1. From joy and joy, to boredom, to going crazy, to emptiness.
Work
(1) I am quite happy in my first year after graduation. I get my salary on time, and I also get a large housing allowance. I pay all kinds of money to the top, including my parents and relatives. All rejoiced. Of course, I am not very busy at this time. If there is a new project, I will be white + black, 5 + 2.
(2) At the beginning of the second year, the project was completed, the new departments were all reorganized, and the business was operating normally, and then it started to get a little boring. There are daily jobs, but there are no challenges in state-owned enterprises. You don’t have anything to worry about after get off work from 9 to 5, and you don’t have to clock in. You don’t have to worry about unemployment or food shortages. After get off work, I usually eat, drink and have fun, and enjoy the moonlight. At this time, my famous saying is, "How can you eat something that costs less than 100 yuan?!" I never eat cheap things like soy milk and steamed buns for breakfast. I still feel disgusted when I hear that my friends eat steamed buns for breakfast every day. I feel incredible. After two years of this, I reflected on my life and found that I had gained nothing in the three years since graduation, not even saving any money. Discussing this matter with a friend, his comfort is that you have eaten, played, and experienced it, even though you have not saved any money. Knowing that friends are also comfort, eating, drinking and having fun every day has no practical meaning, it is just a waste of life.
Work
(3) The panic and madness started when I was gradually involved in the political struggle of state-owned enterprises. When I graduated, I didn’t know anything about workplace politics. I thought that going to work meant working diligently and hard, and my boss would appreciate me and I would be promoted in my career. However, society will train a novice who does not understand the workplace, and will not tolerate you being carefree and naive forever. The previous leader lost the political competition, so he transferred himself. However, the new leader thought that I was a successor of the predecessor and was not liked by the current leader (the winner in the political struggle), so I was not happy at work. I was indifferent, thinking that I had founded the department by myself, and that I was fully proficient in the work. I did not take the initiative to report and communicate with the new leader, so there was no new content in my work. It became more and more boring and boring, and I kept repeating the same things every day. . Because when I was assigned, I was assigned to the site (which was also the management center), and several people were assigned to the agency. Several people in the agency were promoted when the time came because they were close to the leaders. However, because I was far away from the agency, most of them were promoted. The leader changed again, and he was probably forgotten, and no one saw all the hard work. The current leader also wouldn't speak up for me, so he didn't get promoted. In fact, the news of their promotion came only after I learned about it, and I felt that the news on the scene was too closed, and the sky is high and the emperor is far away.
Work
(4) From then on, a super boring working state with no future, no goals, no hard work, no changes, and no one to care about began, just eating and drinking. Death, I was still young and couldn’t think of many things, and I couldn’t think of any other solutions. I thought that the boss just didn’t see me for the time being, or that the number of promotion places was limited. After all, I put in so much effort in the project and was so proficient in my business. On weekdays, We also work and manage seriously and never relax. (Thinking about it now, I was really stupid when I was self-righteous and ignorant at that time. In fact, in the state I was in at that time, if I was serious about my work, I really might as well communicate more with the boss.) Because I don’t have any ideas in the workplace (generally at that age) I still don’t understand anything and just accept everything, just like the feeling of a student who is bullied and doesn’t know what the situation is and how to deal with it), so I am bored at work during the day, but I am more happy after get off work, shopping, eating and drinking. When I'm not in love, I'm chatting with someone, participating in various activities, and it feels very empty.