He is the son of a noble family, brilliant, outstanding achievements, admired by the world; His life is a wandering life, in the process of wandering, he met the destiny takes a hand's person; His love for "him" transcends gender and secular vision. ...

1937, 1 1 In July, Bai Xianyong was born in an aristocratic family in Guilin, Guangxi. He is the eighth child in the family. His father is Bai Chongxi, Minister of National Defense of the Republic of China, and his mother is the daughter of a wealthy gentleman with a prominent family background.

Born in such a family, Bai Xianyong should grow up carefree. Just helpless, Bai Xianyong was born in the year when the July 7th Incident broke out. As the commander-in-chief of the army, Bai Chongxi left home and went to the battlefield before even seeing his newborn child.

In Bai Xianyong's childhood memory, the most is the life of running away all day.

In his memory, he described his father's bravery and childhood life as follows: "My father's military career, especially in several cities in the northeast, such as Beijing, Wuhan and Changchun, played a decisive role at the critical moment of historical rise and fall. I walked in my father's footsteps, walked through these ancient cities with a long history, and thought of my father's hard life in defending the country. I couldn't help but respect him and feel infinitely proud of him. "

Maybe it's the influence of my father, maybe it's the mark of my childhood. Born in a prominent family, Bai Xianyong paid attention to the life of the working people at the bottom since he was a child and left many marks in his works. As he said, "I write because I want to express a wordless pain in human heart in words."

Since the 1960s, Bai Xianyong has made his mark in China's literary world.

197 1 year, Bai Xianyong published a collection of novels, Taibei People-the seventh among the top 100 novels in China in the 20th century, and the highest ranking among the works of living writers. In addition, he has many famous works, such as The New Yorker, Looking Back Suddenly, and the novel The Evil Son.

The professor commented on him: "Bai is a genius writer of contemporary short stories in China". Since the May 4th Movement, only five or six people, from Lu Xun to Zhang Ailing, have been able to match him in artistic achievements. "

Bai Xianyong's superior family background and brilliant talents make him full of expectations in countless people's hearts, but his love has made him criticized.

Bai Xianyong is 40 years old and unmarried. He wrote the famous novel Evil Son, which put Bai Xianyong in a position of being criticized. Because this novel records the story of gay groups in Taipei.

On the title page, he wrote a message to this group of people who are not accepted by the world: "To those children who wander the streets alone in the deepest night and have nowhere to go."

In this book, he interprets other aspects of human nature and shows the inner feelings of homosexuality to the world. Bai Xianyong wrote the first homosexual work in the history of China literature. Bai Xianyong himself is a member of this group, which is also a declaration of his true feelings.

In fact, Bai Xianyong publicly declared himself a homosexual in Hong Kong in his early years, and his father also knew his homosexual tendencies.

Although love is different from the secular world, the love of Bai Xianyong and Wang Guoxiang is equally precious.

On the surface, Bai Xianyong lived a luxurious and leisurely life since childhood, but his childhood was very lonely. My father didn't go home all the year round because of the war and paid little attention to him. He depends more on his mother.

At the age of seven, ignorant Bai Xianyong was forced to be isolated for four years because of tuberculosis. A person's childhood and illness made Bai Xianyong feel insecure and lonely when he grew up.

And Wang Guoxiang was the only one who entered his world.

/kloc-at the age of 0/7, Bai Xianyong met Wang Guoxiang of the same school when he was a sophomore in Taiwan Province.

Their understanding stems from an accident. They accidentally bumped into each other when they went upstairs. And this collision made two people have a good impression on each other. This good impression may be more of friendship.

Lonely Bai Xianyong always has a kind of affinity for Wang Guoxiang. Whenever he was humiliated and wronged, Wang Guoxiang always stood up for him and gave Bai Xianyong a great sense of security. Therefore, his affection for Wang Guoxiang gradually surpassed that of his friends.

Bai Xianyong and Wang Guoxiang are actually very different people. One likes literature, the other likes science and engineering, and their life ideals are different. But they are full of dependence on each other and want to be together all the time. Therefore, after graduating from high school, Wang Guoxiang gave up National Taiwan University and took the exam in national cheng kung university with Bai Xianyong.

Later, Bai Xianyong decided to retake the Foreign Languages Department of National Taiwan University, and Wang Guoxiang also retaken the Physics Department of National Taiwan University. During this period, the two had conflicts and depression, but they always accompanied each other.

For Bai Xianyong, Wang Guoxiang is the existence of "including friends, lovers, childhood tacit partners and other multiple meanings".

Such a person who embraces all his feelings can't accompany him to the end after all.

Wang Guoxiang once suffered from a strange disease-"aplastic anemia". This disease is a rare blood disease, which will lead to the disorder of hematopoietic function of bone marrow.

The outbreak of this disease made Wang Guoxiang's physical and mental condition very bad. At one time, I had to drop out of school and rest at home, relying on blood transfusion and taking antibiotics.

Fortunately, accompanied by Bai Xianyong, Wang Guoxiang quickly passed this disaster. After this illness, the relationship between Bai Xianyong and Wang Guoxiang became stronger. In order to pursue their career dreams, they went to the United States to study together.

Bai Xianyong chose to study literature at the University of Iowa, while Wang Guoxiang studied physics at Pennsylvania State University. Although far apart, they spent a beautiful and quiet time together.

It just backfired. 1989 One day, Wang Guoxiang's "aplastic anemia" recurred.

"And I tried my best to protect his weak body, but I watched his life run out bit by bit, and finally I was at a loss. I have always believed that people can conquer nature and often go against numbers. However, after all, manpower is not equal to fate. Go all out, but still fail. " This is a portrayal of Bai Xianyong's heart at that time. In the face of death, he can only try his best to make Wang Guoxiang live one more day.

Under the medical level at that time, the disease was incurable, but Bai Xianyong did not give up this possibility despite knowing that Wang Guoxiang's disease was incurable. He traveled all over the world and tried all the famous doctors and medicines. Later, Bai Xianyong said: "If someone told me that there was a doctor at the top of the Himalayas, I would definitely climb up and ask for the elixir of life. Saving Wang Guoxiang's life is more important to me. "

Enough to show his heart for Wang Guoxiang.

However, it is common for people to get sick. Even though Bai Xianyong tried to find a famous doctor, Wang Guoxiang could not continue his life.

1On August 7th, 992, Bai Xianyong accompanied Wang Guoxiang to the last moment of his life and bid farewell to his lover who had been with him for decades.

/kloc-when we were 0/7 years old, we met for the first time, and then supported each other for decades, sharing weal and woe. How deep is this feeling? Perhaps in the eyes of some people, the love between the same sex is "unacceptable" no matter how deep it is, but homosexuality and heterosexuality are also a kind of love, as Bai Xianyong said: "The natural feelings between people are lovely, and consciously killing these feelings is an insult to human nature. We should not regard homosexuality as a different kind, and there is no need to be secretive. "

Perhaps it is this atmosphere and sincere feelings that make Bai Xianyong and Wang Guoxiang's feelings transcend all worldly things and become a unique emotion. Life is different. It is a mistake not to be different from others. Just follow your heart.

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