Years later, when people casually ask, "I see why you always change your avatar?"

I always say, "because a strange girl said that she likes to chat when her head changes, which makes her want to talk to people."

"Interesting, your sister?"

"I hope she is. It's better than not seeing her bones now."

However, when I changed my avatar into a habit, I couldn't wait for her to "type" anymore.

That person, her name is Ren Ran.

The last sentence she left me was, "Either you delete me or I always want to chat with you."

I didn't do what she said, but her head never lit up again, just like water disappearing into the water, silently.

Every time I think about it, I can't breathe.

I still don't understand, how can such a good person say that there is nothing?

2.

I began to put on a formal suit and high heels, talking and laughing in front of a group of foreigners, leisurely; I learned to behave gracefully, with a girl's reserve and reserve, listening or silent with a smile, with an extraordinary calmness; I also learned to hide my love, so I don't parade in the city, and it's hard to throb again.

Occasionally, I will think of him when I dream back in the middle of the night. I think that I was dazzling in the crowd for that person.

So I can't love while walking, because he blocks the sea of people alone.

In kindergarten, there was a little boy who changed the story of the daughter of the whole sea because of a little girl's sad tears.

At that time, I wanted to catch up with him in the future and tell myself stories every day that wouldn't make people cry.

But when we met again, the little boy had grown up, and of course he no longer remembered me.

"It doesn't matter, I'll just go after him!" I guess

I hid my strength when I took the exam. Liberal arts played normally, and science just did my best.

After the results came out, I went to the old class with a sad face and said that I hoped to find a good scholar in science to be my deskmate.

Maybe God was moved by my sincerity, and the teacher called the roll directly. "Yes, because you are so eager to learn, what do you think of Jiao Yang? He is the best in science in our class. "

As soon as the old class words came out, I was elated and pretended to be reluctant to answer: "OK, thank you, teacher."

After the trick succeeded, I started her shameless pursuit.

Introduce yourself, "Hello, classmate, I'm your new deskmate. Again, please advise me in the future. "

"Jiao Yang, I will try my best."

In the first class, I stared at him openly for a long time. "Hey, your skin is fine, and your eyelashes are still so long."

He raised his eyebrows proudly and smiled. "Natural beauty."

"Hey, can I kiss you?"

Black line, "shameless!"

"Then where do you want me to kiss?"

"......."

Once after going to physical education class, I walked back to the classroom. As soon as I sat down, my nose became hot. When I touched it with my hand, I found a nosebleed and got up to go to the toilet.

It happened that a group of sweaty boys in the class were walking back after playing the ball, watching the excitement and saying in unison, "Hey, what is this, our natural sister?"

I pointed impatiently in the direction of the door and motioned them not to block the aisle and let me out. As a result, they thought that my movements pointed to something and looked at the door in unison.

Jiao Yang just stood there, and the appearance after the exercise really made people's blood boil, and then, and then they misunderstood.

The assists looked at him, then turned to look at me and immediately gave a meaningful boo.

"Yes, yes, I am addicted to beauty, unable to extricate myself. Please make way for officials. " Used to being shameless, he quickly fled the scene after confessing.

But I don't know why, Jiao Yang's face was always red that day. Does the sports meeting have a cosmetic effect?

Later, both teachers and students knew that the students were still chasing Jiao Yang, and they had a lot of support, but the other side was still unmoved.

But flirting with Jiao Yang has become my daily life.

One day in class, "deskmate, do you think tall boys have particularly long fingers?"

"It should be."

"My fingers are also very long. Why don't I compare with you? "

After some pushing and shoving, he still picked up his hand and looked helpless.

Then when he wasn't looking, my palm instantly turned into ten fingers.

He paused. When he turned to look at me, he had nothing to say, but his eyes were bright as stars.

I don't know whether I saw it in that movie or TV series. To make a boy like himself, let him like your neck first, referred to as neck temptation.

I don't believe such folk remedies, and even scoff at them. But I can't. People who fall in love are fools. What if this magic really exists?

So in winter, for several days in a row, I left my scarf at home, tied my hair in a ponytail and exposed my neck, trying to seduce him. This process is completely artificial.

In the end, I only got one sentence: "Aren't you cold?"

I also threw a scarf casually. "put it on, it will feel cold when you look at it."

Every basketball game with him, she will be there, bringing clothes and water, shouting for him regardless of the image.

I remember once, at a sunset dinner, after the game, I stepped on his shadow and said, "Hey, Jiao Yang, I'm going to steal your shadow."

He gave me a vicious look. "Whatever."

"But, you should be careful who steals shadows."

"Why?"

"Because the person who steals your shadow, she will take your heart away."

This sentence is for him and for myself. I want to ask him, "Can I take your heart away?"

The answer, of course, is no, and later I learned that not all happiness can be taken care of.

There are many enthusiastic people and many heartless people in the world. To be precise, they are heartless to themselves.

Later he said, "I haven't been able to improve your grades for so long." Sorry, I hope I can find someone else. "

He said: "I have always admired quiet and reserved girls, and you happen to be one of them."

He said, "I hope you will stop worrying about me in the future." You are a girl, please respect yourself. "

Someone in the class told me that he and the girl named Chen Ling had a good impression on each other since junior high school, but I was killed by an unwitting transfer student halfway, which broke a pool of spring water.

There are also supporters who feel wronged, saying that love comes first and then comes, and the latecomers can reach the top.

But I began to feel tired, because I knew that in the love game, it was the third party who was not loved.

Later, the second year of high school ended. Because of the geographical restrictions of the college entrance examination, my father gave me transfer procedures.

I remember that in order to talk to him after the holiday, I added his QQ number in the name of asking questions, but when I opened the chat information record, I realized that what I said was nothing to do with my study.

Last time I registered my number, there was still only one person on the list.

"Hey, why don't you delete me, or I always want to chat with you."

I changed my signature. "Although the defeat is glorious, there will be a banquet in the second half of life, so it should be seen this way."

Then, I changed my password. I typed a bunch of numbers and letters. Who knows what it is?

Be smart when you love and smart when you leave.

3.

She still left, saying that two years is not long, not short.

But before that, I waited for her for nearly ten years, waiting for her to find me and tell her a story.

I'm glad that God gave her to me.

I pretended not to know her, and God knows how hard it is for me.

Where she is, I am there.

She has changed. She is no longer quiet and introverted, but loves to laugh and is always carefree, but I still like it.

I looked at the exam results. She's good at liberal arts, but she's a mess at science.

So, I want to befriend her and say hello to the old class in advance, so that she can sit at the same table with me.

Well, I admit that I have never seen such a brazen girl.

But I admit I'm in it, too.

I am even wary of what she says to me every time, afraid that she will find the waves in my heart, afraid that she will see my face flushed, and afraid that she will see my face full of lips and teeth but beaming.

That time, she was secretly pleased with the success of the design. To tell you the truth, I'm shocked. I looked at her and pretended to have nothing to say, but my heart was like fireworks in full bloom and sparks were flying.

After waking up, she wants to continue to play dumb. Her hands are small and soft, and she is a good girl once in a blue moon.

I think it's good that she likes me. I found the treasure.

Still silly, showing her neck in winter, and later my mother told me that it was because a girl wanted me to like her.

I was glad that I was the one she wanted to seduce, but I was worried that she would be cold, so I gave her the scarf. I want to tell her that her neck is more beautiful than my ballet mother's swan neck, but I'm afraid she will think I'm frivolous.

She has a nosebleed, and she still has the heart to tease me in front of others. Also naughty. As we all know, that "beauty" made me blush all afternoon. I can't remember what the teacher said in class that day.

That time she stepped on my shadow alive, like an elf.

She reminded me to be careful of the shadow thief, and then I realized that she had stolen my shadow and my heart.

No matter where she is, I will always think of her.

I understand her mind and think about the infinite time in the future. It is better for me to express this kind of thing.

So I'm waiting, when we grow up.

However, the old class came to me and said, "Do you know how difficult it is for our school to take the entrance exam every year? Compared with the senior high school entrance examination, the senior high school entrance examination in our school is to select talents for the college entrance examination. In fact, there is another person who tied for the first place with you in the competition you participated in. Do you know who it is? "

"Teacher, I don't know."

"Your deskmate now, or. Obviously, she hid her strength from us. I talked to her later, but she kept pestering you. Therefore, I called you here today and asked you to help the teacher. I don't want her to ruin her life on impulse. The teacher believes that you can handle it, right? "

I still nodded.

Later, it turned out that Lao Ban didn't lie, and she was really excellent.

She said that although the defeat was glorious, I felt that I had already lost in front of her.

Ten years of ice drinking is fleeting, but it is difficult to cool blood.

At the beginning, her hand was so small, only half as small as mine, but I couldn't catch her hand after all.

Later, when he remembered something about her, he couldn't help asking God, why didn't anyone rewrite the endings of so many stories for her?

4.

Many things happened after the college entrance examination, and I lost contact with them after traveling around the world.

Day by day passes like a flowing cloud. Busy on business trips, busy with other people's dreams. It seems that I can keep busy, but no one knows that I just want to listen to the story quietly.

I sat on the plane, thinking that my best time had already passed away quietly, and I was in tears.

The English gentleman on the side was obviously frightened and kept handing me tissues and asking me what was wrong.

I said, "I want to be alone, far away."

? I felt something, and it was deeply rooted in my intestines. "

He said he didn't understand. I said I didn't understand. I don't want to understand either.

Later, the plane took off on time, but it didn't land on time and will never land.