Qu Yuan, the former residence of Yu Yue, a master of Chinese studies, was once the most cultural place in Suzhou during the Republic of China.
Now, in the northwest of Guanqian Street in Suzhou, there is a lonely Qu Yuan hiding in a dusty alley, and there are no tourists in broad daylight. The old janitor yawned wearily.
Zeng Guofan, Li Hongzhang, Weng Tonghe, Kang Youwei ... Under the famous plaque inscribed by celebrities from all walks of life, an old black piano, sorry, was huddled in the corner. Wood, L-shaped, vertical, dull paint, heavy lid, snow-white keys, all faded into ivory.
Its owner is called Sai Jinhua.
At the most beautiful age, a woman was taken to Europe by her husband, Hong Jun, a diplomat of the Qing Dynasty, and stayed for five years. When Jun Hong's term of office expired, he was ordered to return to China and brought back this piano bought in Europe. Unable to enter the country, Hong Jun bypassed Hong Kong and finally moved six servants to the Champion House in Suzhou Hutong. It can be seen that Hong Zhuangyuan, whose hair is already gray, dotes on the young and beautiful third aunt.
Unfortunately, Jun Hong died only a few months after returning home. A few days later, Sai Jinhua left Suzhou and went to Shanghai.
Why?
In A Dream of Red Mansions, Li Wan, a widow known as a Bodhisattva, said: When her husband died, the first few people immediately sent him away.
It means that my husband had several concubines before his death, and they were all driven away at once, leaving them to find another way to live.
This is an understatement. Are those concubines dead or alive after being sent away? I don't know.
After Jia Baoyu became a monk, Aron was also "dismissed" by his wife Xue Baochai, and Aron cried her eyes out and refused to leave. She was sold to Jia family by her family since she was a child. She was loyal, diligent and considerate, and served Baoyu comfortably. She was even satirized by other maids as Haber, which means a dog slave like a pug. I didn't expect to be kicked away, not even a dog. Fortunately, xiren had a brother who took her back.
Children in big families should be happy and face the family. You can't have your cake and eat it. Only women are unlucky.
However, where can Sai Jinhua go? She was born in poverty. At the age of 65,438+03, she was sold to a flower boat in Suzhou and became a prostitute. Two years later, Jun Hong, 35 years older than her, bought her a house. Later, the scenery of the minister's wife for several years was only a flash in the pan. She was still empty-handed, and before she could take off her pure white mourning clothes, the door of the Champion House closed behind her.
What can she do at 22? Except death?
Fate, at the moment when she was sold to a flower boat at the age of 0/3, condemned her original sin. In the next 50 years, whatever she did was wrong.
Hu Taihou in the Northern Qi Dynasty also encountered the same dilemma. In the history of China, the chaos changed the dynasty, and violence and moral bloodshed were particularly rampant. The subjugation of the Northern Qi Dynasty, as the empress dowager, suffered not only the same violence and blood as men, but also moral blood. In that case, she had only two choices: suicide and becoming a prostitute.
Bug is greedy for life, she wants to live. Is there something wrong?
Thus, there is the famous saying that makes the gods cry: it is better to die than to die. It means: being a queen mother is not as happy as being a queen mother. Maybe you don't want others to see jokes? Maybe it's Q's spiritual victory method?
Worms are greedy for life. Sai Jinhua made the same choice as Hu Taihou. She went to Shanghai and then to Beijing. She changed her real name to Fu, and the book was listed as "The Lady of the Top Scholar".
Is it a provocation? Is it anger? Is it a broken jar? He who sees through the world of mortals, for whatever reason, this is a golden signboard! Accurate market positioning, loud marketing slogan, clear product advantages, concise and powerful copy.
Luxun's novel Soap describes a gentleman who pretends to be a gentleman. When he saw an orphan girl begging in the street and everyone was watching, two local ruffians said: Although she is dirty now, if she is washed with a basin of water and soap, she will be a good product!
So the gentleman ran to the shop and bought a bar of high-grade soap for his wife. By the way, I am indignant and condemn these two hooligans from a moral height. Unfortunately, my wife accidentally saw through it: shameless! Is this soap a gift for me? Squeak It's obviously you, and you want to wash that beggar yourself!
China literati, the best at psychosexuality.
Her love with Hong Jun, her legendary experience as the first batch of China women living abroad, her dexterous hand of playing German waltz and China jasmine on the piano, her hard self-study will eventually speak fluent German, her diplomatic means of self-study, her freedom in various occasions, her talent as a literary youth, was seen by her contemporaries, and she was happy and surprised:
A woman, a * * *, how can she be so smart? How can you be so conspicuous? What do you want men to do? What do you want gentlemen to do?
Ah Q couldn't beat anyone, so he had to bully a nun who was weaker than himself, wringing the nun's face and saying, Monks move, but I can't move?
Similarly, Jun Hong can't move, can I?
So there are novels "Evil Sea Flower" and poems "Colorful Clouds" and "Golden Flower Poetry". Even if I can't touch a beautiful woman or her human flesh, I can sleep with you in words.
Even later, there were all kinds of rumors about unofficial history. When Eight-Nation Alliance attacked Beijing, she said that she used the foreigners she met as ministers' wives to save Empress Dowager Cixi and the people of the whole city. This is a traditional folk story, similar to Liang Hongyu's drumming against gold. Did you give orthodox forces a loud slap in the face? Isn't the official face lost?
Therefore, she has a famous name: Mr. Sai. This name reminds me of Master Wu, a hero who fights tigers. If she is a man, if she was born in a good era, with her high IQ and emotional intelligence, and her tenacity and fortitude, maybe she can achieve something.
It is also said that she slept with the German officer Vadexi, commander-in-chief of Eight-Nation Alliance, which made the literati more happy when they fantasized. The colorful flags were hung high, and another one was subdued under the pomegranate skirt, a stunner!
After Sai Jinhua died, someone wrote an elegy for her:
"Women are ashamed of their men and women, both born, and the three-character name is spread to northern Hebei;
Blue light leaves the ancient Buddha, the soul returns to the pure land, and the south of the city is buried with a bitter cavity. "
It means: Sai Jinhua is a woman who does good things for the people, which is why everyone praises her name. She herself, when she died, was full of pain.
The elegiac couplet is really sincere I watched it over and over again, and my tears almost fell. I feel sorry for this beautiful woman! I'd rather believe that her life is really as wonderful as the legend.
However, I am so sad. I hope she is an ordinary girl from her neighbor's eldest brother, the Fu family. When she was a child, she was the darling of her parents. When she grew up, she married a loyal man. She is full of love and water, and she is not disappointed. She was not despised. She lived a safe and beautiful life, closed her eyes without any regrets and slept in that small dark grave.
Sai Jinhua is buried in Taoranting, Beijing, not far from Shi Pingmei's tomb. The first generation of talented women Shi Pingmei and two of a kind Gao, for various reasons, all's well that ends well. Therefore, she can only engrave her heartbreaking monologue on her lover's tombstone after she died of a high illness: Yu Jun! I can't catch your life as fast as a comet. I will shed the rest of my tears to your grave until I can't come to see you!
Compared with Shi Pingmei's misfortune, at least, Sai Jinhua and Jun Hong's intimate years should be happy. Jun Hong should have had some real feelings for her. To what extent can these thin loves warm the bleak life afterwards?