Indeed, the plot of the Fakao is an unavoidable hurdle in my life. I have waited all my life for this day, and I have struggled for so many days and nights. But this day, like my yesterday and tomorrow, is no different. It's just that for me, the Fakao road I have traveled tells me that this day is beautiful and I deserve it!
Looking back on the road of Fakao, WeChat posted a message to express the mood: 22 is not easy, and the process is hard, hard, confused and sudden, but it is fun!
? Although you have dreams, you need passion to ignite
I believe that all those who study law will have dreams of taking the French exam! After all, this is a threshold for legal persons. After graduating from university in 1997, he entered the system and worked. In 1999, he got a self-taught undergraduate diploma in law from Xiangtan University, which ignited the idea of judicial examination. However, the judicial examination at that time was a piece of chicken ribs for people in the system, not for the courts and procuratorates. Even if they passed the examination, they could not be used for anything, and it seemed that they could not even get the certificate. In the midst of hesitation, I also bought some books on judicial examination, stayed up all night reading for some days, and went to take a judicial examination (I can't remember the specific year). When the results came out, I was ten points short, which made me angry. In the next twenty years, I basically engaged in comprehensive work in the back office, and gradually drifted away from the law.
in December 217, I went to Changsha to take an advanced law enforcement qualification examination organized by my unit. When I got out of the examination room, I couldn't help but lament that at the age of 43, I basically had no chance to enter the examination room again. When I got the certificate on the stage, I found that a female colleague (a little older than me) was awarded the prize of passing the legal professional qualification examination. After careful investigation of the information, I know that the previous judicial examination has been changed to the law examination, and the state encourages the examination for administrative personnel. After passing the law examination, they can serve as public lawyers of the unit and can be transferred to social lawyers after three years.
this is undoubtedly a great temptation for me, and the success of my colleagues has also shown me another possibility. Although I haven't had specific contact with the law for nearly 2 years, I'm more or less in the legal circle. I thought that if I passed the law exam, I would be a public lawyer first, and then I could do my own thing when I retired, so it wouldn't be empty and boring. So I began to consciously pay attention to legal knowledge through WeChat official account and Weibo, but I still have no confidence in the law exam. Until November, 218, I was seconded to the Women's Detention Center, which is the gathering place for the work of public prosecution and lawyers. I often came into contact with a large number of legal documents, connected with the public prosecution law in various ways, and more importantly, contacted a lot of detainees. Their urgent demand for the law made me really see the value of the law, and my dream was suddenly ignited here. After 219, I bought a set of law test books and began to re-study. At the end of August 219, I took the law test, and the objective questions were more than ten points. In November, 219, Taobao bought the objective study package of Ruida, and followed the rhythm of online classes. In 22, it was basically spent in study and work until the end of the French exam.
In retrospect, anxiety is always accompanied. Too many times of self-denial, too many times of wandering and shrinking, but in the end I persisted. The main reason is that I have a strong heart to realize my dreams. I once thought that I had given up the road to the law exam, and suddenly I was awakened after twenty years. Once I was awakened, my passion seemed to be ignited. Especially when I went to the women's detention center, I had close contact with the detainees to explain all kinds of legal issues to them. I learned about their cases one by one, which made me feel that the road to practicing the law is still very arduous. We need to learn more about the law, publicize the law, and at the same time, we can use the law to help this group of lost people who commit crimes. It really has a sense of mission, which makes me more eager to pass the law exam. On the one hand, I can have legal qualifications to work better, and at the same time I can learn more legal knowledge.
? Can you resist high pressure and be efficient
? In 22, just after the customs clearance, COVID-19's war situation hit China, and the pace of our work and life was completely broken, and the detention center also entered a state of wartime readiness. Isolation-duty-home isolation mode has become the norm, and my longest record of isolation and duty is that I failed to go home for 36 days. On duty, there are always endless things to deal with. The most important thing is that the psychological pressure is very great, the closed space, I can't see the sky every day, and I can only walk around the corridor if I want to run. My heart is gloomy, and the people and things I contact are relatively gloomy. At this time, I basically don't want to move when I lie back to my dormitory. When I get the book, I have words in my hand. But it is precisely because of high pressure that people need the courage to fight it. When I realize my state, I immediately adjust myself and make a study plan every day. Even if I can't read the book, I have to finish listening to the book I want to read. If I feel interesting after listening for a long time, I will listen to it and learn knowledge. At the same time, I adjusted my duty status, gave regular law lessons to detainees through radio, organized them to study law, and also engaged in some activities of listening to songs and telling stories to arouse their enthusiasm. This way of talking while learning really motivates me. The preparation before class, the discussion after class, and the legal advice notes I receive every time I walk through the prison room make my mind more focused on learning the law. Only by being stronger can we teach them better. Once the pressure is transformed, the efficiency of learning will be obvious. Although I am very busy at work, I basically get up before six o'clock every morning and study for 2-3 hours. At noon, I only sleep for half an hour, study for 1-2 hours, and spend another 2-3 hours at night. Although I am very bitter and tired, I basically guarantee my study time. Although the time of isolation at home is not long, it basically ensures that I can stay at home with peace of mind and study undisturbed in the name of isolation. Although the study time is compressed, the efficiency of learning is higher and the effect is better.
Looking back on the time in 22, I see the infinite possibilities in my work. I did a lot of creative work during the isolation period, which was laborious but also beneficial. For example, I set up a mobile library in the prison, spent a lot of time recommending books, collecting and sorting books, and then sending them to each prison; Taking advantage of the possible time every day to give law lessons to detainees, sometimes the time is limited, maybe only for 2 minutes, but these have given me a great sense of accomplishment and value, which has also doubled my confidence in learning the law. Every time I am anxious or slack, I feel as if someone is forcing me to cheer up and let me accomplish what I thought was impossible in a limited time.
? Although I'm a little stupid, I finally keep up with the rhythm.
In 219, when I came up with the idea of the French exam, I bought a set of books for the French exam and studied behind closed doors at home for a while. The effect was not satisfactory. First, I didn't study systematically for many years, and a lot of knowledge was out of touch, which made it difficult to learn. Second, age is really a big hurdle. When you read a book, you seem to understand it, but when you put it away, you forget it. When you start a problem, you basically rely on it, which undoubtedly hurts your self-confidence. Even when I signed up, I just went through the motions. Aware of my limitations, by 22, I bought a study package of objective questions from Ruida with great interest. Compared with online courses, the effect of attending classes is much better than reading books. At least, there is the possibility of interaction. Sometimes, I will feel more relaxed after listening to the teacher tell a few jokes and joking. Moreover, the study tasks don't need to be arranged, and they are there every day. Online courses are updated, so just keep up. I will follow wherever the teacher points. My learning ability is limited, so I am stupid, so I can only honestly follow books and courses, from intensive lectures, essence, real gold questions, laws and regulations to focus on the exam, and follow the study without leaving a lesson, filling in the questions regardless of whether I do it or not, and then finding the reasons for finding the wrong answer repeatedly. Sometimes, after listening to Rita's class, I have to listen to what I find difficult again, or I can go to other French exam websites to listen to it. Whenever I have free time, I will also open a voice course and listen to it at any time. Keep Zhong Xiuyong's famous saying "repeat,repeat,repeat" in mind. "Diligence can make up for mistakes" is really a lot of time and energy for me who is forgetful, but it is very practical. Although I have doubted my ability for countless times, just like the moment I got my report card, I don't believe it is true, but I have to admit that my efforts are not in vain. It has been accumulated a little bit, and there will always be more or less rewards, and bigger surprises may really fall from the sky, so that you can understand that your efforts are worthwhile.
the future can be expected, give us hard work!
Let's go back to the morning of January 8th, 221. It's a little after eight o'clock, and I can't open the webpage to check the scores. I have thought about many possibilities, and I have already made a plan in my heart. I also imagine that I will start another year of hard work. I have been wandering around the WeChat group of the French exam for a long time, and all I see are cheering and scoring information, which makes me hopeful. So many people have passed, and maybe I can become one of them. So I opened the webpage and clicked enter. The subjective score was 121 points. I couldn't help yelling, and I was ecstatic. I drove the car to the unit with tears all the way. I feel that for this day, I really seem to have used it all my life. On the same day, a prisoner I used to discipline found me through various channels and asked me to meet and get together. We talked about many topics together, and of course talked about the books and law classes I brought to them. I eagerly told her that I had passed the law exam, and I was one step closer to my promise to them. Her eyes were shining. Thank you very sincerely!
I once told them that as long as we work hard and have the right direction, the future can be expected! And I want to be that beam of light, even if it is weak, it can have temperature and guidance!