’t say it, I will give it. We are all playing a game called deception.

You told me that you were going abroad, and I was confused all of a sudden. I yelled, and I said, get the hell out of here, **** go abroad, **** fuck you! Going abroad, haha, going abroad again! I kept chanting it for several minutes. I'm sorry, I got a little out of control. Because this is the real blow to me! Didn't you cut off my last hope? Because I swore that I would never go abroad. Since several of my good brothers left and never came back, I made up my mind. Why did you...

I laughed again Yes, I don’t know if that kid is lucky or unlucky. Now that you are back with him, even if you tell him to break up, he will do the same. If I wait for the day when you go abroad, I will probably have no choice but to commit suicide. You still don't speak.

Actually, I want to say that if you really want to leave, I will go with you. I can break my oath, but... where can I find such a large sum of money? If I told my mother that I was going abroad for a great love, it would be strange if she didn't chase me down the street with a kitchen knife.

......

Your mobile phone is also going to run out of money. You said you wanted to say one last word to me now. You laughed while talking. I don’t know what’s so funny. Tell me: will you be my brother? So I laughed, a very loud laugh, and we hung up the phone laughing.

I fell asleep. Yes, I love her, I shouldn't have fallen asleep right away. But is what I’m thinking about useful now? Is it useful for me to cry? Is it any use if I go and get drunk? It seems that there is none, so I will do as you say, take care of myself, and let myself live a good life.

I came to Shanghai, and a netizen asked me to meet her on the Bund. I asked her where on the Bund, and she said it was the No. 22 station. I was stunned for a moment. Isn't that the place where we first met? Later, didn’t this become our old time and place? But I said okay. I got off the No. 20 bus and just turned out of Jiujiang Road. Suddenly I thought of the scene when we met for the second time. I ran towards you in slow motion, waved to you and shouted your name. , just ran past you, then turned around and looked at you with a blank smile. You said that you started to like me from that time on. I remember hugging you at that time and smelling the fragrance of your hair.

There are still so many people here today, and there are also some dinosaurs and girls. The tea eggs in the small shop behind the station still smell like last night, but what is standing there waiting for me is An acquaintance whom I have never met. She's a nice person, her eyes are always wide open, but if you don't stare, they're still bigger than hers. She is very cute and naughty online, and she is also like this in person. I think I am afraid you will be more naughty! But you don’t have a chance to compete. Otherwise, I really want to see what it feels like for two naughty little girls to be together. Is it a bit like a puppy biting another puppy?

I asked her where she wanted to go? She said let’s go to Xujiahui. I grabbed her and said, who are you and what are you doing here today? Who are you? She was frightened, looked at me blankly and said that I was a little kitten, and I came to see the bachelor today. I knew that she didn’t know anything. I was too nervous, because that was the first time we walked on that day. You asked me where to go, and I said there is a very good church in Xujiahui. I like it very much. Let's go there and have a look. So a beautiful love was born there.

Halfway through the ride, I finally couldn't help but pull her out of the car. I couldn't bear to recall everything that day in front of my eyes. I said go to the movies. When I'm in a bad mood, I always like to go to the movies alone. On the 14th, I went to see a movie alone at home, but it was quite difficult. That day, all the movie theaters in the city jointly issued an announcement saying that only one movie was allowed. Only a couple can go in, otherwise no tickets will be sold, so I can only grab a little girl on the side of the road and ask her to "take" me in and then out. What I watched was "Sweetie" which I went to see alone on Valentine's Day last year. I've watched it many times and it's still so good. Seriously, can lovers really not get married? Lai Ming seems to have proved this truth to us in another film called "City of Glass".

After watching the movie, I kind of want to leave. I want to go back to the company. There are a lot of things I want to write. I can’t tell you. You will be sad if I tell you. I can only write, and write to people I don’t know. My friends read it and then swore to them that it was all false and that I made up the story.

But she took me to Maoming Road. I asked where I was going, and she said she was going to jump.

Okay, let’s vent.

When I got there, I couldn't move. I even twisted a few times but it was extremely stiff. When I was dancing in my hometown, they all said I was a snake. How did it happen? I was afraid of making a fool of myself so I went back to my seat and sat down, so my stomach started to hurt and it still hurts now.

I sat on the second floor and watched her dancing happily below. You don't seem to like such strenuous exercise, right? You like to sit there quietly, drink a little wine, smoke a cigarette or something. You would be happier if someone played guessing game with you.

I suddenly felt that I was old. The people below are so energetic. They have been dancing for an hour or two. Hey, aren't you tired? Even if I'm not tired, there's no need to stimulate me like this, right? I'm so tired.

It was past one o'clock when I came out of the bar. My friend said he was going home, and I didn't know how to explain it to my mother. Let me make up a reason for her. I always have the most crooked ideas! But I can't think of any. She looked at me pitifully, and I could only say sorry, I really had no idea. I seem to be stupid.

She hailed a cab and left, and I also hailed a cab back to the company. I thought of you again in the car. You always said that it would be great to have a girlfriend like you and save money. I asked why? You said you got motion sickness in a taxi. You can only take the bus. I started riding in the car when I was one month old, and I have never fainted once. But why do I feel a little dizzy today? But my stomach feels uncomfortable.

The guard is asleep. If he wakes up tomorrow morning and sees me here, he will definitely be shocked. Haha, I like to do things that make people lose their glasses.

It’s four o’clock now. Are you sleeping? Are you always up late but don't know what you are doing? I really want to teach those people in your dormitory a lesson. Because they also join in the fun and never sleep. Go to bed early from now on, okay?

I am going offline.

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