Yu Yan sent me a postcard of Jade Dragon Snow Mountain. Attached is a paragraph: When traveling, some people always have an astonishing amount of luggage. Although I have prepared a folding umbrella for rainy days, a raincoat for a storm when even an umbrella cannot hold it, and I have brought shoes suitable for hiking and leather shoes to wear when going to a hotel. If it rains heavily, I am afraid I will need another pair. Boots? With the endless expansion of imagination, more and more luggage is brought.

On the road of growth, there are more or less sparse passers-by. They always say that you "think too much".

Yu Yan is my classmate in high school and college. She can be considered a "bad boy". She had a vigorous love affair in high school that lasted for more than a year.

Yu Yan also fell in love with literature during this love affair. She kept telling me that maybe this would be a road of no return. Metaphors about love, I don’t know why her writing is getting better and better. I can’t count how many times her essays scored over 50 points in exams (the full score for essays at that time was 60 points). I was actually quite curious, so I asked her why. She said I said it was because of the other party, so I didn't ask too much. Love in infancy is often stillborn, and Yu Yan is not immune to this. Girls who fall out of love are often sad and depressed, and use various ways to vent their emotions. What shocked me the most was that Yu Yan was not like that. Instead, she loved literature even more. She never tired of reading "Yilin", "Reader", and "Youth Digest". Even though she was under so much academic pressure in her senior year of high school, she was able to read more than six books in half a semester, and her composition skills remained unchanged. They say that when God closes a door for you, he will open a window for you. I think God opened a window for parables.

One day in 2015, Yu Yan told me again that this may be a road of no return, and I don’t know how long it will take.

By chance, Yu Yan participated in the National Essay Contest for Middle School Students and won the first prize in the Shandong Division with an essay "On the Road—Written for You Who Are Chasing Your Dreams on the Road of Youth." I don't know whether it was out of "conceit" or a dream, but Yu Yan began to try to write something, good and bad, and clichéd. Friends around her gave mixed reviews. They always said that she "thought too much". During the college entrance examination, Yu Yan could only put aside his thoughts temporarily.

By some chance, she and I entered the same university.

She said: "I want to continue walking, I want to write a novel, and write something I want to write."

I said; "Okay, I will do it. You are the first reader.”

A long time passed, and she had many ideas and started them several times, but they all ended in failure.

She said: "I can't write anymore. When I think about writing a novel, I feel like it is a huge project and an unfinishable task. So I might as well write one when I come to Muse. Maybe after four years of college are over, I can finish a book."

I said, "Well, this is a good idea, I support you!"

Yu Yan began his journey to find his muse. Movies, books, myself and the stories around me, I constantly try to write something and share it with everyone to read. I opened a WeChat public account and push my own works. As time goes by, I believe that these words will gradually become more and more until it can be compiled into a book.

Yu Yan has been walking on this road for more than two years. I think she is the only person around me who can dare to speak and act and persist for so long. I am quite proud of her. of. Yu Yan once said that this is a road of "no return", but she has been on this road for so long, with ridicule, contempt and support. She said I'm grateful for the people who have always supported me, through the good and the bad. In the comment area after every Yuyan post, friends will leave messages saying: Great writer, please give me a signed photo; when you publish a book, be sure to give it to me; keep at it, I believe you can do it, come on~ and so on.

Yu Yan said: They always say that I "think too much". If I think too much, I will do too much. It is better to just do it if I think too much. Thank you to those who support me. Maybe this It is a road of no return, and the road of no return will also end at that moment. Regardless of success or failure, I will use my own money to publish what I have written in these days, in order to commemorate the dream that I have persisted for so long.

People who suffer from "uneasiness and loneliness about the future" will always be thought by others that they "think too much". They simply only look at what is happening in front of them at this moment and do not focus on it. Tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, not next year or ten years from now, but focus on the present moment. The road is still long, the sky will always be bright, and toward the bright side, I believe that Yu Yan will always have something she should gain on this road of no return.

Thank you everyone for reading. ?This is the first time to push something I wrote. If you have any ideas, please send me a message directly.