I always think that looking for a husband should be motivated, even if it is poor at first.

But I didn't expect that there are still some people, some people just motivate themselves in the circle of friends, but in fact they just shout slogans.

Song Liming is such a person, drawing a pie for our future life every day.

Just now, after I paid the rent for the next quarter, my deposit balance became double digits (if I can still call a deposit), and I didn't even have money to buy diapers for my daughter.

I asked my friend to find Song Liming a job as a courier sorter. I want him to go out and earn some money to support his family.

Song Liming stared at me as if my decision was unbelievable. "Li Lan, don't you know that I will have an exam in a few months? How to study when going out to work? You don't support me now, don't regret it when I have money. "

Ten years ago, I would not hesitate to support Song Liming. After all, this is a potential stock with unlimited future.

But now, I just think it's ridiculous. A man who can't even eat, a father who can't even afford his daughter's diapers, is qualified in this fable.

Song Liming resigned at the end of 19 to prepare for the exam at home. At the beginning of 2020, I was unable to go to work due to the epidemic. Fortunately, I still have some savings before, so life will not be too embarrassing.

But now, all our savings have been spent, and Song Liming is still pulling us to draw cakes to satisfy our hunger.

Ironically, even though life is so tense, Song Liming still requires fish and meat for every meal, saying that nutrition can't keep up with him, which will affect his preparation for the exam.

For several days, the food was not delivered as requested by Song Liming, so he acted like a devil and even robbed his daughter of food. I really want to slap Song Liming, but I know that a person who pretends to sleep will never wake up.

Song Liming's dream has been developing for ten years, but the hardships of life still failed to awaken him from his dream.

2

Song Liming and I are classmates, and junior high school and senior high school are the same school. At school, Song Liming is a good student in the eyes of teachers and parents. He always goes first and leaves last.

When I saw him, he was always studying. With such hard work, the results have been hovering in the middle and upper reaches. The results of the college entrance examination are even worse. I just crossed the undergraduate course line and finally chose three books (we didn't cancel them at that time), which are in the same city as me.

At first, I didn't have much contact, but later, because I passed CET-4, I had more contact. I mainly want to find a partner and encourage each other.

Song Liming supervises me to learn to punch in every morning and evening. His energy infected me and made me feel that preparing for the exam was not so difficult. On the day when the exam results came out, I took the initiative to invite Song Liming to dinner to show my gratitude.

When I was with Song Liming, what I heard most was his ideal ambition. It was these ideals that attracted me deeply and later became Song Liming's girlfriend.

Song Liming said that in today's society, certificates are a stepping stone, and it is always good to take more certificates. Therefore, as long as it is a qualified certificate, Song Liming will sign up and actively prepare for it.

Some certificates are not professional at all, so it is difficult to take the exam.

Song Liming knows it himself, so it doesn't matter if he fails the exam. Textual research is just a way for him to show his efforts.

three

When I graduated from college, Song Liming took me to the postgraduate entrance examination.

Song Liming and I have average family conditions, and both parents are farmers. I also have a younger brother in high school. Song Liming is the only child in the family.

My parents are old and want to go back to their hometown after graduation. One is to be close to your parents, and the other is to earn money to support your family.

Song Liming said that I was short-sighted. In today's society, only knowledge can change fate. If you can take the postgraduate entrance examination and have a higher degree, the road ahead will be broader.

Song Liming's words are reasonable. I don't have the heart to attack Song Liming. I chose to spend a year with him in the provincial capital.

Economic conditions, only one of us can prepare for the exam.

Song Liming always works harder than me. Of course, he prepares for the exam when I go to work.

If we don't pass the exam, we will go back to our hometown to develop together.

four

Our house is rented in the suburbs, which is a whole hour's drive from where I work.

One is to save money, and the other is that Song Liming needs to be quiet when preparing for the exam.

The internship salary is not high, and I have to save money to buy all kinds of materials for Song Liming. On weekdays, the food is not much better.

Looking at Song Liming's thin cheeks, it is not good to prepare for the exam. I had to find a part-time job again, and finally I could show Song Liming something suspicious.

Song Liming was very distressed to see me working so hard. He held me in his arms and cried more than once that he must let me live a good life.

I don't think I'm tired again, no matter how hard I suffer, but I also have Song Liming's words.

Before moving in together, I really thought that Song Liming spent all his time studying and worked as hard as I saw.

One day, I didn't feel well, so I asked for leave to go home and rest. Afraid of disturbing Song Liming, I deliberately opened the door gently and went in. Song Liming sat in a daze at the desk, and the books on the desk were the same as when I left.

Later, I secretly noticed that Song Liming was just sitting at the table, and his heart had gone somewhere.

Usually, the process goes like this: clear the table first, then open the book, choose a favorite pen, and take out a piece of paper to list the plan. This list of plans alone will take half an hour.

Get up and do some exercise and drink some water before you start your formal study.

Suddenly there was a question that I couldn't answer, or something interrupted my thinking, so my mind began to wander, sitting at my desk in a daze, sometimes for an afternoon.

At that time, WeChat was not popular. Later, with WeChat, Song Liming's standard for preparing for the exam was to send a circle of friends.

This kind of learning efficiency, it is strange to have achievements.

I am not surprised that Song Liming lost his name in Sun Shan. I don't expect to be rich or expensive, just plain.

Song Liming seems to have found his place and returned to his hometown with me.

five

Only half a year after returning to his hometown, Song Liming changed five or six jobs in a row.

Either the work is too dirty and tired or the working hours are too long. Finally, Song Liming chose a job as a security guard in a shopping mall. In the face of my doubts, Song Liming said that I was short-sighted and only looked at immediate interests.

He chose this job with his own ideas. Song Liming has a friend who teaches English with a monthly salary of more than 10,000 yuan. Song Liming is also optimistic about the family education industry, so he signed up for an online English training class, and then he can start his job directly.

When Song Liming learns his own brain, he easily daydreams. He learns from and interacts with the teacher, so he can't daydream all the time.

Out of my trust in Song Liming, I choose to support it again. When he first signed up, Song Liming was very active. He could have seven or eight classes a day. The teacher also praised him for his rapid progress.

Song Liming often tells me that when I finish my studies, you just wait to enjoy life. The good times didn't last long. After only half a year, Song Liming began to slack off and couldn't attend classes for three or four days.

Song Liming said that teaching is too basic to learn anything. He also said that the network is not good and he often gets stuck. Later he said that he didn't like the lecturer.

Anyway, there are various reasons, that is, I no longer mention learning English, and I am tired of asking too many questions.

six

English just goes away. Fortunately, Song Liming changed his job, found a professional counterpart, and began to work steadily.

An old frontiersman loses his horse—a blessing in disguise. It's good that Song Liming understands this, and I won't pursue what happened before.

My parents knew I was talking about boyfriends, so they asked me to take it home. Song Liming refused, saying that he had accomplished nothing now and was ashamed to meet my parents.

Finally, I couldn't stand it. Song Liming promised to wait until he got his driver's license to buy a car, so that he would have face when he came home with me.

I paid my salary for next month in advance and reported it to Song Liming Driving School. Song Liming quit his job in order to get a driver's license. Fortunately, he got his driver's license within six months. This is the second certificate tested in Song Liming in recent years.

In order to meet my parents, Song Liming specially found a job before coming to my house.

My parents didn't say anything else, except that Song Liming's family was not very good and he didn't have a regular job. He was worried that I would suffer when I got married. I didn't like it, but I finally nodded in agreement.

Song Liming's parents think I climbed into his house. After all, Song Liming is a potential stock in their eyes and will succeed in the future.

Especially after knowing that I don't want to study, I am more worried that I will become a stumbling block to Song Liming.

At our insistence, Song's mother suggested that we get married first, don't worry, and then get married in a few years.

When my mother learned of his attitude, she was so angry that she scolded the street. She didn't even buy a building, and she didn't dare to dislike my daughter.

seven

Song Liming got the support of his parents, and his quiet heart began to stir again.

This time, he chose Erjian, which is in line with his major and will be used for promotion and salary increase in the future.

I have never opposed Song Liming's investment in himself. I am glad that he is willing to work hard. It's just that Song Liming's self-feeling learning attitude makes me have little hope for the result.

Song Liming attaches great importance to this exam and buys all kinds of review materials and listens to courseware whenever he has time.

I also study at work and after work. I also think there must be a play this time, and I can pass it. Before the exam, Song Liming was fired by the company.

Song Liming devoted all his energy to his study. He can put off the work if he can, and deal with it hastily if he can't. As a result, he made a big mistake.

Song Liming didn't take it to heart at all. Instead, he comforted me and said, it's okay, daughter-in-law His leaving me is their loss. When I get my certificate, I will find a better job.

There is still a month before the exam, and I can't say anything.

Second, the construction engineer took the exam three times in two years. In the first year, Song Liming passed two, leaving only one. Generally speaking, hard work pays off.

Song Liming was full of confidence and took the initiative to go out and look for a job, waiting for the certificate to be used as soon as it was obtained.

Perhaps the first year gave Song Liming a lot of confidence, but in the second year, Song Liming didn't learn much, thinking that the first year had a foundation, and the second year was a little stable.

The reality is so cruel that Song Liming once again lost his reputation in Sun Shan.

Song Liming is like an invincible Xiao Qiang. In the Vietnam War, instead of losing heart, he became more and more brave. He thinks that it is genius, not a few people, who can survive at once. He will fight again next year, and he is sure to pass.

I don't object to Song Liming's textual research, and I hope he will succeed. But people still have to go down-to-earth to solve the problem of food and clothing and then further improve themselves, right?

Song Liming never seems to understand this problem. Even if he hits a wall, he thinks it is profitable to invest in himself.

eight

That's how I got pregnant. I thought Song Liming would settle down when she knew I was pregnant. Facts have proved that I was wrong.

On the whole, Song Liming is still a good person in charge. After learning that she was pregnant, she began to plan to propose marriage and prepare for the wedding.

Although my mother-in-law despised me before, she accepted me for the sake of her children.

I had a strong reaction during pregnancy. Even so, I dare not quit my job and stay at home to have children. My parents love me dearly and often give me supplements, but they are still worried about my present situation.

We haven't bought a house, but have been renting a house. The economic pressure is so great. In recent years, there is no Song Liming's deposit at home, and money is needed for pregnancy test and post-production. And there is no housing, and it is also a big problem for children to go to school in the future.

Song Liming did well during this period, and began to work hard to earn money for her children's milk powder. Life seems to be on the right track, and a better life is beckoning to us.

After my daughter was born, I put all my thoughts on her, but I didn't notice that Song Liming's research heart was stirring again. I thought Song Liming would work hard for me and my children.

nine

By the time I found out, Song Liming had resigned 1 month, and both her parents-in-law and Song Liming kept it from me.

Song Liming said that he took two exams last time, but he didn't take one because he wasn't fully prepared.

This time, he prepares for the exam full-time, and with his previous studies, he is sure to pass the exam.

I didn't listen to a word of Song Liming's long speech. I only know that I have spent so much now, and I am still breastfeeding. What should I do in the future? Song Liming really hasn't considered me at all.

But unlike those who have been poor together, we can't live without money, we can't eat, and we can't talk about ideals. At that moment, I was desperate, but I was still struggling for my daughter.

I didn't say anything. I knew it wouldn't work. Song Liming got the support of her parents-in-law. They always think that they are not talented enough, so they work hard.

But what they don't know, maybe they don't want to know, is that Song Liming is not lacking in talent, but he has never really worked hard.

I have been wandering outside for ten years since graduation. Although Song Liming has been making progress, he has been preparing for the exam. However, he never settled down to study hard and fantasized about his success after being admitted every day.

When there was no epidemic, my family scraped by on my meager salary.

I spent all my savings and confidence in Song Liming because of the epidemic. I left Song Liming a divorce agreement and took my daughter back to her family.

I told Song Liming that after the cooling-off period, we would divorce, my daughter was mine, and I wanted nothing more.

Even if you have a successful career in Song Liming, my daughter and I won't be jealous, and we won't be a stumbling block to your bright future.